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Thanks for the words of encouragement! We hope all goes well, depending on what they find they might have to do a follow up that'll be a bypass or putting in a stint.

He's got a lot of other health problems. Seems in good spirits but I can tell he is worried. Going down to Winston to see him tomorrow, he got transfered to another hospital down there today.

Just took 1mg more of xanax, 400mg of gabapentin (did 800mg an hour ago or so). and one small sip of moonshine (thanks fellow BLer for that, he gave me some weeks ago). That's it for tonight on the bezos and shine.

Going to smoke a joint when I get done posting this and watch some adult swim. Its a mix of high grade "thunder chicken" as we call it around here and some commercial bud. Rolled it as big as my ring finger. :)

Sorry for mis spellings or grammar, on my phone atm.

btw sorry if I am glorifying drug use. To newbies: do not do the combo I did tonight. I know my toleerance and its stupid to mix this stuff anyway (well excluding the pot).

Be safe all
 
Got up on time for my first day back at work. I definetly woke up on the right side of the bed this morning ;)

Grubbed down 4 eggs with cheese and salsa then plugged 3/4 of a roxi and took a few bowl hits.

Its 28 degrees and I'm bundled up like an Eskimo. Oxy shall be my blanket all day tho.
 
HeadphonesandLSD said:
Know this ain't the place to rant but...

I got shaken down by two detectives last night and I am pretty fucking pissed about it. They pulled me over for no reason, searched me and a passenger for no reason, tried to illegally search my car and to top it all off made me do a field soberity test just so they could laugh about it.

I am sick of this shit....I must fit the description of that guy that wanted munchies at midnight. This has happened twice in as many years, don't they have something better to do like find the crack heads that constantly steal my stuff?

I am firmly in the fuck tha police camp now. Nothing but a bunch of "good old boys" covering for each other. They pull shit like this and cover for each other then wonder why we distrust them.

So if any LEOs are reading this: fuck you. I will never respect you. You are scum, filth, and I hope you get what's coming to you asshole.

From now on I am recording everything that happens while my car is on the road and if I see another driver pulled over I am stopping and recording that too. Hell if I see the police in public at all I will record them.

Sorry guys....I know its a useless rant but I had to let off some steam. Waiting on the weed man to get in touch, soon as he does I am twisting up a fatty and playing some CoD, hope y'all nightwent better than mine.
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The police are sub-human scum, sorry to hear they ruined your night. You can still choose to be happy and not let it bum you out though. %)

I'm personally thankful, since three people I know were arrested within maybe a 2-3 week period. The police are relentless.
 
Nodded out last night with my laptop on my lap and woke up this mroning with it still there....one of the very few times where I didn't roll around with it on my lap and have it sent crashing to the floor....today's going to be a good day. Any big plans for all you guys today? Just some heroin and continuing to job search for myself.
 
^ Hah that's happened to me. Except I was typing something and I nodded out with my hands on the keyboard and came to about 1 or 2 hours later with like 50 pages of nonsense typed out in front of me.

I think my big plans for today will be to clean up my room, or at least make it possible for me to get to my bed without too much difficulty :|

Also I'm (sort of) getting out of my relapse. No speedball or IV'ing yesterday nor today.
 
Just finished eating lunch at work. Just smoked the last if my bowl I brought snorted half of 15 and I did 2 if em since I got up. Also just dosed a half of mg of Xanax cuz I didn't want to over due it. 1 mg is a little to much when I gotta drive the bob cat or the gator (John deere). Other then driving around I'm just digging trenches for drain pipes and digging up Sod. I'm enjoying my day pretty well so far :)

I'm glad I woke up on time this morning tho. It felt good to do that.
How's everybody doing right now
 
Had a nice fat shot of dope early this morning and glass of freshly-squeezed Lemonade mmm. I smoked a bowl of some potent and it's left me laying in bed all morning/afternoon watching Netflix.

Trying to see what I'm gonna get myself into today. Just dosed 1mg of clonazepam, will probably top that off with 1 more mg of clonazepam and maybe 1mg of alprazolam. Wish I had more dopiates!

How is everyone ? Good I hope?
 
Good :) hbu?

My buddy gave me 2 mgs of Xanax and $5 for a roxi 15. I'm gonna give then to my mom and get my friend to give her 10 more for 2 15s from her since over the last year I stole all her Ativan that was supposed to last her a year so I'm gonna get her some so she has something till July.

I still have another 1.5 mgs for me tonight so that's it should be a good night. Bout to get off work, I might take a nap when I go home
 
well i woke up to go to work today and something told me to check on my dog. so i went outside befo[re i was about to get in the shower and sure enough my dog has lost a shit ton of weight, her belly looked swollen, yet she wasnt eating… she was laying down and wouldnt even move at all and was drooling on her self. (she is a golden retriever and wass 12 years old human age.) so i took her to the vet knowing that i was probaly going to have to put my dog down. mind you this dog is family to me. so at the vet he told me and my mom that she had a gallon of bloody fluid built up in her abdomen, and also had a the left side of her heart blocked by heart worms… the was already in congestive heart failure and the vet said she probaly wouldnt live through heart worm treatment. (she had a 15% chance) and she obviously had no fight left min her considering i had to literally carryh her everywhere! shes heavy as hell too. anyways they had to put my dog to sleep in front of me at the vet and literally i cried (which i honestly dont do often) anyways i was pretty much crying all the way home with her in a large black trashbag next to me. i got home and picked a goood grave spot and burried her properly. so needless to say its been shitty today and i also was somewhat jealous of my dogs massive shot of crazy ass dope (whatever the fuck it was… coulda been ketamine!?!?!??!?) anyways im now drinking as much beer as i can shove down my throat and smoking some crazy potent ass pot. i wish i had a clean needle and some pain pills or some dope or something… i want opiates in general :(. anyways im gonna say youre welcome to certain bl'er that may or may not be enjoying some of my fine ass moonshine!
 
Damn Pagey and Scag you guys are doing better than me :( I just can't seem to get only dope if I have the extra $$ I always end up getting coke. I think for me personally I need to stop shooting dope and start taking suboxone. Once I'm only on suboxone I don't think i'll be shooting any coke because the come down is so fucking shitty. I can't IV coke unless I have heroin to smooth out the come down. The crash is so shitty I honestly would rather pass on coke rather than shoot it without dope for after. So hopefully I'll just do a large shot tomorrow morning of dope and get me straight all day...wake up wednesday and take suboxone and get the ball rolling on me getting out of this bender. How was every1's day?
 
Aw I'm sorry to hear that Mass :( I think I'm 'lucky' in the sense that I prefer dope so I didn't need to be using it for the coke comedown like you, and the coke was much easier to quit. I hope you'll manage to get on suboxone but honestly, if I can (kind of) quit, I'm absolutely sure you can too. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you!
Managed to snort even less H than usual today, I'm planning on reducing my doses in the next few days before jumping on codeine and benzos this week-end and hopefully being completely clean by mid/end March. That's the plan anyway :)
 
Nah. I was a massive benzo addict last year, quit around june and I've used them maybe 10 times since...but I think they're gonna be a necessary part of getting off the H.
 
I see, please be careful and don't swap your addictions! I know you don't have to be told that but still....makes me feel better :)

This is kinda funny I'm sure most of us addicts can relate to this lol. So today me and my boy are sitting in my Lincoln waiting for the dealer...he ends up taking forever and were waiting for over an hour. As the time goes on were getting really pissed saying what a fuck this guy is. The city were waiting in isn't that big so were just like wtf is this guys fuckin problem, he has multiple runners and we still haev to wait this long. He is such an asshole, totally disrespecting us making us wait this long. Saying to ourselves ya know fuck this guy we don't even need this shit. Then the phone rings we get our shit and go shoot up. As soon as we get back to the car "You know....he really aint that bad. Yeah he's an awesome dude" lol. SAD!
 
Pagey said:
Nah. I was a massive benzo addict last year, quit around june and I've used them maybe 10 times since...but I think they're gonna be a necessary part of getting off the H.
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as long as it doesn't lead to a massive benzo addiction then you are doing everything the right way :) I'm really proud of you, I believe that you can get clean, but only if that is what you truly want.
 
Is it possible to have mild withdrawal symptoms from 2 close moderate doses of hydrocodone?

I dosed 60mg then 50mg a couple days later, and now I can't stop running to the restroom...didn't think dependence could form so quickly...at least that's all I'm experiencing.

In other news finally getting my student loans on friday...I think everyone here knows what that means. :P

How's the rest of BDD doing?
 
^Depends on your relationship with opiods... If you're often in and out of withdrawal, then it definitely could be.

I'm doin' OK. Getting itchy. I'm thinking of going swimming. I'm living in this rich ass hotel while my house gets repaired, paid for by insurance..


Once I am high enough 'i will crawl down and go swimming.
 
Mass08 said:
I see, please be careful and don't swap your addictions! I know you don't have to be told that but still....makes me feel better :)

This is kinda funny I'm sure most of us addicts can relate to this lol. So today me and my boy are sitting in my Lincoln waiting for the dealer...he ends up taking forever and were waiting for over an hour. As the time goes on were getting really pissed saying what a fuck this guy is. The city were waiting in isn't that big so were just like wtf is this guys fuckin problem, he has multiple runners and we still haev to wait this long. He is such an asshole, totally disrespecting us making us wait this long. Saying to ourselves ya know fuck this guy we don't even need this shit. Then the phone rings we get our shit and go shoot up. As soon as we get back to the car "You know....he really aint that bad. Yeah he's an awesome dude" lol. SAD!
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Haha no worries, I've been through benzo hell once before, I have no intention of going through that again! :)
And yeah, I can relate to that story. I like to think i'ts not sad but 'normal' though, lol.

Mugz said:
as long as it doesn't lead to a massive benzo addiction then you are doing everything the right way :) I'm really proud of you, I believe that you can get clean, but only if that is what you truly want.
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It won't, I'm really confident about that. Cheers though, I hope I can do this.

Jktm said:
Is it possible to have mild withdrawal symptoms from 2 close moderate doses of hydrocodone?

I dosed 60mg then 50mg a couple days later, and now I can't stop running to the restroom...didn't think dependence could form so quickly...at least that's all I'm experiencing.

In other news finally getting my student loans on friday...I think everyone here knows what that means. :P

How's the rest of BDD doing?
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Naaah you wouldn't get WDs from 2 days of opiates, unless you'd been using some very shortly before/use opiates often? Your feeling sick is probably unrelated.
 
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