Boll: I'm not sure what you mean by it's near diazepam with anxiolic effects. Does that mean it doesn't totally kill anxiety? It's not a matter of it being too hypnotic to where when you want to completely kill some bad anxiety you're already totally in the fog is it, because if not, why not just take a little more to equate diaz?
Mescal: I'm glad you mentioned that bit about hypnotic effects at work. This doesn't seem like a benzo I could use for daily functions, or is it? I'm not looking to get high on it (maybe sometimes, but really not), just to stabilize my anxiety. I'm currently not on anything for my anxiety, was for years and tried quite a few things, but benzos seemed to be the only thing that really did the trick (although I know there's a lot more meds I could of tried, hell only tried buspar recently, which sucks), so I plan to go back to benzos (along with whatever else that would work, as I haven't tried it yet. If you have any suggestions let me know/PM me). If I could get alpraz powder I'd just go that route, but lost my sources when Hushmail changed. Ideally I want both a long and short acting benzo, and both a hypnotic and non. I'd take something like diazepam in the morning to last most of the day (as my fuel), and alpraz for acute anxiety and symptoms of extra stress (like my fuel injection or nitrous).
TREAT BENZOS WITH NOT JUST REPECT BUT FEAR THE DAMAGE THEY CAN DO If you have half a brain, seriously, always weigh your doses, and do not take more to get high. This is not a class of drugs that you want to keep doing and extra "bump" of. You go into black out mode far before even knowing it, well duh hence a black out, but it's a lot quicker and hardcore. I have never crashed my car from being drunk or even on fucking GHB! (This is insainly stupid and dagerous, DO NOT drive on GHB, let alone drunk). I have however crashed my car 3 times from benzo abuse. I've also been arrested twice because of benzos. I could talk about this shit forever, because when you start to abuse this class of drugs (before your tolerance is at a level where you need a lot just to feel slightly normal), you pretty much unconsciously go looking for trouble.