thats fucked man!
i know the feeling somewhat...
today i was told that a pain specialist is available through the medical clinic - which i've been going to for 6 months now.
apparently it didn't make sense to mention this when i mentioned it 3 months ago.
now i have to wait until late july for that appointment (not too far i know) but the GP still refuses to help with my pain using actual pain killers, random anti depressants are more logical it seems
Yeah, some GPs hate prescribing anything 'strong' for pain meds yet don't seem to have a problem with random anti-depressants and stuff that may or may not help directly with your pain and bring on potential other problems (air head/can't take other drugs etc)
The first GP I saw ongoing since I had my injury kept wanting to put me on anti-depressants even through I wasn't down in mood at all, I was as many specialists (neurosurgeons, psychologists, injury rehab staff etc) all said I was very strong willed and positive. Yet the GP was like "Do you feel down? This can elevate your mood along with possibly helping with pain *insert anti-dep, like
TCAs or SSRIs*. The only time I felt 'down' or anything 'negative' was just when I was in intense [breakthrough] pain and soon as 'enough' to most/all of the pain was relieved, I was back to my normal self.
I'm glad I had the balls to tell a couple doctors, one GP and one pain specialist who was retiring and didn't give a crap, in fact he downright said lies. I came in asking what were the alternatives to the then high doses of oxycontin my old GP was illegally (not that I knew at the time) prescribing me as I was just on stupid amounts, say from zero pre injury to 2-3 months after, 400, 600mg oxycontin daily. I was eating 80mg tablets like lollies literally. I was somewhat fobbed off by the pain specialist doc and then in a few days I get a CC'ed letter that he sent to TAC and my GP saying "I had this gentleman come in and I think he wanted higher doses of oxycontin which I believe is not beneficial. He should not be seeking more doses of the drug blah blah" and I was blown away by the crap. Totally nothing like I said which was what alternatives can I look at/do etc. *shakes head*
At least I wrote letters back to TAC, my GP and the pain specialist as same CC'ed letter on paper saying what a lying old sack of dirt he was and I was glad he was retiring because he was either going senile or just a liar as the crap he said was nothing remotely like I said or intended. Never got a response from him heh
All history now, the GP is great that I'm seeing, just need to sort out the silliness that my old GP did of keeping the same dose S8 permit for 6+ months after I was on almost double daily dose than the permit was for. I didn't realise until my current GP showed me the photocopy of the permit on his computer that the permits were for specific doses of S8 drug(s), not just a permit flat for prescribing in my case, oxycontin. Well, you learn something each day they say
I also earned some free tattoo time today, fixing the tattoo shop where I go to's computers. Both infected with spyware, I was at the hospital when they called, literally 5 minutes away so I rocked up in like 10 minutes as Emma was just waiting on a test result, i.e doing nothing for ~1 hr so I did some work and won't have to pay for a few hours tattoo work (of $100/hr usual rate). Plus it's good knowing my mind is at least able to focus on 'work' rather than dealing with pain 24/7. I'm also going to do some 'easy' work, traffic management courses paid by for the job network I joined earlier this year. I'd rather do that kind of work, hold up a sign as it's low stress mentally + physically. Also easy to do part time work, it's been a cuntox to find part time work that is/was my career, unix network stuff. I'm most likely not well enough to work full time so part time is what I'm aiming at.
For now, it's time for rest, done my head in again from being mentally exhausted and silly enough me deciding to post on forums (i.e here) instead of chilling and sleeping, or trying to sleep anyway!
Wishing you well misk
I sent an email off to TAC earlier today asking what the hell is going on with them with regards to my pain clinic appointment(s), idiots they are... If I didn't have a great network, friends + family, I'd probably be in a hell bad state (all the time), they treat people like annoying flies, try to swat them til they die.. It's good I have my awesome daughter to hang out with and make every day enjoyable when I see her and/or my wife