• 🇬🇧󠁿 🇸🇪 🇿🇦 🇮🇪 🇬🇭 🇩🇪 🇪🇺
    European & African
    Drug Discussion

    Welcome Guest!
    Posting Rules Bluelight Rules
  • EADD Moderators: Pissed_and_messed | Shinji Ikari

3 most shameful things that you have ever done, in order!!!

Status
Not open for further replies.
the other most valuable thing I've found when it comes to developing your ability to deal with your own guilt and regret is that it also almost completely reduces your need to hold grudges, or need to seek revenge.

apologies (from those who've affected you by being genuinely undecent in their behaviour*) become totally superfluous to just knowing that they understand & acknowledge the magnitude of how it affected you.

these two things allow you to move on quickly. the psychological freedom you attain when you've mastered the skill of not baring grudges is massively positive on your anxiety levels and ability to function on a daily basis. HUGE .. cannot express how relieving that can be. it also helps towards being less inclined to judge people morally, and keep your judgements to being more ethically based, which is a little healthier ime


* not to be confused or lumped in with being affected because you have high, or unentitled expectations of someone

[edit] eh, sorry to ramble about this but it's been a big part of personal reflection for me, when trying to weed out stress, anxiety and ultimately the things that make me miserable in life
 
Last edited:
No its alright.

I try hard not to bare grudges too. I think they are poison and in the end youre the one thats carrying it.

Something I find hard to deal with lately is when I've humbled myself for the zillionth time and apologised to a person for my part in a row or whatever and that person never says sorry back..
I know its probably a spiritual goal or whatever to get to a place where I dont expect that or need it but fuckin hell this person is never wrong !!

( perhaps that is a grudge just seeing her like that.. i dunno)
 
YellowPolkaDotHalo said:
Something I find hard to deal with lately is when I've humbled myself for the zillionth time and apologised to a person for my part in a row or whatever and that person never says sorry back..
I know its probably a spiritual goal or whatever to get to a place where I dont expect that or need it but fuckin hell this person is never wrong !!

( perhaps that is a grudge just seeing her like that.. i dunno)
Click to expand...

I recognise this one YPDH. The person that is never wrong, yet is always telling you that you're never wrong!
 
The trick is to back out and claim you were playing Devil's Advocate ;)
 
I think for me the goal is to get to a place mentally and emotionally where I dont need an apology or recognition that there are two sides to an argument. Thats a more independent state ay?

ne way.. hope your comedown is minimal or nowt.. I'm off to bed. x
 
It's about a 5/10 on the misery scale.

Probably pushing a 6 if brain zaps start, which they will do :(
 
Shagged my recently (at the time) ex-girlfriend's brother and then her not even an hour after

Had a full on screaming fucking fight with said ex outside Bootham Crescent in the pissing rain. Fucking brutal and horrible and it makes me cry a little bit to this day.

Stuck a vibrator down my boxers and thrust my pelvis at my housemate to 'Sexy and I Know it'.

Wiggle wiggle wiggle wiggle wiggle.

Honestly I try not to regret too much and I've never done anything overly horrible; having OCD I have a tendency to feel guilty over absolutely nothing so unless I've mortally fucking offended anyone I try to just move on and forget it. Having a socially unacceptable best friend works wonders for this; she's the ex I mentioned in two of the above points and she has this brilliant habit of waking up after a fucked up night and going 'God that was a horrible dream, wasn't it?'.
 
I still do rotten and heartless things as the occasion demands or allows, if I have thought these out I, rarely regret them, there is more chance of regretting acts of generosity, that is not to say that no good deed ever goes unpunished, but they can come back to haunt you. I don't regret all the stupid things I have done because the lessons where often worth the learning.But as for the stupid things I have done when I was very very drunk at the time I will draw a discreet veil.
 
snolly said:
Shagged my recently (at the time) ex-girlfriend's brother and then her not even an hour after

Had a full on screaming fucking fight with said ex outside Bootham Crescent in the pissing rain. Fucking brutal and horrible and it makes me cry a little bit to this day.

Stuck a vibrator down my boxers and thrust my pelvis at my housemate to 'Sexy and I Know it'.

Wiggle wiggle wiggle wiggle wiggle.

Honestly I try not to regret too much and I've never done anything overly horrible; having OCD I have a tendency to feel guilty over absolutely nothing so unless I've mortally fucking offended anyone I try to just move on and forget it. Having a socially unacceptable best friend works wonders for this; she's the ex I mentioned in two of the above points and she has this brilliant habit of waking up after a fucked up night and going 'God that was a horrible dream, wasn't it?'.
Click to expand...

You hilarious cunt :)

Regarding my statement on regret - I'll come back to it, I cant really think too clearly right now but jesus this made me laugh a lot - thanks.
 
Many spring to mind. But the only thing I'll share is one that was shameful, sick and hilarious in equal measure. But then again I am a twisted fuck. YEARS ago when I was like 14 or so - before the steam age - there was a little twat that used to hang about with us who was about 11 or so. Out walking one day, said twat was being extra twatish when we came across a used rubber lying in the grass. Hey twat, see how big you can blow this balloon up. He did. It was sloppy.

Perhaps the most shameful part of that is that I still find it funny.
 
I just wrote mine out then deleted them. My problem is that my biggest regrets relate to Dave, and obviously I can't speak to him and sort them out. Objectively my worst thing is actually unrelated to him, and is something I have (kinda) come to terms with - still regret it hugely, definitely, but I've spent a long time talking to the person involved and we've sorted a lot out. I also understand why I did it, even if I still hate it that I did. I have some kind of closure there.

Can't do that with Dave, so even though they may not seem as bad as other things, they are what goes through my mind at 3am when I fancy some mental torture :( not sure how I'll ever sort those out tbh, talking to people and therapy doesn't really help to shift the guilt, but it is early days I guess.

Admire the honesty in this thread - both the confessions and those admitting they can't write their deepest, darkest confessions down.
 
I'm sure many of us have more than three shameful things that we've done in our lives, I just think it's the top ones, to an extent obviously it's hard to rank them.
 
The three worst things I've ever done that I can remember:

1. Smoked heroin in front of a 14-year-old.

2. Got my friend to take his father's pain medication and give it to me so that I could get high.

3. Gave someone their first taste of heroin. Thankfully, my friend unimpressed and didn't go near it again but I wouldn't be feeling to great about myself had they turned out to be an addict.
 
1. Encouraged my girlfriend to have an abortion, then let her get on with it without being there for her.

2. Made her burst into tears within a few minutes of waking up one Christmas morning by having a horrible argument and dumping her.

3. Made my mum cry when her sister died by talking to her in the most insensitive way about the death. This wasn't malice, just childish stupidity, but it still makes me cringe.

It's taken me a while to decide on these and build up the guts to write them down here. There is loads of other shit but the top three's enough. I'm a bit more sensitive and self-aware nowadays, thank fuck!
 
Status
Not open for further replies.
Top