Mugz
Bluelighter
I haven't taken any since early morning on Friday the 6th. At about 7am on that Friday after a couple of hours sleep I had a very scary episode where I completely forgot how to talk or even what talking was, it was kind of like ego loss from psychs. Angelsmoke didn't have a clue what was going on with me, it was very scary as I had lost my language skills and struggled to get anything across to her that made any sense. It took me about 2 hours to relearn how to speak in basic sentences to explain what was happening to me.
This was even scarier at lunchtime when angelsmoke came home from work, she woke me up as I had fallen asleep again and I started talking absolute gibberish nonsense again for about 10 minutes. The whole thing was really scary and I don't plan on it happening again.
Ever since we have stopped things have got so much better, even small things like going shopping together have been enjoyable and much easier. I never thought I would say such words but I am appreciating being sober a lot more recently, it allows me to do so many more normal things.
My dad came to visit at the weekend and stayed in the flat with us for a bit and then took us out for lunch. This would never have happened while we were on meph because I wouldn't have let him come in a flat that stunk of meph and it would have been an anxiety nightmare while out with him if we had been on meph. My dad commented that he was really happy at how well I seemed to be doing and how happy we seemed to be from his point of view.
In general I am very very happy that we gave up mephedrone when we did as we were both hovering dangerously close to rock bottom, but with each others help and support we have managed to claw ourselves back up again. Life is so much better now and I'm really grateful for everything about life.
The whole mephedrone experience has ultimately brought me and angelsmoke closer together. I'm so proud of her and how strong she has been through the whole thing. It's been hard but now we have come out of the other side with a greater understanding and appreciation for each other and life. Just have to hope that there is no long term damage done to our bodies during the whole thing.
This was even scarier at lunchtime when angelsmoke came home from work, she woke me up as I had fallen asleep again and I started talking absolute gibberish nonsense again for about 10 minutes. The whole thing was really scary and I don't plan on it happening again.
Ever since we have stopped things have got so much better, even small things like going shopping together have been enjoyable and much easier. I never thought I would say such words but I am appreciating being sober a lot more recently, it allows me to do so many more normal things.
My dad came to visit at the weekend and stayed in the flat with us for a bit and then took us out for lunch. This would never have happened while we were on meph because I wouldn't have let him come in a flat that stunk of meph and it would have been an anxiety nightmare while out with him if we had been on meph. My dad commented that he was really happy at how well I seemed to be doing and how happy we seemed to be from his point of view.
In general I am very very happy that we gave up mephedrone when we did as we were both hovering dangerously close to rock bottom, but with each others help and support we have managed to claw ourselves back up again. Life is so much better now and I'm really grateful for everything about life.
The whole mephedrone experience has ultimately brought me and angelsmoke closer together. I'm so proud of her and how strong she has been through the whole thing. It's been hard but now we have come out of the other side with a greater understanding and appreciation for each other and life. Just have to hope that there is no long term damage done to our bodies during the whole thing.