damn chinky, i didn't realize that i should be getting more from a phone connect. thanks for letting me know, but i don't think it's gonna change.. when i first met him i tried to get him to do 13 a jab, or at least 25 for two jabs, and he wouldn't budge from 12/24. but if i get at least 4 or 5 i usually get an extra one. and he does throw me extras quite a bit, like if something happens and i have to wait an exceptionally long time on him, that's grounds to get two or three extras. or like i mentioned before, the one time i made the drive to see him and he ended up getting arrested before i got there, when i met him the next time i got like three or four extra.
but there's not really that much i can do.. i hate going to the block to try and cop. i've just got way too many white friends who got fucked with bad by the cops. last friend that got busted hadn't even copped yet, the cop stopped him down south, pulled him over, took his money (like 80 bucks), AND took his cell phone and called the numbers under "mom" and "dad" just to tell his parents he was up in chicago coppin dope. man, fuck all that.
so i guess i'll just stick with my connect.. though probably not for too much longer.. my first child is on the way about 2 weeks and i've been trying to quit so fucking hard.. i've never wanted to quit so bad in my life but so far i just haven't been able to.. i found someone to perform an ibogaine treatment, but i don't have the money for it.. can't find any bupe or methadone.. fuckin sucks. i've been trying to at least wean off for the past 3 months.. but everytime i goto the city and get 4 or 5 bags, i always plan on doing maybe two or three the first time, just to enjoy it once, then weaning off quickly after that.. 1 bag a day, 1/2 bag a day, even down to 1/4 or 1/8 a bag a day.. but it never ends up fuckin happening like that.
except this time.. i did 1 1/2 bag a day, then 1 bag yesterday.. now today all i've got left is about 1/8 of a bag and 5 cottons.. i want to do the whole thing now but i'm not even really that sick yet, so i'm trying to wait as long as i can.. sucks though. i hate my tolerance, and how quickly i can burn right through dope