tezboy_racing
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keystroke said:well afaik sydkiwi is a girl
so unless you smoke monkey pole ........?
hey! i looked at the "syd" part and assumed she was a dude!
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Bluelight Singles thread "Living without justification" Part 2
- Thread starter BREAKaBEAT
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hey! i looked at the "syd" part and assumed she was a dude!
haha 
Shnouzerpuff
Bluelighter
Sick of the run-around.
Cannot be bothered here... really.
I manage to meet the coolest chick who I get along with super.
She is invited into my life, has seen me with bed hair, met my closest friends, drank with my sister and petted my pet dog.
I accidently get an SMS from her midweek that was meant to going to her gay best friend "Z"...
The thing is riddled with talk about depression, fucked situations and can "Z" get her some "super strong anti d's from psych?".
Who the hell is this person?
When I am with her she is awesome. but for all I know this actress I sometimes see is just playing another role.
Where I seem to be nothing but the guest star.... or extra.
So here is the first pissed off potential single for this Christmas. Ho Ho Ho to the idea of opening up entirely to someone who maintains a facade then waiting until your defenses are completely down before looking at the "real" you, and choosing instead - option B*.
* option B = any scenario that does not involve ~you~
Cannot be bothered here... really.
I manage to meet the coolest chick who I get along with super.
She is invited into my life, has seen me with bed hair, met my closest friends, drank with my sister and petted my pet dog.
I accidently get an SMS from her midweek that was meant to going to her gay best friend "Z"...
The thing is riddled with talk about depression, fucked situations and can "Z" get her some "super strong anti d's from psych?".
Who the hell is this person?
When I am with her she is awesome. but for all I know this actress I sometimes see is just playing another role.
Where I seem to be nothing but the guest star.... or extra.
So here is the first pissed off potential single for this Christmas. Ho Ho Ho to the idea of opening up entirely to someone who maintains a facade then waiting until your defenses are completely down before looking at the "real" you, and choosing instead - option B*.
* option B = any scenario that does not involve ~you~
gher
Bluelighter
^LOL @ tezboy! Yes, sk is a girl. Now you two play nice.
As for me, last night I went to a club and popped an MDA pill, which probably blew things out of proportion as far as women are concerned. I bumped into A, who I met at a rave in September and who knew this guy I used to work with. She also knew B, a girl I met at my birthday rave. Now I love B to bits and I think it's common knowledge to people who know us both. A told me how B and I would make a great couple. I said B needs to grow up first. What worries me is that B gets around a fair bit and I'm starting to resent her for it. A told me to tell B how I felt as soon as possible.
So I did.
B took it to mean I thought she was a slut. I think this is where the MDA really comes into play. I was too scattered to get my message across properly, so I think I fucked up B's Christmas.
And now I'm spewin' because we agreed to talk about it in a few days, when I'm not scattered. I'm in suspense and I hate being in suspense. Also A didn't type in her number into my phone properly and I can't call her and tell her I fucked up.
I'm such an idiot.
I think I need to take a break from the parties and drugs.
As for me, last night I went to a club and popped an MDA pill, which probably blew things out of proportion as far as women are concerned. I bumped into A, who I met at a rave in September and who knew this guy I used to work with. She also knew B, a girl I met at my birthday rave. Now I love B to bits and I think it's common knowledge to people who know us both. A told me how B and I would make a great couple. I said B needs to grow up first. What worries me is that B gets around a fair bit and I'm starting to resent her for it. A told me to tell B how I felt as soon as possible.
So I did.
B took it to mean I thought she was a slut. I think this is where the MDA really comes into play. I was too scattered to get my message across properly, so I think I fucked up B's Christmas.
And now I'm spewin' because we agreed to talk about it in a few days, when I'm not scattered. I'm in suspense and I hate being in suspense. Also A didn't type in her number into my phone properly and I can't call her and tell her I fucked up.
I'm such an idiot.
I think I need to take a break from the parties and drugs.
onetwothreefour
Bluelight Crew
Originally posted by Shnouzerpuff
Sick of the run-around.
Cannot be bothered here... really.
I manage to meet the coolest chick who I get along with super.
She is invited into my life, has seen me with bed hair, met my closest friends, drank with my sister and petted my pet dog.
I accidently get an SMS from her midweek that was meant to going to her gay best friend "Z"...
The thing is riddled with talk about depression, fucked situations and can "Z" get her some "super strong anti d's from psych?".
Who the hell is this person?
When I am with her she is awesome. but for all I know this actress I sometimes see is just playing another role.
Where I seem to be nothing but the guest star.... or extra.
Sick of the run-around.
Cannot be bothered here... really.
I manage to meet the coolest chick who I get along with super.
She is invited into my life, has seen me with bed hair, met my closest friends, drank with my sister and petted my pet dog.
I accidently get an SMS from her midweek that was meant to going to her gay best friend "Z"...
The thing is riddled with talk about depression, fucked situations and can "Z" get her some "super strong anti d's from psych?".
Who the hell is this person?
When I am with her she is awesome. but for all I know this actress I sometimes see is just playing another role.
Where I seem to be nothing but the guest star.... or extra.
obviously i can see entirely how this looks to you, and couldn't help but be a little (or a lot) perturbed, if i were in your position.
BUT...things like depression, psychologists and things like that are often VERY intense issues. of course i don't think you'd underestimate that, but since you've only been dating this girl for (i think) a few weeks, it is very possible that she would have possible admitting things that she perceives as weaknesses.
i don't have a solution; whether you should broach the subject with her or just wait until she approaches you is something i'm not sure on, but i definitely think that a) she deserves some slack on it, and b) she sounds like she -otherwise- has her head screwed on well enough, and you've obviously fallen for her.
so don't give up
what i bet is that she just doesn't want you to get the idea that she's a "nutcase" or anything, because she probably likes you as much as you like her.
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p.s. my love-life is as confusing as ever. it just so happens that i went on a date the other night, but didn't realise that it was supposed to be such until i turned up. oh yeah, that was cool
(same girl as the last few emo posts of mine have referred to.)
funluvingurl
Bluelighter
Shnourzerpuff: There's nothing wrong with depression...people with it make the whole more interesting
I feel like I should post stuff because this is my favourite thread...yes, yes I know...8) and I normally don't have much to report except to whinge about old ladies and cats and so forth...However I don't always like talking about stuff because I feel it could jinx the situation.
I'm just going to have another will he call/won't he call week. I mean, I'm thinking he will after I missed 4 hours of *primo* sets talking to him - I really gotta like someone who I'm willing to sit down with during a tweet remix. I guess I'm only iffy because I seem to have a penchant for boys who take more shit than I do and this makes them very scattered. And boys seem to find me very intimidating??!! [this is only funny if you know me]. But seriously if ONE more boy goes on about how hot I am and doesn't act on it, I'm really going to crack the shits. I know this sounds kinda weird - but it happens all the time and its *really* frustrating!!
Maybe I'm just hard to satisfy because on the other hand I had the boys on the weekend that just stared at me continuously, seriously like puppies. I'm just going to my friend..."please help me!!"...but he could only do that for so long. I guess it's good for my self esteem...??
I feel like I should post stuff because this is my favourite thread...yes, yes I know...8) and I normally don't have much to report except to whinge about old ladies and cats and so forth...However I don't always like talking about stuff because I feel it could jinx the situation.
I'm just going to have another will he call/won't he call week. I mean, I'm thinking he will after I missed 4 hours of *primo* sets talking to him - I really gotta like someone who I'm willing to sit down with during a tweet remix. I guess I'm only iffy because I seem to have a penchant for boys who take more shit than I do and this makes them very scattered. And boys seem to find me very intimidating??!! [this is only funny if you know me]. But seriously if ONE more boy goes on about how hot I am and doesn't act on it, I'm really going to crack the shits. I know this sounds kinda weird - but it happens all the time and its *really* frustrating!!
Maybe I'm just hard to satisfy because on the other hand I had the boys on the weekend that just stared at me continuously, seriously like puppies. I'm just going to my friend..."please help me!!"...but he could only do that for so long. I guess it's good for my self esteem...??
KemicalBurn
Bluelight Crew
Girls suck 
im good as a fuckbuddy...but the second i get serious...no! we cut everything off 8(
im good as a fuckbuddy...but the second i get serious...no! we cut everything off 8(
keystroke
Bluelighter
Sounds like me, useless at both - first time not serious enough, second time too serious.
annoying girls 8(
annoying girls 8(
funluvingurl
Bluelighter
^^ boys suck more! I actually discussed this with [the boy]. Amused me at the time. He was going on about girls sucking (in the annoying and confusing sense alright??) and I was like well boys suck more. Ahh it was nice to commiserate.
*yes, yes I know, vaguely irrelevant and not interesting - still scattered...I just want my brain* back.
*yes, yes I know, vaguely irrelevant and not interesting - still scattered...I just want my brain* back.
Shnouzerpuff
Bluelighter
if I could only lose this damned attraction to women, and start finding men attractive.
Those guys seem to have it sorted.
Brought up the issue with the girl yesterday on a small dose of MDMA in a heritage park.
Got a lot of stuff sorted out, got a lot of stuff more confused. She drove 3 hours to meet me there, and had to drive 3 hours back again after...
She said she needs to think about things with a clear mind, and take a couple of days to figure it all out.
I said cool, but there is no chance of us being "friends". I have enough friends.
and if the answer is "no" then don't even call me at all.
So who knows. I am not too fussed... either she calls and we start something serious or she doesnt and we don't... which would suck but I can't offer anything more than myself.
So there is no point stressing.
conclusion - girls suck.
Those guys seem to have it sorted.
Brought up the issue with the girl yesterday on a small dose of MDMA in a heritage park.
Got a lot of stuff sorted out, got a lot of stuff more confused. She drove 3 hours to meet me there, and had to drive 3 hours back again after...
She said she needs to think about things with a clear mind, and take a couple of days to figure it all out.
I said cool, but there is no chance of us being "friends". I have enough friends.
and if the answer is "no" then don't even call me at all.
So who knows. I am not too fussed... either she calls and we start something serious or she doesnt and we don't... which would suck but I can't offer anything more than myself.
So there is no point stressing.
conclusion - girls suck.
gher
Bluelighter
Well the bad news is B is still upset with me. I think. I haven't spoken to her today but I wouldn't be surprised.
The good news is she's back on the rails.
If she sees me and how she's going to act on new years is pretty up in the air, and to be honest I'll probably be too high to stay around her too long. Because that's what acid does to me. Either way, I still have her keys and if I don't see her on new years, I may not see her for a while because I'm taking a break from raves and drugs. It may be better this way.
This all goes back to me and unstable women.
Why can't I meet a nice one?
The good news is she's back on the rails.
If she sees me and how she's going to act on new years is pretty up in the air, and to be honest I'll probably be too high to stay around her too long. Because that's what acid does to me. Either way, I still have her keys and if I don't see her on new years, I may not see her for a while because I'm taking a break from raves and drugs. It may be better this way.
This all goes back to me and unstable women.
Why can't I meet a nice one?
drEaMtiMe*@#
Bluelighter
Originally posted by funluvingurl
I'm just going to have another will he call/won't he call week. I mean, I'm thinking he will after I missed 4 hours of *primo* sets talking to him - I really gotta like someone who I'm willing to sit down with during a tweet remix. I guess I'm only iffy because I seem to have a penchant for boys who take more shit than I do and this makes them very scattered. And boys seem to find me very intimidating??!! [this is only funny if you know me]. But seriously if ONE more boy goes on about how hot I am and doesn't act on it, I'm really going to crack the shits. I know this sounds kinda weird - but it happens all the time and its *really* frustrating!!
I'm just going to have another will he call/won't he call week. I mean, I'm thinking he will after I missed 4 hours of *primo* sets talking to him - I really gotta like someone who I'm willing to sit down with during a tweet remix. I guess I'm only iffy because I seem to have a penchant for boys who take more shit than I do and this makes them very scattered. And boys seem to find me very intimidating??!! [this is only funny if you know me]. But seriously if ONE more boy goes on about how hot I am and doesn't act on it, I'm really going to crack the shits. I know this sounds kinda weird - but it happens all the time and its *really* frustrating!!
heh, this is exactly what happens to me all the time too. fucking sucks, i know!
and i am also waiting to see if a guy i met the other night calls, i like him, but at the same time i'm unsure, he's extremely charming, our chemistrys through the roof, but i dont know he just seemed a bit to keen on the one night stand thing, and i'm just over it. i feel kind of retarded saying that i want a relationship but i do i guess. i'm sick of guys being too intimidated to approach me, or alternatively only wanting to get into my pants. blah. i dont know we'll see...
ps: nooo, boys suck!
leecie
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I'm feeling rather emo tonight and like I should be ranting in here...
I'm just confused but after a late night pide trip I'm even more confused yet also not as confused (yes I know...it made sense in my head) Emotions are difficult to grapple with at the best of times but when you have people interfering and fucking with your head with their 2c (plus GST) it just makes it even worse.
rah!
edit: just realised that sounded like i was angry at everyone for their 2c. I'm not...only with one person in particular who isn't returning my calls today and has beefcake arms and wears pink t-shirts
I'm just confused but after a late night pide trip I'm even more confused yet also not as confused (yes I know...it made sense in my head) Emotions are difficult to grapple with at the best of times but when you have people interfering and fucking with your head with their 2c (plus GST) it just makes it even worse.
rah!
edit: just realised that sounded like i was angry at everyone for their 2c. I'm not...only with one person in particular who isn't returning my calls today and has beefcake arms and wears pink t-shirts
keystroke
Bluelighter
2 year anniversary at what? being a cockhead?
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KemicalBurn
Bluelight Crew
Originally posted by preacha
insults, no matter how truthful they may be, work best when they have a little bit of humour
try it out keystroke, then get back to me in a few years
insults, no matter how truthful they may be, work best when they have a little bit of humour
try it out keystroke, then get back to me in a few years
Practise what you preach.
i'll get my coat...
up all night
Bluelight Crew
Originally posted by 'lil leecie
edit: just realised that sounded like i was angry at everyone for their 2c. I'm not...only with one person in particular who isn't returning my calls today and has beefcake arms and wears pink t-shirts
edit: just realised that sounded like i was angry at everyone for their 2c. I'm not...only with one person in particular who isn't returning my calls today and has beefcake arms and wears pink t-shirts
hehe
Hmmm I wish people were all a little more transparent so we didn't have to muck around with the 'does he/she like me?' shenanigans.
funluvingurl
Bluelighter
drEaMtiMe*@# said:i feel kind of retarded saying that i want a relationship but i do i guess. i'm sick of guys being too intimidated to approach me, or alternatively only wanting to get into my pants. blah. i dont know we'll see...
ps: nooo, boys suck!
Yeah you'd think there was something wrong with relationships or something. sheesh.
Being single sucks big time...
I miss the little things the most... watching him sleep, having someone to cuddle, Someone to talk to, Holding hands, Acturally feeling another emotion aparat from apathy or bitterness.
I hate that my past has made me bitter and jadded and even if someone nice came along I would probably push them away and not believe that they were genuine.
I miss the little things the most... watching him sleep, having someone to cuddle, Someone to talk to, Holding hands, Acturally feeling another emotion aparat from apathy or bitterness.
I hate that my past has made me bitter and jadded and even if someone nice came along I would probably push them away and not believe that they were genuine.
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