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RhythmSpring said:
@colin

Research the plant Iboga. It is used to reset receptors, to srort of "reset" the central nervous system.
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lol it doesn't reset shit, it just gives you a trip that leaves you more positive and allow you to recover psychologically. Acid or shrooms would do the same thing. Iboga is not a miracle drug.
 
colin681996 said:
Should of never taken this stupid fucking drug. I'm such a fucking idiot! :(
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Yeah, you are. Your arrogance in ignoring the three month rule and thinking you're special and wouldn't be affected and could do MDMA all you want has come back to bite you in the ass. If you ever recover I hope you don't go back to your cocky, ignorant ways.
 
Rio Fantastic said:
Hahaha. "Ohh im such an idiot aren't I guys? please comfort me and stroke my ego. don't agree with me you fucking asshole!! you were meant to feed me compliments!" -you
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How the fuck is looking for comfort and help in anyway egotistical. In fact its the complete opposite. I've seen you've been a cunt on other threads aswell, just get a fucking life man, seriously
 
colin681996 said:
No, I don't have health insurance. What tests am i asking for. Whats the actual name of the test?
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Oh man--thankfully there are places like life extension, directlabs, discountedlabs, etc to order your own tests without insurance (this actually would be cheaper than going to your dr and paying everything out of pocket--that would be insane for this since you don't have insurance)

The basic blood test names are just LH/FSH, Testosterone, Cortisol, Progesterone at 8 AM in the morning. That would give you an indication of the kind of stuff you are dealing with. Its not everything since you need to save $$$ but could give an indication as to what you are dealing with.

Low testosterone (and low cortisol, progesterone) at 18-20 is not common at all in the general population but since you have these delayed symptoms that are abnormal like low libido, you should get that checked out. The LH/FSH gives an indication of if your pituitary is suppressed.

Are you are taking enough vitamin D?

Honestly, major depression does not just come out of nowhere especially since you recovered from E. So there has to be a reason for it.
 
Strangestuff said:
Oh man--thankfully there are places like life extension, directlabs, discountedlabs, etc to order your own tests without insurance (this actually would be cheaper than going to your dr and paying everything out of pocket--that would be insane for this since you don't have insurance)

The basic blood test names are just LH/FSH, Testosterone, Cortisol, Progesterone at 8 AM in the morning. That would give you an indication of the kind of stuff you are dealing with. Its not everything since you need to save $$$ but could give an indication as to what you are dealing with.

Low testosterone (and low cortisol, progesterone) at 18-20 is not common at all in the general population but since you have these delayed symptoms that are abnormal like low libido, you should get that checked out. The LH/FSH gives an indication of if your pituitary is suppressed.

Are you are taking enough vitamin D?

Honestly, major depression does not just come out of nowhere especially since you recovered from E. So there has to be a reason for it.
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There definitley is a reason, just finding that reason is like trying to find a needle in a haystack. Lets say my T is low, cortisol is low and the lh/fsh test shows that my pituitary gland is infact supressed. How do I go about fixing these things? diet, supplementation, exercise etc. ? and unlike other guys in the recovery thread I have absoloutley no anxiety, visual disturbances, or cognitive deficiencies
 
Having none of the cognitive/visual stuff is a good thing.

Diet/supps/exercise would help--particularly strength training (but not overtraining as this whacks the HPA more). There are some specific supplements to look into for libido.

There are medications out there like Clomid or Nolvadex or HCG that would help though that route is quite complicated due to estradiol stuff and requires lots of tests/monitoring compared to the natural route.

I would avoid 5-HTP or SSRI as it could worsen your libido. Have you looked into anything more dopaminergic?

Also if your cortisol/progesterone is low, then supplementing the hormone pregnenolone (best form is a cream) may help. The pregnenolone blood test is expensive which is why I brought up testing progesterone which is cheap and you can get an idea of where your pregnenolone is from that
 
Strangestuff said:
Having none of the cognitive/visual stuff is a good thing.

Diet/supps/exercise would help--particularly strength training (but not overtraining as this whacks the HPA more). There are some specific supplements to look into for libido.

There are medications out there like Clomid or Nolvadex or HCG that would help though that route is quite complicated due to estradiol stuff and requires lots of tests/monitoring compared to the natural route.

I would avoid 5-HTP or SSRI as it could worsen your libido. Have you looked into anything more dopaminergic?

Also if your cortisol/progesterone is low, then supplementing the hormone pregnenolone (best form is a cream) may help. The pregnenolone blood test is expensive which is why I brought up testing progesterone which is cheap and you can get an idea of where your pregnenolone is from that
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Alright, thanks man. Don't know how the hell I'm going to get the money for this but anyway..... It's just so fucking annoying that out of all the people that rolled that night, I'm the only one who has had any ill effects, the other guys have rolled a couple of times since that and are fine. It's just so fucking frustrating knowing that if I just hadn't taken anything that night I would be my normal self
 
My cry for help

Excuse me if I'm posting in the wrong place I have been a blue light member for about 5 mins now. Haha I have read the forum for as long as I can remember but never actually posted so I'm kind of excited to be able to get personal advice rather than going off of other people's similar situations. I'm here to tell you that you choose the person you want to be every second of every day. If you are convinced you are a different person now, then you are a different person now. If you are intent on a change, you will change. Anyone who has reinvented themselves or made a significant life change (losing weight, being social, whatever) can tell you this, and they're right.so here is the deal I am a 25 year old female about 105lbs living a life a addiction for the past seven years now. Started out on pain killers that I was prescribed after pregnancy and used them to get me through post par depression which quickly escalated to Oxys, roxys. Went from eating them to smoking them (which was a waste of expensive dope for 2yrs of my life lol) then to the needle which was by far the biggest mistake I have made in my life. I started to get it under control about two years ago and have been off the pain pills and on my prescription of zubsolv (same as suboxone) but still have not put down the needle. So for about a year that's all I was doing until I started hanging around a new crowd and was introduced to mrs.molly and fell In love. Needless to say I have been banging mdma just about every day (0.5 gram) for the past 6 month or so. It's no where near as amazing as it was the first time I guess I just keep trying to get that dirt high back but in reality I know it's not going to happen. I know I need to stop but I'm afraid of the depression and the long journey of recovery because I know it's done a lot of damage already. 80% of the time when I stand up I black out, my vision is starting to blur, I get really cold and shiver for hours after doing a shot, horrible migraines, no appetite , the list goes on and on. Is there anyone else out there that has been in my shoes but has overcome this or have I permanately destroyed my life? I need hope and encouragement. I have been telling myself I am going to go to rehab and get help for months now but never get the nerve to go through with it. I have to beautiful babies that I love more than words can explain and I want to be the mother that I never had I feel like a piece of shit and a coward and if it wasn't for them I would probably give up and write myself off already. Words of encouragement and advice would be greatly appreciated.
 
Not to sound disgusting or anything but I just had some happy time. Well.... in this case not so happy time. When i ejaculated I basically got no pleasure from it and it felt like there was a disconnect between my head and downstairs.
 
Its really frustrating not knowing whats going on. Not being able to go out and drink is also a bummer. How are you doing now?
 
Rio Fantastic said:
Yeah, you are. Your arrogance in ignoring the three month rule and thinking you're special and wouldn't be affected and could do MDMA all you want has come back to bite you in the ass. If you ever recover I hope you don't go back to your cocky, ignorant ways.
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Actually... many people don't follow the 3 month rule and claim to be fine. Although i believe many are not telling the truth, you do NOT have to follow the 3 month rule. Some people claim to feel messed up after taking 2-3 pills total, some claim to be fine after 30 in less than a year.

My rule, do not touch this neuro toxin at any cost. I have learned my lesson, even with spacing out. The human brain is not suppose to be exposed to such a powerful drug such as MDMA.
 
F1n1shed said:
Actually... many people don't follow the 3 month rule and claim to be fine. Although i believe many are not telling the truth, you do NOT have to follow the 3 month rule. Some people claim to feel messed up after taking 2-3 pills total, some claim to be fine after 30 in less than a year.

My rule, do not touch this neuro toxin at any cost. I have learned my lesson, even with spacing out. The human brain is not suppose to be exposed to such a powerful drug such as MDMA.
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Do you have any proof that shows mdma is a neurotoxin? I have read and looked up a lot of info about it, but never found anything reliable or definitive.

There have been huge discussions about this several times already, but you seem to have missed them. I'd explain it myself or link the threads here, but that depends on any further posts. If it's going to fall on deaf ears, I'm not going to waste my time.

Of course, if you have reasoning and proof beyond a reasonable doubt, I'll consider it and look into it more.
 
whenever i use stimulants i dont feel pleasure from sex, your not alone, it does something to your reward system, you need to allow your brain to recover 5-htp/tuna omega 3 oil helps greatly with this.

But currently I get no pleasure from sex, havent came in 10+ days lol, and i used to have sex/fap every day lol.
 
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I'm sorry about this. I can imagine that these side effects would be EXTREMELY concerning. You probably are thinking something along the lines of, "This is so not worth it. What did I do to myself!?" But not to worry! Permanent damage from doing MDMA 3 times is extremely unlikely. You took a light/moderate dosage and did not experience bad side effects while on the drug. It doesn't sound like you ingested a research chemical either. Even IF damage occurred, the brain is able to heal itself in many occasions that don't involve severe trauma (head injuries, oxygen derivation, etc.) I wouldn't worry Colin. A lot of it is probably in your head because you're hyper-focused on it (I would be too). If things persist see your general care MD and ask him what he thinks. If that doesn't help and provide answers perhaps seeing a psychiatrist would help.
 
colin681996 said:
I wasnt cocky or arrogant. I didnt fucking know. Rot in hell you unhelpful prick
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Colin mate you really need to chill the fuck out.

You have taken moderate amounts of MDMA 3 times in your life. That is not enough to give you permanent brain damage.

Christ, if it was, half of the people I know (me included) would be rotting corpses.

Your usage is NOTHING. What you are feeling is ANXIETY.

You are NOT special. You do not have individual differences pertaining to a hyper sensitivity to the toxic effects of MDMA. That DOES NOT EXIST.

If it did, millions more people over the globe would be in the same boat. But this problem effects only a very small minority of drug users.

I'm getting sick to death of telling people this. Yet everyone is frantically googling every single symptom and disorder under the sun thinking that they can think of something medical science has not.

You can't, and you won't. Until you treat the anxiety, you will continue to have your physical symptoms and you will continue to have a shitty life. End of.
 
ShortTermExpert said:
Colin mate you really need to chill the fuck out.

You have taken moderate amounts of MDMA 3 times in your life. That is not enough to give you permanent brain damage.

Christ, if it was, half of the people I know (me included) would be rotting corpses.

Your usage is NOTHING. What you are feeling is ANXIETY.

You are NOT special. You do not have individual differences pertaining to a hyper sensitivity to the toxic effects of MDMA. That DOES NOT EXIST.

If it did, millions more people over the globe would be in the same boat. But this problem effects only a very small minority of drug users.

I'm getting sick to death of telling people this. Yet everyone is frantically googling every single symptom and disorder under the sun thinking that they can think of something medical science has not.

You can't, and you won't. Until you treat the anxiety, you will continue to have your physical symptoms and you will continue to have a shitty life. End of.
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Jesus christ, what's up with the tone of responses in this thread? The kid's 19 year old for fucks sake, he's had a major bad experience, he's going through one of many rough periods of his life so the least you could do is spare him the holier-than-thou attitude that some of you have offered to him.

Collins, now you listen to me, kid. Stay away from drugs from now on. You aren't the kind of person thats cut out for them. Quit drinking alcohol, continue excercising and start eating healthy and vitamin C and E rich food.

Unlike some others, i dont think your situation particularly neccessates medical attention. You probably have anxiety and manic thoughts, that decided to ascribe every possible physical health condition towards this bad experience.
You can see a doctor and preform some tests, if thats going to make you sleep better, depression and anxiety usually disappear with a correct and healthy lifestyle though. I'd wait with the doctors and healthcare.bullsh. if things really dont improve after several months.

Good luck.
 
Riofantastic: you have no idea what you are talking about with respect to iboga. It is nothing like acid in pharmacological mechanism.

There is scientific evidence that Iboga does reset certain receptors having to do with the nAchRs and down stream dopaminergic processes. Its research published by scientist Stanley glick.

The mechanism of action of iboga is totally different than acid or shrooms.....iboga is a very weak 5ht agonist. Which is how acid or shrooms work.
 
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