Chapter II: The Abyss is Eternal !

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Captain.Heroin said:
BOLSONARO TESTED POSITIVE FOR COVID-19

Un probably died of it / has been incapacitated for months potentially on death's door or recently dead due to covid

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE FLY UP TRUMP'S NOSE PLEASE, I want to see the fake orange suntan bed glow skin of his face hooked up to a ventilator...
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JackoftheWood said:
Thankfully none, and it's been about two weeks since I visited the beach. Really I'm just wanting to get tested so I know I'm not asymptomatic.
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Yeah the whole "we're only testing the sick" thing they thought they'd get away with was really dumb, like giving HIV tests to people ONLY showing AIDS symptoms :| by that point it's kinda too late, etc... and this is why it's gone pandemic/endemic.

I can't blame you for visiting the beach. I miss it. Very badly.
 
DopeM said:
those extracts will get ya

sometimes i smoke a 2g joint of 15% and wonder why I even bother

do you have a favorite dispensary / delivery service in your area?


also, wo ist meine schöne eriche liebe?
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erich disappeared for over a year and made a comeback briefly

yeah I was gonna buy flower bro but I'm like uhhhh I could spend ... too much on that ... and not even enjoy it? ugh

I see people get HIGH from weed that WILL NOT EVEN TOUCH ME. It is SCARY.

As soon as I can buy injectable THC at a comparable rate I am so doing that though. Don't care, love it, never gonna stop the madness.

Where I live they keep changing like dispensary store front vs delivery, what the good deals are. I have been chasing good extract prices for... a long time, so I can't say there's been an all time favorite place over the years.

Still scoping new ones. :|

haven't... slept... in so long... i forgot when I "woke up" but it wasn't at the right time of day/afternoon because it's about to hit noon AHHHH I need to get high SO BAD it sucks man

i should have some within the hour thank GAWD and i might even get some flower to supplement the EFFECTS because it seems to have more CBD than extracts OMG I am so going to get baked as fuck and just blare my music, and CHILL THE FUCK OUT SPIDER

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If Brittany Murphy was alive right now and screaming at me to chill the fuck out, I probably would.
 
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So memphis sees cap this way, he comes from pink places

the one who's chewin ur face, the meltin plastic gnom, the filth

well yo

that's how we are

we ain't no fake shits

as you are

so listen to old shady

go home, try a new recipe and tune to your netflix

this is not the place for you man

aye

everybody with what he can do

you know the sayin
 
u lost me shades

i'm gonna light up because IT FEELS SO GOOD TO HAVE THC AGAIN

yeah I can't even wait an hour after acquiring it.... and it's just THC ffs
 
wow I feel remarkably better T+5 minutes after the smoked marijuana

i don't even feel NEED2DAB

this is um... ok...

i might chill out and gtfo of here for a while, wouldn't that be nice...
 
trump is IDIOT FOR DEMANDING SCHOOLS OPEN the fuck

seriously he needs to take some meds more than me

he wants SCHOOLS OPEN? with anti-public school Libertarian style DeVos in cabinet... come ON, man...

"We have to reopen America" No, no we actually don't, because if it was that urgent of a lead and it wasn't going to do any good they shouldn't/wouldn't have done it in the first place.

Repubs got cold feet making liberal socialist policies look good
 
good news; will be having sex again soon i guess? potential bad news; they might be hotter, but the sex might be blah by comparison but whatever? ugh

i do hope i haven't lost my homojo
 
SS373dOH said:
Nah its going as strong as ever..
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it could be that my heart is still there but dick/mind has moved on because of recent events like at least 2, 3, 4, 5, 6 things and it's nothing i would blame either of us for (even though at least 1 or 2 of them are totally my fault) so yeah

I dunno if it's worth the effort/work

I still want to have my homojo going full throttle but I'm feeling a bit... like... having lost one of the best things going for me in life and it kinda .... not grief hurts, not heartache hurts.... I guess I just long for those "good old days". I used to do that a lot in the past, just a little now... sigh

i think deliberately BEING OK WITH THE TIME ALONE is part of the challenge and @madness00 was right to suggest that idea to me <3 him
 
things to remember

you can love others, you get to feel that

what does it matter if they aren't feeling it, you can't feel the love they have for you

you think you can, that's just mirror neurons reflecting joy initiated by you off a mirror; a philosophical zombie

i must stop caring what extant reality holds for me

IT IS ALL INSIDE OF ME

i think lots of gay dudes take that attitude hence why they are all bottoms ugh

as a top this doesn't jive well with me and i have to remember to stop seeking excellence through others because i will never find it (SAD DAD BEHAVIOR not typical GAY BAD DAD behavior)....

*NOTETAKING*
 
I'd rather never see him again than have it end in any worse of a way, because it wasn't that bad, and I need to stop feeling like WORLD STOPPED TURNING because of one simple night, it didn't and me thinking it did is not helping...

LISTEN TO MADNESS AND GHOST& they have good advice...

and MAL he has the best relationship tips, and WOLF too... THEY ARE UR FRIENDS AND HAVE GOOD ADVICE LISTEN CAPTAIN HEROINE LISTENNNN
 
also the fact that I care is sick

0 fucks given, 0 fucks should be given

I need to stop caring I NEED HEROIN without heroin

like benzos make me stop caring

maybe i should do what i can to try to get them possibly instead of freaking out OH GOOD IDEA (I have had ongoing panic/anxiety for... months now... nightmares for about a month... etc) this is like caving into a fucking battle so I lose the war against the pills I DON'T CARE I CAN'T PUT UP WITH THIS

my inner self is like FEED PILLS NOW GET THEM WHAT ARE YOU DOING IDIOT

:|

oh good news though, have thc, feel high, and i think ill get over my shit quicker if i keep smoking pot a lot and dabbing just a little instead of 100% dabs
 
feeling an undercurrent that has me on edge. all i can do is concentrate on keeping an open mind and keeping calm. whatever is coming may it pass me by.
this is no delusoinal post... tell your friends
 



I dunno man, I will never forget hearin this track live with active speakers. Rodhad took us on a dark carousel
 
PtahTek said:
@Captain.Heroin
just jumped a train goingto lorazepam-ville. didnt think id like it but loving it ATM.
a week or three of cruise control......
need it specially now
thank all
love ya bro
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i finally figured something out

and i feel um

1% better I think, maybe 99%

but there is some line of who is to blame, and we shall never know

'twas probably not me

but i can live w/ it

fucc i always fall in love w/ them thirsty thots
 
FUCC you guys I am SERIOUSLY screwed

and this isn't me being bummed/depressed it's like I am actually in *yet another situation* where I SHOULD FEEL GUILTY over something, POTENTIALLY, yet I don't because X Y and Z factors (OH god god GOD god damn GOD DAMN) and this is a compounding problem I have had that was bumming me out earlier but can now just feel guilt not bummed about?

I'm SO relieved in like 10 different ways but nervous in like 4 different ways now

and no longer afraid over 40 other random things?

Yeah that's like, the right approximation of THOUGHTFEELS to reality

Too many thoughts in my head
 
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bk where are you when i need you, private deets i need to share at least 1% of them

mal, madness, anyone HOW CAN MY LIFE KEEP HAVING TELENOVELLA-LIKE INTENSITY TWISTS LIKE THIS IT IS NOT FAIR GOD WHY

this is my life

 
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