I concur with above statement (Boj.) First off, right now is NOT the time to be looking for work. I mean unless you have absolutely no choice, as in your ass will be on the street tomarrow if you don't work now, trying to look for, let alone keep a new job while going through W/D's for me ain't gonna happen. It sounds like you're a physical and emotional wreck now, so keeping that in mind, I'd make my first priority to kick the Tramadol. I wouldn't worry about looking for work or trying to quit weed as well, assuming that weed is ALL you're doing.
I found out too late the devastating effects of Tramadol, & even after 9 months was unable to get off of it, not because the high was so great, but because of the horrific w/ds. Dysphoria mainly, but also thats when my damned chronic fatigue started up BIG time! No matter how much or little I slept, I'd never be able to wake up feeling refreshed. The only thing that offered me relief from both dysphoria, constant fatigue, & ADD is/was meth. I am certainly not suggesting you do meth. In my case, once I found the w/d's too much for me from Tramadol, my choices were to live day to day feeling like crap or to take something I knew would bring relief. Ibogaine sounded like a great option & I discussed it with Tobala, but that unfortunately is not legal in the USA, which sucks.
You're in the same boat apparently, in that finances are scarse, & that really sucks ass because otherwise I would have gone to Canada to detox where it is legal and available. Damned idiotic War on Drugs regime! That said, I can only perhaps offer one suggestion that may or may not prove to be helpful. Whoops maybe not cause you tossed your Tramadols in favor of your asshole boyfriend....but in any case if you go to a health food store or vitamin store, there is this naturopathic drug called Phenocane. I found it to be pretty helpful in that it made the symptoms suck half as bad trying to taper. The only thing is I was instructed to take 4 Tramadols a day for a week, along with 2 Phenocane pills every 4 hrs, 3 1/2 pills the next week of Tramadol with the Phenocanes going down 1/2 pill every week.
The dysphoria wasn't terrible, the fatigue only a fraction instense, but my mistake was when down to 1/2 pill Tramadol per day---I took 2 more Trams to see if the freaken intensive sciatica pain (if thats what it was) would leave...or not. 20 minutes later no more pain, so I knew I was in trouble & that there wasn't any way around having to go through that pain...so I fucked myself badly. The naturopath doc told me it was probably w/ds causing the pain, but I wish he would of let me think it was due to something else, I wouldn't have known the difference. The pain, bad as it was, was preferable to the dysphoria & fatigue.
Don't know if any of this will help you, but you need to kick in peace, without him. He's only making it worse IMO & don't worry about getting a job until you're done kicking. Maybe you should tell your doctor & have him help you taper. Tell him the agony you're going through.
) They moved just like 3 blocks away! YAY!
and able to guide others through the same shit with confidence later.
