i no how u feel mate. some times it takes years to get over a exgirlfriend. i was with my ex for more then 20 years. we went throw so much grown up together. we never had kids of our own coz we coudnt. but she made me into a better person. i left school wen i was 12. wen i was 19 my ex showed me how to read + write. im still have a lot to learn but if it was not 4 her i wud not be able to write on this post. i owe so much to her but in the end she left me for my uncle. sad is not strong enoufh to explain how hurt i was by this. my family was pulled apart by it. i no longer have any thing to do wit my ex or my family coz of all this. i lost every one. she is now marryed to my uncle. all my family went to wedding, even my mother. i feel like they all must think tat i am a joke. this happed 8 years ago but i still wake in the night with a shock as if it just happed to day. it still hurts just as much to day but i have learnd to live with it. some times wen i look at my self + see a thin old ill looking bloke i think no wonder she went, but we were very happy. she was good to me + i was good to her. she has a kid with my uncle now + i hear he treats her + the kid very bad. he drinks a lot + he is nasty bastard wen he drinks. so i worry about her every minte of every day. i wud take her back tomorow + i wud love her kid like he was my own. but that will never ever happin. so i do no how you feel mate. the pain will always be there but you will learn to live with it. i no i sound like a moaning bastard in this post, but i am not normaly. i like to act happy + up beat on the out side + i have a dabble wen i can + tat cheers me up. on wards + up wards mate. sorry about the long post. you wudnt beleve how long it took me to write tis. god bless spell check! + i manged to not use any bad languge! i some times curse to much. look after you self! sorry to here tat you are sad, but these are the parts of us tat makes us who we are + makes us strong.