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How are you in one word v. Pedalling through the dark currents

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light-headed
smoked a cigarette after 18 days and some change
probably be hitting up the suicide thread soon cause I'm a fuckin' weak mother fucker who can't handle withdrawal
violent and weak
 
OverDone said:
light-headed
smoked a cigarette after 18 days and some change
probably be hitting up the suicide thread soon cause I'm a fuckin' weak mother fucker who can't handle withdrawal
violent and weak
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Your not weak man ciggs are dare i say it harder to quit then opiates in their own way. Bout the only other drug ive tried that is as compulsive as nicotine would be cocaine. Hell i was off them 2 fucking years and never had the 1 then i went back on the fucking things :! . Don't beat yourself up about it man thats the worst thing you can do. Hang in there.

As for me im tired still. Ugh fuck fatigue seriously :|
 
Satirical

My ex that im still in love with just started dating a much uglier guy. Should I laugh or be upset?

I'm currently smoking a cigarette. lol. hard to quit

Why so achy ocean?
 
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paranoid android said:
Your not weak man ciggs are dare i say it harder to quit then opiates in their own way. Bout the only other drug ive tried that is as compulsive as nicotine would be cocaine. Hell i was off them 2 fucking years and never had the 1 then i went back on the fucking things :! . Don't beat yourself up about it man thats the worst thing you can do. Hang in there.

As for me im tired still. Ugh fuck fatigue seriously :|
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thanks, man. I used the patch and even during that I went through some real ugly shit. I became violent, hurtful to others and myself. I came real close to burning and cutting and almost convinced myself to have a coupla beers.

We'll see what happens. People say that quitting cigarettes isn't a good idea when you are just starting out in getting clean from the other shit but my ego tells me that I'm not like everyone else and can handle shit better.

I'm more similar than different than people and I'm definitely no fucking superhero
 
OverDone said:
thanks, man. I used the patch and even during that I went through some real ugly shit. I became violent, hurtful to others and myself. I came real close to burning and cutting and almost convinced myself to have a coupla beers.

We'll see what happens. People say that quitting cigarettes isn't a good idea when you are just starting out in getting clean from the other shit but my ego tells me that I'm not like everyone else and can handle shit better.

I'm more similar than different than people and I'm definitely no fucking superhero
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Ya my doc always advises me not to quit smoking when i have bad shit going on such as chronic pain, bipolar disorder acting up, etc. If theres other shit going on then yeah quitting ciggs can be a bad idea and i gotta say it out of cutting, burning and drinking ciggs are the lesser of the evils there. FFS don't go drinking at all in that state of mind or bad shit could happen to say the least.

Have you tried the patch with the gum? I found that to kinda work. I quit cold turkey and you had better believe i was one volatile bastard to be around.
 
paranoid android said:
Ya my doc always advises me not to quit smoking when i have bad shit going on such as chronic pain, bipolar disorder acting up, etc. If theres other shit going on then yeah quitting ciggs can be a bad idea and i gotta say it out of cutting, burning and drinking ciggs are the lesser of the evils there. FFS don't go drinking at all in that state of mind or bad shit could happen to say the least.

Have you tried the patch with the gum? I found that to kinda work. I quit cold turkey and you had better believe i was one volatile bastard to be around.
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I've been trying to quit, but I just started taking medicine for bi-polar. Should I wait until that's under control to even try quitting?
 
I actually went cold turkey for 13 days recently. I was fine until the 13th day. Once again I was trying to do too much at once.

I'm gonna practice acceptance and set a goal to not even think about quitting cigarettes until i get a year clean
 
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I've been trying to quit, but I just started taking medicine for bi-polar. Should I wait until that's under control to even try quitting?
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definitely wait. I learned and acted out on some ugly shit in the last 18 days from nicotine withdrawal. Too much at one time can be extremely counter-productive
 
yeah, you are a bit on the ancient side 8)

fuck, now I got that song in my head, that 'achey breaky' one. Thanks, ocean, thanks a lot!
 
sad

one of my first girlfriends pass'd away from an overdose yesterday. shit fucking sucks. i'd really like to make it to her funeral but I work :[

keep her and her family in your thoughts.. :'(
 
^that's awful, i'm so sorry to hear that D's. i'll keep you, her, and her family in my thoughts. <3

my word is unmotivated. i just wanna snuggle up with my kitty cat for the rest of the day but my laundry doesn't do itself unfortunately.
 
I'm sorry to hear that D's my thoughts go out for her and loved ones.

personally scheming - I am glad I lost my license and gave my money to fam to hold I am a fucking menace to myself and anyone who knows me. At least this time I have help.
 
thanks taow,

i give u props man, the last thing i wanted to do was surrender to my family.

well i was kicked out at 17, so it wasnt really on my mind.


i'm a little frustrated, i'm trying to find a ride to a funeral. and it's really up in the air. i gotta work tomorrow and i just dont really know what to do.

this shit happened so fucking quick, like if i woulda known earlier i coulda made arrangement's. but now its different.
 
Sometime funeral turn around is like that bro, my friends sister in law just passed away last night and the funeral is 2 hours north tomorrow , i don't even have a fucking license anymore man.
 
D's said:
sad

one of my first girlfriends pass'd away from an overdose yesterday. shit fucking sucks. i'd really like to make it to her funeral but I work :[

keep her and her family in your thoughts.. :'(
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I am so sorry to hear this man *big hugs*. I hope you're okay. Much love to you, her family and her friends <3



Me: procrastinating :|
 
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