I've been reading this thread for about two hours, I've only just come across this site and it's been enlightening reading other people's experiences. I'm 38 and I know I drink more than I should; alcoholism runs in my family and although I can go without drinking for days without any problems, once I have a few I get into drinking way too much. Recently I've started to get hangovers for the first time (anxiety etc) and it's really discouraging me from drinking like before. I can go out for the evening now with friends and drive and enjoy not drinking, which I assume is a good sign?
However sometimes I finish work (I'm self employed, could get hammered every night if I wanted to without worrying about employment etc) and I find the thought of the evening ahead frightening, totally without purpose without a few glasses of wine. All I have to do is have a bite to eat and a pint of water and after that the urge goes away...will this go away in time? Some nights seem so boring.
I've been getting panic attacks for the past 5 or 6 years too, Dr put it down to stress and / or hypochondria, but reading some people's posts on here makes me suspect it might be something else.
Thanks all it's really helped reading all this, I thought I was the only one.
Edit: Just reading on and OMG you get the same insomnia, tingly hands etc - I'm so glad I found this thread. If I have what I call a bad weekend; start drinking Thursday evening, usual bottle to two bottles wine Fri / Sat eve, Sunday afternoon beers with friends then I can kiss goodbye to Monday; Sunday night is wretched as I wake early hours feeling remorseful and Monday I feel anxious, twitchy, then Monday evening I just can't get off to sleep. That's what made me think it might be time to cut it down a bit and stop those weekends...sorry to go on, I've not really admitted this to anyone before...