aw hylight sounds like you're having a difficult time. its odd that different people have different things that they just can't take about opiate withdrawal. for me, though i hated the sweats and the shits, the bit that would break me was my legs going because of the sheer relentlessness of it once it started.
i am now 34 and definitely not in my early 30s anymore. had a weird thought on my birthday, the birthday two years previously i had been barred from entering a fancy watch shop by the doorman, i didn't plan to steal anything, i wanted to sell my watch for crack.