Yeah I've done my fair share of K and MXE. I liked it and it helped my depression ft or about a month after each use. My phychedelic connections right now are zero. But I have a theory that they find me when I need them
I had a s-ketamine experience once where I felt all my depression melt away, and honestly, it was overwhelming and it wasn't my fondest experience. I didn't like liking everything (perhaps this is what depression really is?). I remember recognizing it because there was just
awful music playing, something I'd never like or stand for sober. And I realized how I'm supposed to like everything, I'm supposed to be able to like
all life experiences.
But then I sobered up and realized, why would I want that? I was sickened by the music again, and all was well.
I've just accepted my likes and dislikes for what they are, and trying to aim to be depression free, or to like
everything about life would be a near futile effort. I just don't think it's necessary.
This 'anti depression' effect of ketamine doesn't last long, I think the 1 to 6 month purported window is a bit over-exaggerated.
a solid intravenous DMT gave me a more permanent lifelong positive outlook. I could say the same for a solid intravenous dose of MDA. But I'd never really recommend people try ketamine for depression. Ketamine has too many downsides; it can be severely addictive for some people, and constantly using it is going to irreparably damage the body (specifically the bladder) and potentially leave someone with brain changes, PAWS for years, etc.