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How are you in one word v. Pedalling through the dark currents

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ocean said:
Word: Anxious.
The tsunami wave at my house is supposed to be anywhere from 6 inches to 6 ft.
If its actually 6 ft we'll actually be in trouble- If its a foot, no big thing.
All the ships are moving out and I THINK we'll br okay b/c the state ferry is parked behind an island across from us- so its hiding in the protected zone- what sort of worries me is all the ships heading out of our area........
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That is my word too :( I hope you and your family stay safe. The ships are probably heading out under orders from the government (routine/precautionary in this sort of situation).

Hope you are OK PiP - cops, psychs, and paramedics?!
 
im w/e,,, my flowerbeds though...

that took a lot of work and a lot of fine soil.
maybe doesnt look like much but they saw what they were running over,
just not what they were running from.

this, and the fact i feel the need to go apologize to my neighbors,
and having to sign a ' refusal ' of help -- when i neeed it, is just mind-boggling.

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waits for books and lap-top to arrive...!
 
because, they were offering mental, and physical help.
i dont need mental help,,, but idk which is worse.

edit:
still 0 rib pain unless i try, full of inflammation though...
narcotics frustratingly useless and inhibiting, not in system, and like it.
 
Derp
work fried my brain,.. in a good way.

bout to hit up a NA meeting and call it a day!

Gotta work tommoro :(

its all overtime though :D!
 
overjoyed!!!!!!!!!!

Got a second opinion and looks like I will beable to get my sinuses operated on and fixed. The only thing is I have absolutely no one to take care of me and the hospital is way to far to call a cab :(
 
Unsure...
I'm not sure whether I should leave my house for a few weeks and live with a very supportive friend of mine. It might stop my suicidal thoughts and help me with my problems but it will inflict pain on my little sister. If I leave he will go a lot harder on her since they won't want her to be like me, a failure. I think if i left to make my live better it would only make hers worse and I don't know if i want that....
 
successful
had every intention of getting drunk tonight but didn't
I'm the only one looking out for me. In order to do that I gotta stay straight, no matter what.
No matter fucking what
 
blech, funny i felt like drinking last night as well overdone, goddamn anxiety from withdrawal. I made it through though, weird having cravings for drinking after i havent drank in so long.. All I really want is some sort of respite from this horrible headspace I am in, kept thinking about ways to get fucked up, though that will just be detrimental to me in the end I am aware...
sigh
 
unwell
its cool though, I'm finally learning how to handle my business and I no longer give a fuck about having people in my life.
 
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