I was typing a long response before and my computer shut down god damn thing lately..
I don't think i mentioned how quite severe its been for over a year. I remember him acting wierd, real wierd, around the onset time. He would be online, talking about how his neighbors have sex 24 hours a day, and they were all "spying" on him, with camera's. When asked why he thought this well i dont remember exactly what he would say but it was wierd.
He'd go on about his psycho neighbors, ... then online eventually he would say lets not talk about this or that, I think the cops have my phone line and internet tapped. He was hearing things, major delusions, and it always somehow related to others ridiculing him or "after him" etc.
I hadn't heard from him in a couple months then he pops online. Said he had to check himself into the hospital / told me the whole story. He was going so crazy he would .. i forget the details but, put up signs on his windows telling the neighbors to stop spying on him, lock the doors in some 'crazy' way where eventually whatever else he did the landlord kicked him out.
After the ... not sure, month at least, maybe two, in the hospital, told him they diagnosed him with paranoid schizophrenia. I remember talking to him and I had to keep reminding him, that the voices don't have any control, they talk 'shit' but they can't do a damn thing about it.
For a while, (we usually just would chat online), well it seemed like he just had to still learn for months what were delusions and how to live with it all. Online, he'd bring up the shit about "we shouldn't talk about that", i'd say why? ... a couple of the voices were "psychic cops". Talking to people like me and others (um, THERAPY not just the tiny tiny bit of info they gave him! and the drugs) would get him to finally realise whats going on.
lol - he said while in the hospital, one of the janitors or someone working was talking to him and just said well tell those fucking voices to suck your dick. So eventually he got a little humorous, said there's 4 distinct voices and the female one that sounded hot he'd always ask out. He had to just.. not let 'them' get to him. Constantly saying he's worthless, and CONSTANTLY saying they are "psychic cops" after him! So yeah, towards the beginning and for months afterwards I couldnt imagine him NOT being on some major drugs for a while.. he said they 'reduced' the voices somewhat, its mainly an overall dumbing down of consciousness (what he describes), they were still there.. but he was sedated enough and shit they wouldn't bother him as much. Any white noise like a fan, etc, would often be a source for the voices.
Now it took some time but he did get quite back to normal, but.. never totally. I remember once him telling me he hasn't heard one voice in 3 weeks, but they'd come back. I'd talk to him about it all the time, i mentioned one night how maybe it could be parts of his own mind (before i read much about it) that got split off, and stayed split off during/after the meth binge. He said thats EXACTLY what it was like, a few small parts of brad separated/seemingly disconnected - but not really because they 'knew' everything he was thinking, doing, going to do, etc.
Really, after he got to where he could go back to work, start living life again, i mean god, i knew there were some side effects from the anti psycnotic drugs but it wasn't until i saw him i knew how horrible they are. He really has not researched this on his own since it happened, we (me and some other close friends of his) were all talking one night about the side effects - so bad, he had to leave work one day (he's actually working for a few wk's out here) just a few days ago because of the muscle rigidity.
I made sure to ask him, related to the DMT you think or no? he said no, whatever DMT did stuck with him so far (7 days now i believe), but after 2-3 days the side effects of the Geodon did come back (he really feels smoking the DMT reduced and almost eliminated all the muscle problems, for a few days, explanation anyone? thats very wierd too). There has always been that feeling in the back of his head, that all the pieces of the puzzle weren't quite in right and so the voices "could come" out, 24/7, if they wanted to i guess. Only after this DMT experience that feeling is totally gone - still the same,
I don't feel like quoting anyone really but yeah this was up to HIM, he had asked about it specifically, so i told him some stuff and printed various info (and no, not "promoting DMT" lol either, a lot of stuff really) - i certainly don't push anyone to do anything, and especially him. He asked me the other day if i had any dexedrine, really I can understand the desire for that kid of thing, going to work, no energy because its all sucked out of you from the anti-psychotic, but couldnt give it to him I mean.. amphetamines.... ya know, at least I personally think its a good idea to stay away from them.
LOL, but yeah, i 'suppose' i shouldn't have left the pipe out, but hey, um, i guess shit happens..and this time it was good shit

maybe i left it out subconsciously and he decided to toke that motherfucker so hard people let out a "whoa" sound, subconsciously too, ..or something.
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Anyway i'm going to get him to start doing a lot more research on it when he goes back home, get more active with it, instead of pretty much trusting his doctor. I know he doesn't want to live the rest of his life zombied out on that shit.
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