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Been Clean off dope for 3 months

Thanks guys! Couldn't of done it without help from all you guys, my sponsor, and support group :D Im glad my thread can be beneficial to you. It only gets better from here man! Good luck with everything!! <3
 
sry to just intrude on thread but, im glad to see many ppl having success with getting clean. personally, i have been off heroin since i got arrested in march of 2011, i got out in may 2011 and they refiled charges in june, i was clean during that month on the outside. fast forward, i was sent to prison for 1 year, and i've ben out since may of 2012 and i've been clean ever since. i still had suboxone from when i was out, and unfortuantely i did start using it again.. crutches man, damn. but as far as shootin dope goes, i really dont thinka bout it anymore..i was definitely really really addicted, ive used opiates for 8 years, heroin for 5.. i guess i got lucky, because i have a supportive family, and it's really not worth it right now. i do know i got some issues still, it's like a timebomb waiting to erupt i feel sometimes.. but so far so good. i honestly crave cocaine/crack , not the heroin..strange. i hope you guys keep up the success, it's a totally new world not being stuck in such a self destructive cycle, i wish yall the best. - itchy
 
Hell YES man!!! Dude you are going to have the most awesome time kayaking, and I bet you feel great physically, so it's going to be amazing!! <3<3<3

I've never been kayaking but I want to go so bad. It's my boyfriends favorite *sport* since he doesn't do any other physical thing like hiking or swimming or anything. You'll have to tell us all about it when you get back!
 
Congratulations, A. I love kayaking, too. Will you be on a lake, a river or the ocean? Anywhere on the water is good.:)
 
Some lake up in Oklahoma. Going with a group from NA. Supposed to be some function thing. Haven't been. Its once a year. Im pretty excited :D
 
Joined a club at my school. Im vice president -_- its good on my college resume i guess. Im trying to get into Phi Theta Kappa's Honor society thing. need a 3.5 gpa and i got a 3.08 :| I think i may retake some classes to get my gpa up cause if im a member in PTK then they will pay for my university and i pretty much get a free ride and get letters of recommendation and all that. Im kinda bummed about slacking last year.. those C's are really killing me. Its unfortunate i had to keep getting high in college and fuck around... It is what it is but i should of been more serious about it instead of half-assed. Im trying a lot harder this semester and studying hard and doing homework around the clock. in the library all the time. I hope it pays off.... Almost 8 months clean on oct 11th. Shits been good man. Sry you all havent heard from me in awhile!!
 
Get 9 months on sundayyy :o
Shits been crazy man... lost a close friend to a heroin overdose :'[[[ never lost someone close to me before.. Still fucks with me. I hate drugs even more now.. This girl i was chilling with one day thought it would be a good idea to shoot up in front of me. But surprisingly i didnt have any urges at all. Not a thought crossed my mind. I was so disgusted and turned off by it. Fuck drugs man -_- couple of my friends in the program after the funeral started drinking and i was the only one there sober. Was gay. Felt so outta place. I deuced out quick. Other than that just school man... school, school, school. Shit is starting to get stressful. Cant wait for the end of the semester then ima be in cali snowboarding :DDD
 
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Congratulations on 9 months (just a couple days in advance)! I'll be hoping for good snow for you. Last year sucked. Hopefully this year we will see some snow in the mountains and rain down here--we need both! Hang in there with school--only a few weeks to go.<3
 
This girl i was chilling with one day thought it would be a good idea to shoot up in front of me. But surprisingly i didnt have any urges at all. Not a thought crossed my mind. I was so disgusted and turned off by it.
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This is exactly how I got to be. My sis was an addict long before me and stayed an addict long after I got off. Used to visit her and she'd be smoking H and I'd just be disgusted at the sight of it, WTF are you doing to yourself, you're still not past this yet? She even left bags in my pillow a couple of times when she stayed over at mine and I gave her the bed and I was just WhereTF do you get off doing this to me, I'm a recovering addict here FFS but threw those out with not a moment's hesitation or later regret. When you're finally done with heroin that's it, you're really done. The difficulty for most people is getting there but it comes to us all in the end I think. Those of us who survive the habit that is. Good for you anomaly, massive congrats on the nine months. Major fucking win! :)
 
The night before last the girl i was seeing until i had to let her go died :'[[[[
Im so crushed... she wouldnt stop banging heroin and now shes gone... These last 2-3 months have been such a bitch. It seems like it will never get better..
 
Oh man, I'm so sorry to hear that. Something you get to see a lot of moving in those circles. If it's not the drugs that kill them the dangerous situations they put themselves in to service the habit does for them instead. Goes with the territory. Doesn't mean it ever gets any easier seeing our friends and loved ones leave the world so young. Such a terrible waste of a life. You have my sympathies Anomaly, FWIW. Be strong dude.

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Anomaly, that is horrible. I got overwhelmed myself this morning. Started falling into despair and felt no motivation whatsoever to stop the fall. The school shootings. All the people spiraling down both on here and all around me. The falseness of "Consumermas". People arguing instead of talking. The false promises of drugs sucking the life out of already suffering people. I know what will help and I hope that it might help you, too. We have to get out in nature, feel the fragility of our lives and everyone else's and see it against the immense eternity of nature. Take the time you need to grieve. She was surely worth all the tears you can cry. But know also that your commitment to your own healing is the only thing you can actually control. (((((((<3)))))) I am so sorry.
 
Yeah... i went out to this lil trail thing she took me too when we first hungout yesterday. I just feel bad. She wouldnt quit shooting up and i couldnt have that around. The last time i saw her we were hanging in her car and she starting shooting up in front of me again and this time i drew the line and left. I bluntly stated that im not down for all that and im better than that shit. Idk.. i came off as a dick but i was just trying to worry about me. I was fucking selfish. I should have tried to be more considerate. I got tired of all the bullshit she put me through just so she can get high. and turned out to be more of a hassle than anything. I mean i really cared about her and tried so hard to help her but she wouldnt listen. As much as i hated what she was doing i really really cared for her.. i tried to text her a few times but she wouldnt answer. I think she was mad how i ended it... :[[[ i havent even got over this last death... Im so numb.
 
You have to do that Anamoly sometimes, you shouldn't feel bad about it. The struggle is hard enough without surrounding yourself with others who are selfish enough to make that even harder for you with their inconsideration, your own recovery must come first, it has to. I had to cut my own sister out for a good few years cos she didn't have the consideration not to use around me. It's a tough thing to do, trying to rebuild what was lost to heroin now we're all clean. And you know full well as an addict you can't help get anyone to stop no matter what you do. Someone determined to use will ignore any help and support you try to give anyways, they can only get there by themselves in the end. Sometimes the loss of people in their lives can help them get there by itself, if they value those people enough.
 
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