CottonAndGuns
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Once upon a time I was on Gabapentin, then Pregabalin. Coming off those were easy as pish. I'd get skin flushes and brain zaps for a few days then everything goes back to normal.
In April whilst (successfully but slowly) tapering a largeish amount of DHC I grabbed some phenibut because hey other people had done great things like going CT off much more serious opioids thanks to phenibut. Problem was I discovered this beautiful thing after 2 years of massive depression that I couldn't shift. I figured it was my meds causing it, hence the taper. But it was going too slow, hence the phenibut. I really shouldn't have bothered. But fuck it my mood was so low, suicidal, hated it. I just wanted out. I tried switching my DHC to Loperamide, but the cheap loperamide in the cheap shops were suddenly starting to vanish. It was working really well because Loperamide lasts ages. I'd take 12 capsules once a day and that was that until having to go back to DHC. Then Phenibut.
I felt the best I'd even been knowing full well it was artificial. I cried tears of joy. Nothing could bring me down. So guess what I didn't do? Instead of reducing my taper I just went back to the full amount I previously took wanting to prolong this sensation. Fucking stupid. That was 2 months ago when I started and the last I took was 5 days ago (maybe 300g). My mood is slowly improving but fuck it hit hard. I first bought pre-measured capsules, my peak was 2.1g but I wasn't consistent with doses. Most days I'd have 1g/d.
I'd CT from tramadol before and the mix of anti depressant and opioid was pretty intense. But this was so much deeper and darker. On days 2 and 3 I'd get panic attacks for no reason at all. Just, my heart rate shot up, mouth went dry, twitchy, shaking. Bollocks. But even though I could have taken some more to lessen these effects I didn't want to run the risk of restarting. I'd made it this far and I find there's no real craving from phenibut. YMMV.
It got so bad that I was inches from getting a taxi to the hospital, just because I was worried what I'd do to myself when my wife's asleep or out helping her elderly grandparents.
I haven't had a full nights sleep since Monday night, but I'm not really sleepy. I tried it and it just doesn't stick. I'll maybe nod off for a minute but I can't stop turning over, or feeling super uncomfortable due to skin flushing/sweating.
On the flip side on day 3 (evening) it felt like I was over it. I was so happy and pumped that I didn't even take DHC that night. In a way it was a bit shitty teasing me like that because Day 4 was a bad one.
One of the worst aspects is how twitchy I am. It's a permanent anxiety attack. I'm trying to get through this by chilling out during the day and helping out my family and inlaws in the evenings. But when I'm sat back watching something or playing a game I find random spasms never in the same place. These started when I began taking phenibut and are still present in withdrawals. The lingering effect is now spasms, insomnia, skin flushes, feeling of complete and utter unshakeable dread and personal failure. I've been chatting to other people in this situation, those a day or two behind or ahead of me, and at least the withdrawals are all fairly common.
But on that Day 3 Evening where I felt normal again, when I even skipped my DHC... I loved that. Bad thoughts vanished not long after they began and had no chance to wreck havoc. I just want that to happen again. It's given me the confidence to maybe even stop the DHC - just taking a fraction of it to *lightly* dampen the withdrawals. Yeah. Let's try that tonight.
Sorry for rambling. It's just I've found some excellent withdrawal stories on phenibut on this site, and reddit, and I hope someone else years down the line finds this post and it helps them too.
In April whilst (successfully but slowly) tapering a largeish amount of DHC I grabbed some phenibut because hey other people had done great things like going CT off much more serious opioids thanks to phenibut. Problem was I discovered this beautiful thing after 2 years of massive depression that I couldn't shift. I figured it was my meds causing it, hence the taper. But it was going too slow, hence the phenibut. I really shouldn't have bothered. But fuck it my mood was so low, suicidal, hated it. I just wanted out. I tried switching my DHC to Loperamide, but the cheap loperamide in the cheap shops were suddenly starting to vanish. It was working really well because Loperamide lasts ages. I'd take 12 capsules once a day and that was that until having to go back to DHC. Then Phenibut.
I felt the best I'd even been knowing full well it was artificial. I cried tears of joy. Nothing could bring me down. So guess what I didn't do? Instead of reducing my taper I just went back to the full amount I previously took wanting to prolong this sensation. Fucking stupid. That was 2 months ago when I started and the last I took was 5 days ago (maybe 300g). My mood is slowly improving but fuck it hit hard. I first bought pre-measured capsules, my peak was 2.1g but I wasn't consistent with doses. Most days I'd have 1g/d.
I'd CT from tramadol before and the mix of anti depressant and opioid was pretty intense. But this was so much deeper and darker. On days 2 and 3 I'd get panic attacks for no reason at all. Just, my heart rate shot up, mouth went dry, twitchy, shaking. Bollocks. But even though I could have taken some more to lessen these effects I didn't want to run the risk of restarting. I'd made it this far and I find there's no real craving from phenibut. YMMV.
It got so bad that I was inches from getting a taxi to the hospital, just because I was worried what I'd do to myself when my wife's asleep or out helping her elderly grandparents.
I haven't had a full nights sleep since Monday night, but I'm not really sleepy. I tried it and it just doesn't stick. I'll maybe nod off for a minute but I can't stop turning over, or feeling super uncomfortable due to skin flushing/sweating.
On the flip side on day 3 (evening) it felt like I was over it. I was so happy and pumped that I didn't even take DHC that night. In a way it was a bit shitty teasing me like that because Day 4 was a bad one.
One of the worst aspects is how twitchy I am. It's a permanent anxiety attack. I'm trying to get through this by chilling out during the day and helping out my family and inlaws in the evenings. But when I'm sat back watching something or playing a game I find random spasms never in the same place. These started when I began taking phenibut and are still present in withdrawals. The lingering effect is now spasms, insomnia, skin flushes, feeling of complete and utter unshakeable dread and personal failure. I've been chatting to other people in this situation, those a day or two behind or ahead of me, and at least the withdrawals are all fairly common.
But on that Day 3 Evening where I felt normal again, when I even skipped my DHC... I loved that. Bad thoughts vanished not long after they began and had no chance to wreck havoc. I just want that to happen again. It's given me the confidence to maybe even stop the DHC - just taking a fraction of it to *lightly* dampen the withdrawals. Yeah. Let's try that tonight.
Sorry for rambling. It's just I've found some excellent withdrawal stories on phenibut on this site, and reddit, and I hope someone else years down the line finds this post and it helps them too.