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How are you in one word v. Pedalling through the dark currents

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Feeling better. And my doc has increased my paroxetine to 60mg/day, which will hopefully keep the depression at bay.
 
Sweet P said:
Feeling better. And my doc has increased my paroxetine to 60mg/day, which will hopefully keep the depression at bay.
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be consistent with taking that high a dose Sweet P. I was on 20mg a day for close to 17 years (with some breaks) and if I missed a day I was fucked. If you usually take it at 6am, take it every day at 6am. Paroxetine/paxil is pretty strong
 
^ Thanks for the heads-up! Yeah I tend to be pretty consistent with my medication. I take my daily cocktail of pills as soon as I wake (usually between 10 and 11am) and I rarely miss a dose. I've been told the withdrawals from paroxetine are nasty.
 
lonely but making the transition from isolation to solitude..
walked around the reservoir at first light in the mountains and picked a bouquet of the first flowers of spring. wish i had monies for decent boots, mud season's ratshit. winter can't leave the rockies too quickly.
 
Sweet P said:
^ Thanks for the heads-up! Yeah I tend to be pretty consistent with my medication. I take my daily cocktail of pills as soon as I wake (usually between 10 and 11am) and I rarely miss a dose. I've been told the withdrawals from paroxetine are nasty.
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yes they are pretty horrible. I went off them many times over the years and the worst experiences included self-injury (superficial razor cuts to the face, arms and chest), suicidal thoughts/attempts, violent outbursts (intentionally slammed my SUV into a dude's car that cut me off in a parking lot, punched holes in walls, threw a monitor down the stairs), brain zaps (just learned that term recently), auditory hallucinations, electrical 'shivers' in my extremities.

It is what it is and since you aren't discontinuing then it shouldn't be an immediate concern. If/when you go off them or reduce your dosage, just talk to your doctor about a safe and slow taper to minimize the withdrawal.

TBH, I wasn't working when I went off them and used other chemicals to extremes to 'help' the transition.
 
oh, paxil...

i took that for a year, seemed fourty mgs...
wound up having to turn myself into jail,,,,
didnt get meds for four days.
was 17, every one in cell was freaked because
i was under sheets in a battery or something.
just twitching and sweating trying not to scream
bloody murder... they kept calling the nurse station,
the entire time, but, paper work i suppose.
;)

dont remember coming off it, but i sure as fuck
remember that.
and all the other shit after, that MY body/mind rejects.
 
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awww, i hate that fucking feeling.. have u tried taking a bath? or atleast laying on the cold tile floor?.. seems to do the trick for me.
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No, but a bath would have been good :(

New word: dREading.

I don't wannnnna go to therapy.
(I feel like a little kid who doesn't wanna go to school. I just know I'm gonna be a bitch in there tomorrow.)
 
faintly know the experience with other relations,, footscrazy.
so i know how difficult that is. it takes a lot to expose yourself to
such things in order to, feel more peace.


hehe
ocean,,, it isnt your duty to show up,, driving around in this weather, sick, and frustrated...

sounds much more therapeutic to help your body for a couple days.
idk, maybe it still counts as a session,
even though cancelled.
 
footscrazy said:
Sad. My friend sent me a song just before she passed which I've just faced listening to. Lindsay, I miss you so much <3
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I miss her too. Although I never met her, I regularly chatted with her on MSN and she was a really cool friend. I think I'm still in shock after hearing of her passing away... it hasn't quite sunk in yet. :(
 
^^ Big hugs for you too Sweet P <3
It always hurts when we lose one of our own but even more so for someone who was so close to many, and such a beautiful person.
 
solid, forgot my facebook pw lol but im back from 5 days inpatient, im gonna be home for a few days n off to residence. my bad i dipped out without telling those of you i talk with i told one person and at that point even that was a chore, i wanted to be dead or high - nothing in between.
 
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