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3 most shameful things that you have ever done, in order!!!

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I've sat here thinking about this for a while, I must of repressed quite a bit because I'm struggling to recall many, but I know there's been many.. ( mainly heroin related )

1. My parents finding out about my heroin problems, they thought I was on crack or something because I didn't have pin marks, unaware you can smoke gear.

2. My dad offering to take me to score because it was raining and taking him up on the offer.. Why didn't I just get wet, or take an Umbrella you TWAT.. Horrible

3. Ermmm, no my minds gone blank.. That's probably enough thinking about how shit I can be..
 
atm23 said:
Far to dark for me to even contemplate the answers, I could give some superficial list but it wouldn't be the truth:\
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great answer, and ditto, i could put a few embarrasing or foolish or even amusing incidents here, but shameful, Christ, there's no fucking way I'd detail my most shameful moments here.
 
1. Steal money on my father for heroin (only ever up to 20 at a time, and at that it rarely exceeded 10-15, but still - I'm ashamed)
2. Sell my brothers PSP's for drugs (ever the able strategist, I hid them first, realised after 4/5 weeks they weren't going to be missed and then swapped them for heroin). That was fucking cold as fuck...
3. Lied to my father about whether or not I was buying heroin.

I'd have mentioned IV'ing heroin, but...I really dont think of doing drugs as shameful. Not the act of doing drugs, but endangering my life...yeah, thats definitely a good candidate for shame.

But I regret nothing.
 
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I can't think of many things I've done that I would consider "shameful". I'll give it a go though.

1. Lightly pushed my mother in retaliation to an almighty slap to the jaw during an argument years ago. I barely touched her tbh, but she fell over, so I felt like a massive cunt.

2. Bought a half oz of soapbar off a wee guy shouting "Tick till Friday" with no intention of ever paying him. Never did. Laughed at him on the phone when he asked for it. Told his dealer (who I knew) to fuck off when he asked me for it, everyone had bumped the wee guy so he ended up owing about £300 to this boy. (I guess it taught him a lesson, but it was still a cuntish thing to do)

3. Shagged a fat rotten Italian bird in an alley on Christmas eve one year lol.

I'm not really ashamed of the last one, just wish it hadn't happened haha, but I couldn't think of anything else. I've done plenty of daft embarrassing or ridiculous shit before but not much that I would take back other than those 3.

Those 3 things were all years ago. I'm a nice boy now :)
 
Y'all actually playing a 19th century Russian aristocracy after-dinner game here. Strange but true.
 
endlessnameless said:
1. Steal money on my father for heroin (only ever up to 20 at a time, and at that it rarely exceeded 10-15, but still - I'm ashamed)
2. Sell my brothers PSP's for drugs (ever the able strategist, I hid them first, realised after 4/5 weeks they weren't going to be missed and then swapped them for heroin). That was fucking cold as fuck...
3. Lied to my father about whether or not I was buying heroin.

I'd have mentioned IV'ing heroin, but...I really dont think of doing drugs as shameful. Not the act of doing drugs, but endangering my life...yeah, thats definitely a good candidate for shame.

But I regret nothing.
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Feeling shame over something is regret :sus:

Crackheads post reminded me of something I was ashamed of (and still am). I threw a snowball at my mum when I was younger for a laugh, and it hit her in the eye and she cried :(
 
Mr Smokes Blunts. said:
Feeling shame over something is regret :sus:

Crackheads post reminded me of something I was ashamed of (and still am). I threw a snowball at my mum when I was younger for a laugh, and it hit her in the eye and she cried :(
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not necessarily, not to some people anyway.

there's a whole camp who feel that because they learn and move on from a situation that's regretful they therefore don't regret it, thereby turning it into a postive, chalking it all down to experience. if they hadn't experienced it, they wouldn't of learned those lessons, so they say they don't regret it etc etc

it's a totally horseshit theory though, and best left to failed rockstars who've spent all their cash, and are now on a comeback tour
 
Annoys me when people are interviewed and they say "I regret nothing in my life" or "I wouldn't change a thing that's happened".

I regret and would change loads of stuff. I think anyone who is honest with themselves would too. Unless y'all the fucking Queen or someone.
 
Every time I feel a twinge of regret I reflect on how due to that unfortunate act i've learnt from it and won't repeat it. Regret, shame and guilt can be so damaging and if you carry them with you can perpetuate ones problems particularly when it comes to drug abuse & addiction. Its a vicious circle one that current UK drug treatments do little to address other than crappy counselling & psyche sessions, which when you're there under duress anyway are particularly ineffective. As we know hard core addicts have seen/done/been involved in all sorts of hair raising/awful things while in the grip of addiction, often unspeakable things, how can you heal until these things have been dragged into the open and addressed?

I've also been known to say to myself 'this is a pretty fucking dumb thing you're about to do, you know its crap but you're doing it anyway, so you forfeit any right to regret'.
 
Marmalade said:
not necessarily, not to some people anyway.

there's a whole camp who feel that because they learn and move on from a situation that's regretful they therefore don't regret it, thereby turning it into a postive, chalking it all down to experience. if they hadn't experienced it, they wouldn't of learned those lessons, so they say they don't regret it etc etc

it's a totally horseshit theory though, and best left to failed rockstars who've spent all their cash, and are now on a comeback tour
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I agree it is horseshit, propagated by people to protect their egos, because they couldn't simply just accept the fact that they have been or done something wrong in their lives.

re·gret/riˈgret/
Verb:
Feel sad, repentant, or disappointed over (something that has happened or been done, esp. a loss or missed opportunity).
Noun:
A feeling of sadness, repentance, or disappointment over something that has happened or been done.

I would say he admits enough within his post to fulfill the dictionary definition of 'regret'.
 
Mr Smokes Blunts. said:
re·gret/riˈgret/
Verb:
Feel sad, repentant, or disappointed over (something that has happened or been done, esp. a loss or missed opportunity).
Noun:
A feeling of sadness, repentance, or disappointment over something that has happened or been done.
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But what if it stops there? What if you just reach a dead end and have to carry around that feeling for the rest of your days, trying to surpress & bury it using fair means or foul. That can't be good. I don't think its bullshit to acknowledge your wrongdoing & try and morph the regret into a positive. But the positive will always have its roots in a regretful act so I agree, you can't deny the regret element and say you regret nothing. In typing this I've realise where you & Marmalade are coming from, and I agree :)
 
I've done too many things to be able to rank/list them. But for those saying that they don't 'regret anything' because they don't wish to let it affect them. Lying to yourself can have just as much of a negative impact, or possibly worse, on you. From my experience, things that I've done in the past that I've tried to justify - when in reality they couldn't be, have just ate at me more because I lied to myself about them trying to justify my actions, until I actually got the balls to do something for what I'd done. Sometimes it doesn't even take much more than an apology. But I think saying you don't regret anything is simply lying to yourself, you can still regret something and learn from it, it doesn't have to be one or the other.
 
to test the regret theory

what would you do if you came face to face with the person ... you know, that person, who got fucked over immeasurably because of your fuck up ... [despite you being ignorant at the time, or naive, or in bad circumstances back then yourself or whatever]

would you look into their eyes, years later, after reflecting, and say 'ooo, but I learned so much, sorry that you were fucked over and suffered XXX because I was so stupid and selfish. it's all good though, because I've learned my lesson, and I'm really sorry, but I've moved on. and i wouldn't change a thing'

you wouldn't say that at all. well, I wouldn't, don't, didn't.

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you learn to harbour the shame, shoulder it, rationalise your mistake truthfully .. and in turn, learn a lesson you wouldn't want to repeat, and in doing so turn the situation into a positive. that doesn't have to mean you don't regret it. the two factors can run complexly side-by-side. the no regrets thing is a personal disclaimer and get out clause. it's an understandable one, especially if you don't want to & can't handle being bogged down with negativity and guilt, which stops you from moving forward and can make you be consumed by such burdens.
 
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