No More PillThrill!

[Bojangles69]

I would highly recommend against doing this. It's not wise to live outside your means when it comes to drugs, even just weed. If you can't afford it, don't use it.

Yes thank you!

Not only is it not smart but it also makes you look like an uberdirtbag. If you can't afford it, its NOT YOURS.
Selling someone on the hope that you can afford it tommorow is bullshit. You're convincing that person you'll have money when IF THAT WAS TRUE, you'd have money today.

I personally can't STAND people who live outside their means, it sickens me like nothing else. Somehow through the course of their lives they've managed to adopt the financial habits of a parasite. I understand people go through money situations, but if you're that low to begin, STOP GETTING HIGH.

This is not to the OP, just anyone with that mentality.

 

[Mr_Fluffykins]

and i didn't even read the whole thread she had picked some up,
i was only suggesting that if she and the dealer were actually friends

 

[Unbreakable]

I think anyone who is detoxing from dope should have....

Weed - helps you eat....
Benzo - to help with the mind fuck if you can get it or too sleep....
Loperamide - is used to control shits and the chills/sweats...
diphenhydramine - for sleeping and over the counter

 

[Pillthrill]

OMG you guys! Its over! I'm fine. I don't even want the stuff!
And Anthony and I's relationship is well...beautiful.
He is so loving, fun and affectionate.
He says he loves me and I know it to my very core.
Its like falling in love ALL OVER again and I know it will continue to get better.
It was SO worth it.
I would quit Tram all over again for this!

I just wanted to share my good news and joy with you all!
Thanks for your support.
I have no more Tram and I don't plan on getting any more ever again!
PT

 

[Mr_Fluffykins]

OMG you guys! Its over! I'm fine. I don't even want the stuff!
And Anthony and I's relationship is well...beautiful.
He is so loving, fun and affectionate.
He says he loves me and I know it to my very core.
Its like falling in love ALL OVER again and I know it will continue to get better.
It was SO worth it.
I would quit Tram all over again for this!

I just wanted to share my good news and joy with you all!
Thanks for your support.
I have no more Tram and I don't plan on getting any more ever again!
PT

you should cahnge your screen name to pilllessthrill to celebrate

 

[Dr.kush]

You should atleast try a outpatient rehab if your insurence covers it. I did the whole quitting cold turkey off iv heroin, it's hell for a week then it gets a little better. You still have lingering withdrawal symptoms beside the intial week. And I couldn't stop even after the withdrawal. Rehab really helps to take away the need to use, but who knows you proly will b able to quit on your own

 

[Pillthrill]

I thought you were leaving us when I first read the title. Nice to see otherwise.

Actually with the way things have been going I think I might leave for a while...or permanently. I haven't decided what I'm doing yet. I'm just unhappy with my interactions on BL and I don't see a reason to stay and put the effort in to have it thrown in my face. I have much better things to be doing than to speak to people that don't give a damn anyway. Plus I don't need any encouragement to go back to popping pills or smoking more than I should. I may end up just lurking for awhile but I am just very frustrated with the whole thing anymore.

 

[Bojangles69]

I would quit Tram all over again for this!

PT

Lets not be too excited about quitting tram again =]

I'm sensing the tram gods were easy on you also just for saying that. Most people who have gone through tram wds have a hard enough time typing the word 'tram' lol

 

[avrolling]

Awesome to hear PT! Congrats on the relationship and quitting!

 

[Pillthrill]

Actually, not out of the woods yet.
I hit up the codeine last night to try to get rid of this headache.
No luck, made it worse.
My sinuses, the base of my skull, my neck.
Entering day 2 with thing killer thing and there has been no relief.

Tried:
Tylenol 3
Marijuana
Xanax
Sex
Sleep
Massage
Stretching
Meditation
Hot shower/bath

 

[Mr_Fluffykins]

have you tried soothing calm new age music, that often helps me
sorry to hear about you litte slip up,

 

[Pillthrill]

Yup. Tried that last night. Soothing but didn't help.
Sorry to hear that you are so sore.
I remember that.
Ick. Quitting meth was much harder than quitting Tram.
I have NO idea how I managed to hide THAT from EVERYONE!

 

[jackie jones]

Actually with the way things have been going I think I might leave for a while...or permanently. I haven't decided what I'm doing yet. I'm just unhappy with my interactions on BL and I don't see a reason to stay and put the effort in to have it thrown in my face. I have much better things to be doing than to speak to people that don't give a damn anyway. Plus I don't need any encouragement to go back to popping pills or smoking more than I should. I may end up just lurking for awhile but I am just very frustrated with the whole thing anymore.

Do not let the worst of them get the best of you, Pillthrill (I wish I knew your first name right about now so I could stop referring to you as PT). You are a brilliant person with a striking personality - a good friend to us (especially in TDS) as well as an asset to Bluelight. If you do decide to leave, I wish you the best in life, and keep up with the good work, as difficult as it can be. You will go far with your mind regardless, yet we would hate to see addiction control your decision making processes. Much love

 

[Mr_Fluffykins]

Yup. Tried that last night. Soothing but didn't help.
Sorry to hear that you are so sore.
I remember that.
Ick. Quitting meth was much harder than quitting Tram.
I have NO idea how I managed to hide THAT from EVERYONE!

im sore from starting a new job though, not drug withdrawl, i just had a little binge so i could give a good impression at a new job, now i won't abuse my perscription anymore, and i fave 5 days off to relax and get better

basically i pusehed myself in the first three days, made it hell, so now working from now on will be easy, when im well rested well fed and on a proper theraputic doses of dexedrine,

im glad there isn't really any meth in my town,

alcohol though is the only drug i really have a problem with,
and even so ive never experienced delerium tremes or anysorta withdrawl besides rebound insomnia, just stay strong, the headache will go away, you can beat that cunt

 

[Pillthrill]

Do not let the worst of them get the best of you, Pillthrill (I wish I knew your first name right about now so I could stop referring to you as PT). You are a brilliant person with a striking personality - a good friend to us (especially in TDS) as well as an asset to Bluelight. If you do decide to leave, I wish you the best in life, and keep up with the good work, as difficult as it can be. You will go far with your mind regardless, yet we would hate to see addiction control your decision making processes. Much love

With more than you and N3o felt this way...
Its pretty sad when even the "stoners" hate on you.
*shrug*

 

[Bojangles69]

Actually, not out of the woods yet.
I hit up the codeine last night to try to get rid of this headache.
No luck, made it worse.
My sinuses, the base of my skull, my neck.
Entering day 2 with thing killer thing and there has been no relief.

Tried:
Tylenol 3
Marijuana
Xanax
Sex
Sleep
Massage
Stretching
Meditation
Hot shower/bath

Headaches are weird it really depends on whats causing them. If you are still somewhat getting use to being off tram, theres a good chance the headaches are blood pressure related.
Blood pressure headaches won't really go away with codiene or anything else you mentioned. I get them a lot now the lower I get and my magic combination has been taking inderal (drops your blood pressure) combined with aleve.

Being as though you prob don't have access to inderal, rather than something like xanax, I believe loperamide would be more effective for now at keeping your bp low. Xanax won't trip those opiates receptors quite like lope would.
I've had massive headaches before that were wd related and have had lope alone get rid of them (although it takes like 3-4 hours to work).

Even still, and this is just my opinion. But codiene is worthless for headaches. I actually think you'd have a MUCH better chance taking aleve. I've just delt with so many headaches before and have tooken so many different things, and aleve is a fucking animal how effective it is for just that.
Its prob gone by now, but if you get another one, take aleve. If the aleve doesn't work, redose in 2 hours with another dose of aleve and like 6-8mg of loperamide, I guarantee at that point it goes away.

Last thing, if the headaches ever become more consistent at any point go to a supermarket by you that has those free blood pressure machines and get your BP tested. If its high it would be smarter to focus on your blood pressure first, and headaches second, as headaches would be a side effect of the BP not the other way around. Good luck!

 

[Bojangles69]

Actually with the way things have been going I think I might leave for a while...or permanently. I haven't decided what I'm doing yet. I'm just unhappy with my interactions on BL and I don't see a reason to stay and put the effort in to have it thrown in my face. I have much better things to be doing than to speak to people that don't give a damn anyway. Plus I don't need any encouragement to go back to popping pills or smoking more than I should. I may end up just lurking for awhile but I am just very frustrated with the whole thing anymore.

I was a bit curious about this post myself.

Was anything said in this thread that annoyed you? Because I read through the whole thing and didn't see a single person do anything but give you as much support as they could (I definitely could have passed it by though).

Who's "encouraging" you to go back to popping pills or smoking more? Was it another thread? If someone has posted something that you found offensive it might be better to talk about it and get it off your chest, than to just hold it in and leave.
I'm curious because I did a lot of looking around and couldn't find anything. But if theres assholes on this forum I'd like to know who they are. Either way just try to shake it off. TDS can be bad in the fact that a lot of people are going through different things, but at the same time thats what motivates me about it.
What I mean is the longer you hang out here the harder it is to deny how badly drugs fuck up peoples lives... which in turn can make it easier not to wanna use.

 

[QuasiStoned]

Having just gotten clean myself, I am particularly drawn to the TDS and spend the majority of my time here. Sure, I go into OD sometimes and try to help out with any questions I can offer input on (mostly just PPT) but I prefer an environment geared towards recovery as reading about using drugs can make me consider relapse.

I dunno but I think that Bluelight has been overall helpful in my recovery. Sometimes threads make me consider relapse but I consider that all the time and probably would have already done that long ago if it wasn't for watching other people succeeding and/or struggling for the same thing that I am.

Good luck in whatever you decide Pillthrill. If this site makes you more depressed than happy or encourages you to use drugs like tramadol than by all means I won't try to stop you from leaving. I personally don't think that the community would be better if you'd leave though. I've met a lot of cool people thanks to this site. Sure there are assholes but you meet those people in all walks of life, it's just about being a bigger person than they are and letting it go and not being bothered by it. I personally don't hold grudges for very long, there are too many other positive things to invest my energy in.

Whatever you decide, stay clean. It's nothing but trouble and psychological torment to use opiates.

 

[Pillthrill]

I was a bit curious about this post myself.

Was anything said in this thread that annoyed you? Because I read through the whole thing and didn't see a single person do anything but give you as much support as they could (I definitely could have passed it by though).

Who's "encouraging" you to go back to popping pills or smoking more? Was it another thread? If someone has posted something that you found offensive it might be better to talk about it and get it off your chest, than to just hold it in and leave.
I'm curious because I did a lot of looking around and couldn't find anything. But if theres assholes on this forum I'd like to know who they are. Either way just try to shake it off. TDS can be bad in the fact that a lot of people are going through different things, but at the same time thats what motivates me about it.
What I mean is the longer you hang out here the harder it is to deny how badly drugs fuck up peoples lives... which in turn can make it easier not to wanna use.

No, not here. Just a particular social that finds me annoying and had attacked me twice in the last 2 weeks. Its hard enough without BLers giving me crap on top of it. The Dark Side, is wonderful, no worries guys.

As for encouraging, well BL in general is about drugs and drug use. It causes on to think about drugs and perhaps therefore have drug cravings and go back to drug behaviors. Thats all I was saysing.

 

[Pillthrill]

Headaches are weird it really depends on whats causing them. If you are still somewhat getting use to being off tram, theres a good chance the headaches are blood pressure related.
Blood pressure headaches won't really go away with codiene or anything else you mentioned. I get them a lot now the lower I get and my magic combination has been taking inderal (drops your blood pressure) combined with aleve.

Being as though you prob don't have access to inderal, rather than something like xanax, I believe loperamide would be more effective for now at keeping your bp low. Xanax won't trip those opiates receptors quite like lope would.
I've had massive headaches before that were wd related and have had lope alone get rid of them (although it takes like 3-4 hours to work).

Even still, and this is just my opinion. But codiene is worthless for headaches. I actually think you'd have a MUCH better chance taking aleve. I've just delt with so many headaches before and have tooken so many different things, and aleve is a fucking animal how effective it is for just that.
Its prob gone by now, but if you get another one, take aleve. If the aleve doesn't work, redose in 2 hours with another dose of aleve and like 6-8mg of loperamide, I guarantee at that point it goes away.

Last thing, if the headaches ever become more consistent at any point go to a supermarket by you that has those free blood pressure machines and get your BP tested. If its high it would be smarter to focus on your blood pressure first, and headaches second, as headaches would be a side effect of the BP not the other way around. Good luck!

Imodium (Loperamide) - for headaches?? Thats a new one for me!