I know it's physically hard for everyone's brains to feel optimism right now, I get it, but holy shit. I'm not going to be hanging around here. I've been looking at these threads for a while and I think it would just hurt me. I guess I'm lucky because I can still feel emotions to a degree and I have a good doctor.
You guys are probably going to be ok. I'm going to get on Viibryd instead of escitalopram because after doing more research on how these drugs work, I think invega fucked up my response to SSRIs and I need a partial serotonin agonist to avoid the anxiety gap I'm experiencing. It also doesn't cause sexual dysfunction, it's pretty much the only SSRI that doesn't.
Try to uplift each other. I know I'm recovering. You might hit a hard point when your adrenergic receptors turn back on, you will be filled with fear and anxiety without the brakes of serotonin. But that means it's getting out of your brain. Buspirone is helping me with this anxiety, I just got it last night.
I know everyone has been traumatized by big pharma or whatever, but there is stuff that can help you guys out there. Talk to your doctors.
I'm outta here, I'll come back with updates and for any replies I should attend to. Dwelling here can really hurt you, I think, especially if you're mentally ill. Look up coping mechanisms for disassociation, y'all are disassociating on top of having your good chemicals blocked, and that makes you feel even more numb. I know this drug causes disassociation. I've felt cut off from myself before, I have depersonalization/derealization disorder, and this drug has caused the worst disassociation episodes of my life.
I've been going for walks, taking showers, and swimming around in my little pool in the back yard. Talking to my friends also helps. Being around people is good for disassociation too, have someone engage you.
I rejected help at first too. Please, seek help everyone. It's out there, I promise. I know it's hard but you need to try. The thing that has helped me the most is seeing what I can do to help myself recover. Peace out.