I feel the same way about it, I find it very sedating, too sedating. And the next day I feel anxious, the rebound is worse than other benzos I've tried. Plus it seems to have less anxiety reduction and "euphoria" (no benzos are euphoric for me, but, for example, etizolam makes me feel good, a sort of quasi-euphoria).
Isn't it odd the way “euphoria” differs from drug to drug, user to user? This is subjective, so it's no surprise, yet it fascinates me.
- Consider: to some, euphoria is defined by—and contained within—the spectrum of morphine derivatives.
- To others, euphoria is led to via heavy stimulant use, sometimes cocaine/crack/freebase, sometimes methamphetamine, other times still: RCs…
- Somewhere in there is the unique glow of MDMA euphoria.
MDMA's anxiolysis is something in the opioid/opiate high… and this is also how I characterize the effects of an appropriate amount of methamphetamine: it's surprisingly smooth for a stim w/ such a sketchy rep. Maybe anxiolysis is a common denominator among these drugs (booze, too, I guess).
On etymology… what is the
opposite of dysphoria? Euphoria, right? But what is a state of neither feeling euphoric nor dysphoric? Phoric? (what my buddies
@indigoaura,
@moonyham, et al. might call “meh-phoric”?
One love, friends… )
Is “phoria” a thing the way qualia is? See, I think “euphoria” implies a state of completeness, as in: there is no bad feeling, but you're also at a baseline. You don't feel amazing for no real reason like it's implied you do with a drug that “forces you to feel good” as it were. See what I mean? But you're not experiencing any pronounced
anhedonia either.
So it's like there should be at least three states of being, something like:
- dysphoric – bad
- euphoric – neutral or “good”
- hyperphoric – great
But then you've also got the word “
metaphoric”, which implies the word
metaphoria which should also give rise to
anaphoria and
cataphoria if we accept the words
anabolic,
metabolic, and
catabolic, right? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
