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Annoying neighbours, not sure if this topic has been done before ? Please merge if so

Mate chill they were talking to each other, not referring to you
 
Jeez MDB why don't you ask the mods to just close any thread you make immediately after you start it? ;)

You could consider BL to be a bit like the wider world. Drugs may have helped you become a bit out of touch and isolated from real people with attitudes, opinions, judgements and criticisms. I'm not saying its always right or pleasant, but that's what it's like. And you always can't use drugs and a front door to evade issues, it's way better to see them through.

Maybe you're not ready for the realities of BL, but I'll tell you this is one of the kindest, supportive, most forgiving and accepting forums there is. I think you should get your head out of your arse... and stay <3
 
i think i may have been, to put it mildly, in some form of 'benzo rage' yesterday whilst typing that precviouis post. Looks like everyones seen right through it but ill aplogise anwyway, expecially to ISEMENE whom i was partyicularly nasty to. Sorry.,

you might be right EADD is a bit of rough and tumble, you need a certain resiulience to cope with it. I may run down one of my underground warrens to hide away fro aw while.

thanks for responding with humour and understanding arher than in kind, that very facr prooves the post i made yesterday was wrong.

i took no phenaz yesterday. should chuck the rest. its nice to have as an emergency 'security blanket'when everything is too much thouhg.

i wont be caining it on a dfaily basis any more. Once my med switched are complete then it s back to actuall measuring and working reducing what im usingg, nt like just tip 50 mg of phenaz in there and hoof that ffs. how im still standing i diont know lol.

marmz plz can u empty ur inbox.
 
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But no apology to me? :(

If its any consolation I am too tired right now to even shake the dew of my morning wood let alone give any of you a pity fuck.
 
mydrugbuddy said:
i think i may have been, to put it mildly, in some form of 'benzo rage' yesterday whilst typing that precviouis post. Looks like everyones seen right through it but ill aplogise anwyway, expecially to ISEMENE whom i was partyicularly nasty to. Sorry.,

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You sure it was me mdb?
 
^ Hehe. Have but only just opened me peeps 20-odd minutes ago, Snolls. My usual mad typing skillz are not quite there yet ;)

One Thousand Words said:
I said white, not 6 week old man piss stained :)

It's a moot point anyway, we have checked out and will have to make do with mile high business class finger blasts instead
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I know they're the enemy and all that but you ever gone in for Mile High Flights. Almost seems like your kinda thing :D

Am undecided on whether I think it's a great idea or not. Yes a dedicated sexplane is pretty kewl... but I'd imagine the whole point of such shenanigans was the fact you ain't supposed to be doing it.

Also, six-week old manstarched sheets? Ha! after six months you can use mine as to build earthquake-proof buildings with :D
 
Try flogging them to the Met as a lightweight alternative to the usual stab resistant garb they use.

You know what the really bad thing about this situation is that i dont even notice that theres anything wrong with me at the tikmes when there clealry something is. (well maybe i have to say that rant yesterday was deranged).

Its really quite scary, at least when your stoned or tweaked on pv and feel paranoid you know its just the suubstances causing the effects.

Phenaz is a bizzare one. I can feel it makes me a more aggressive character when under its unfluence (im usually totally non aggressive) but also more outgoing,charming, uninhibited and friendly.

Oh yeah i fell off my bike yesteday too, went sprawling across the tarmac. (I dont need any more reminidnding about the dangers of phenaz and cycling not just to myself, im a potential danger to others too, i know, i learnt that lesson the hard way yesterday, the way it really gets learned when you're covered in gravel rash). I must have looked quite some state wondering arounfd manchester with no shitrt on, covered in blood, looking for some antiseptic cream. The amount of big supermarkets that dont even sell it is fuckin shocking. Actually i think i did ok self-conduct wise and conducted myself sanely, i didnt get any horriffied glances like "who let that psycho out " 8o

i dont understand the character of the insanity that phenaz causes. Should i start anew thread, or let it evolve from here if anyone wishes to contribute anything.

It really worries me when people say i was a totally diffrenet person, beyongd all recognition. I dont notice any difference apart from a feeling 'liberated' and un-selfconscious.

As a matter of interest am i sounding sane and rational right now ? What is making the difference (This could lead to a kind of am i insane paranoia, where the fear of insanity becomes the insanity itself). Im jusust trying to be too clever there, doesnt really suit me does it.

Anyway, any one want a new in depth thread on phenaz psychosis ?

Am i sounding more sane today,a good 36 hours with no phenazepam ?

As i dont believe that i am completely insane i do not intend to continue eith my heavy phenazz binge. I;d be fascinated to see some proper research on this nad what is going on though, when a person becomes unrecognisabkle to others as the same person. Bizzarely baffling stuff.
 
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mydrugbuddy said:
i only had about 12 mg of phenaz, compared to my usual 50 phenaz, 2 zopiclones, 2 cocentrated valerian root, largactil, hard liquor. promethazine, and phenergan, and lest not forget etizolam.

I wonder why people here think im mad.
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Yes it's a proper toughy alright.
 
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