just got back from the hospital after a near fatal asthma attack from which I lost 80% lung function. I have been on and off heroin for the last three months, about a book a day, with some sub breaks in between, the longest probably being a week.
I am debating whether suboxone is a good medication for me to be taking. On the one hand it does control cravings with me, at higher dosages, but not to the point of which I actually stop having cravings (mind you, I don't believe in miracle pills, so I can't blame subs for this). I've also recently found that no matter how much suboxone I take, and no matter the ROA, I can almost always get high within 24 hours or less, which is very strange because I used to have to wait a good four days to feel heroin, but yesterday, less than 24 hours after taking 24 mg, I shot 2 bags of not even very good dope, and I felt the effects. Granted they were not completely present, but they were definately there. I have of course taken into consideration that I have not given my body enough time to build up probably enough half life, but in the past, when I have been on 24 mg a day SL/sniffing, I still could get high within about 24 hours. Some might consider this lucky, I just think it's weird.
Since I've been back on the sub pretty much for almost a week now ( except for yesterday, and I havn't taken any so far today,) I'm thinking of trying to dramatically decrease my suboxone tolerance, using the SL route. I know it is going to be a hard thing to do, but luckily I've loaded up on benzo's.
My ideal goal really is to taper off the suboxone completely, or at least get to a place where I only dose small amounts once every other/3 day's. I'm not sure if this plan will work, but thanks to this site there are lots of tapering plans. I would eventually like to get to a place where I could go a week without any sub, and then if I get a craving, take a small amount, and relapse on that, rather than start a horrible downward spiral into heroin addiction, which I've found is completely unsustainable and obviously dangerous, especially considering my lung problems.
I would like to formally thank everyone here who has contributed, as the information on bluelight truly is invaluable. I do not trust my sub doctor, nor any doctor, when it comes to withdrawals of any sorts.
I also don't want anyone to get the wrong impression. Buprenorphine can work wonders for some people, I'm just not sure that a maintenance program is my best chance at recovery. That being said, I want to take this taper as slowly as possible. I know there are lots of taper plans here on this site, but if someone could point me in the direction of one that is particularly good, and lasts over the period of about a month or so, it would be truly appreciated.
Thanks once again to Bluelight and all its members.