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Heroin/Opioid MEGA-Thread: Junkies check-in here!

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DW I know a woman who came off methadone. She was on it for like hmmm probably 10 years, 150 mg, but she did it! And now she doesn't seem to crave opiates anymore. I think the whole been there done that attitude is running strong in her. I think she likes crack more anyway, hehe :p

You can always try methadone for like a day or 2 cant u? GL Lydia <3
 
subs in NJ

PillPoppingAnimal said:
Us.. and im 19, Nj
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do you have insurance? there are privacy laws against doctors revealing anything about your medical treatment. there are docs all over NJ who can prescribe suboxone. what part of NJ r u in? Im in monmouth cty and have a doc nearby
 
christianne F

formanchristopher said:
^^^^I must see this movie that you've spoken of-"Christianne F". I just wonder if I can find in my area???? (Oregon,USA).
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great movie! music by bowie. you may be able to find it at a place with lots of old VHS tapes. I rented it from an old VHS rental place years ago that had thousands of obscure movies. dont know if its out on DVD> maybe someone could post it on a torrent site
 
^^^ Id love to see that movie too. Ive read alot about it and i know one store that might have it. If any fuckin place has it this one does.
 
anyone wants to see a ruthless documentary about addiction check out the HBO documentary Dope Sick Love. Follows 2 homeless heroin/crack addicted couples as they live their lives in downtown NYC doin scams to get money, copping drugs, sneaking in apartment building hallways to shoot up, using old dull needles and toilet water(i think) in a fast food restaurant bathroom. There is no narrator. It was like watching a trainwreck. Painful to watch, but I couldnt take my eyes off it
 
Guys I told you. Just download the torrent and watch it on your computer. It's a german film so unless you speak german you wont understand ut anyway. With the torrent there is subtitles and makes it an awesome win.

http://thepiratebay.org/

And yes, dope sick love is also a great documentary.

Other good movies:

Trainspotting
candy
Drugstore cowboy
Basketball diaries
Weirdsville

I couldn't find that union square park movie anywhere on any torrent site though. Bummer.
 
Panic in needle park is another cool old junkie movie. Really old. It's got al pachino in it and musta been one of the first movies he was in.

Also anyone seen the movie H? It's set in toronto in some dirty apartment with a g/f and b/f trying to kick heroin. It describes it in pretty graphic detail. Real low budget movie was out in the 80's i think.
 
man, i had a similar occurrence yesterday. I had a dream that i found a big vein on my forearm and when i woke up i was super excited and happy for the first time in months. then when i realized it was just a dream and i have no accessible veins anymore, i just got really depressed and felt pretty damn pathetic for getting so excited about a vein. i mean, come on... how much lower do i need to go? blah.



Dude said:
Well, hey there fellow opi-heads....


I had to sign in to add to this thread.


I'm so addicted that I went through detox, and came out looking for drugs. Now I'm using Kratom to control my jones a lil.

Last night, I dreamed I found a beautiful bag (about the size of a 5 lb bad of flour), and the bag was all sparklie and ecorated. I was trying to hide it under my clothes so no one could see it, but it was too heavy.

When I opened it, thinking it was drugs, it was shit.

Think on that dream for a while.

Hello, I'mnot DAve, but I'm a fuckin junkie.
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Check out Permanent Midnight too. It's a pretty good movie, based on a true story.

Georgie25 said:
Guys I told you. Just download the torrent and watch it on your computer. It's a german film so unless you speak german you wont understand ut anyway. With the torrent there is subtitles and makes it an awesome win.

http://thepiratebay.org/

And yes, dope sick love is also a great documentary.

Other good movies:

Trainspotting
candy
Drugstore cowboy
Basketball diaries
Weirdsville

I couldn't find that union square park movie anywhere on any torrent site though. Bummer.
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i hear that. the physical WD is the easy part. after that the anxiety makes me want to crawl out of my skin. suboxone helps a little bit with that, but not entirely. i guess that's pretty typical of post-withdrawal syndrome or whatever.


Georgie25 said:
Idk about the girl veins. All my junkie friends would comment about how they wished they had my arms, which i thought was kinda weird at first before i started shooting dope.
I do a lot of curls and i guess that makes my veins a lot bigger in my arms. If i let my arm hang down to the floor for a little bit you can visually see like tons of veins, some even bigger than the back of the elbow vein.

What ive found to be the worst about heroin withdrawal is not the physical symptoms but the anxiety and depression afterwards.
Idk what to do with my self as I never can enjoy anything anymore
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not very experienced with opiates, did oxy 20-40mg 5 or 6 times in my life about a year ago. All last week I was taking codiene for my wisdom teeth.

THey got taken out yesterday and I have been on percocet 5mg oxy's all day yesterday and today and I can see why these are so addictive. Took 10mg oxy and 120 mg codiene half an a hour ago and I'm coming up hard.

So much more pleasant than drinking a bunch of whiskey and acting like an idiot. Pure nothingness is the best way I can describe how I feel at the moment.
 
ok well i found out from the methadone counsellor and methadone doesnt lower ur seizure threshold any more than suboxone does
she reckons my best bet is to do a switch if i cant afford suboxone
she said itll make me drowsier and ill hav to raise the doses faster possibly

i dont want to do it but i dont want to lose maverick
for now im staying on suboxone cos it seems to agree with me and i never liked methadone (only ever had it by IV but still.....)

pauls just got a job with computers and will b making a fair bit of money - he reckons he can help towards my monthly suboxone costs

draigan - unfortunately they dont just give u random tries of done, u hav to sign up for regular treatment on it *sigh*

thanks for the replies, paranoid and draigan anyway - means a lot to get a bit of advice wen needed! :)
 
Grino

Theres a movie from the 70s called 'Grino' (aka Junkie) that follows a real life guy named Spacely thru the East Village in NYC in the late 70s copping getting high, etc. The same guy shows up briefly in the Johnny Thunders documentary "Born To Lose" about to die from AIDS in a hospital. G'day!
 
myles p said:
not very experienced with opiates, did oxy 20-40mg 5 or 6 times in my life about a year ago. All last week I was taking codiene for my wisdom teeth.

THey got taken out yesterday and I have been on percocet 5mg oxy's all day yesterday and today and I can see why these are so addictive. Took 10mg oxy and 120 mg codiene half an a hour ago and I'm coming up hard.

So much more pleasant than drinking a bunch of whiskey and acting like an idiot. Pure nothingness is the best way I can describe how I feel at the moment.
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wen i got my wisdom teeth pulled, all i got was paracetamol with codeine 30mg
no offense but it seems to me they overmedicate ppl in some places cos that really was all i needed

in my country we dont even hav all these preparations of oxy or hydro or watever with paracetamol - u either get paracetamol/ibuprofen, then if the pains too much u get either with codeine added (still OTC)

if the pains too much after that theyll try u on (IME) in this order:
-codeine phosphate
-pethidine
-morphine in various forms
-oxy
-fentanyl
(and if ur a long-term pain patient u may b offered methadone or bupe)

theyll try u on evrything non-opiate they possibly can if they can get away with it tho.....

and cos half these pills dont exist here we dont get millions of ppl ending up addicted to them or using serious opiates at a young age

im not dissing other countries' ways of doing things, its just something to think about

i guess over here while we hav a relatively small junkie population (god i know at least of the junkies in auckland) our meth addiction rate is the highest in the world instead - not sure why that is......
 
D.W>
I truly wish that I could help you, however from my posts you can see clearly that even though I have in fact gone thru methadone w/d, and was forced to stay off of it(prison), as soon as I could I was BACK on either it, or Subs, simply because for me, there just is no other way...meaning without an opiate receptor filler of some type in my brain. Yeah, I can walk around and get through life, but you know that old cliche'-I don't feel comfortable in my own skin?? That's me. Nobody can tell, and I can "act" as though everything's peachy, when in reality I'm a nervous, uncomfortable, sweating under the arms son of a bitch. I can and never could find ANY pleasure in doing anything. But the good news(?) at least for me in this matter is that I've accepted this, yet I refuse to go out and participate in the runnin'&gunnin' part of the heroin world anymore. I get it all legally now. And, my "quality of life is fantastic. I don't on a normal basis (27 out of 30 days) take any more than what's prescribed, and it works for me. I wish I could help you find what works for you. I honestly remember feling a SLAVE to methadone, so I feel ya. Let me know if there is anything further I can answewr or add, even tho this was poor, ok??

~luck~
 
Grino

Jim Snot said:
Theres a movie from the 70s called 'Grino' (aka Junkie) that follows a real life guy named Spacely thru the East Village in NYC in the late 70s copping getting high, etc. The same guy shows up briefly in the Johnny Thunders documentary "Born To Lose" about to die from AIDS in a hospital. G'day!
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^^ Way cool of you! I will check all avenues to find the movie, and possibly the other one, too.

Thanks for taking the time. I get off on the genre of drug use/abuse movies, along with the normal "junkie" books. Anyone else know of any that I could find/watch or read???

Greatly appreciated, Christopher
PS Love(!) Leaving Las Vegas!!
 
Suboxone costs...

drug_wench said:
ok well i found out from the methadone counsellor and methadone doesnt lower ur seizure threshold any more than suboxone does
she reckons my best bet is to do a switch if i cant afford suboxone
she said itll make me drowsier and ill hav to raise the doses faster possibly

i dont want to do it but i dont want to lose maverick
for now im staying on suboxone cos it seems to agree with me and i never liked methadone (only ever had it by IV but still.....)

pauls just got a job with computers and will b making a fair bit of money - he reckons he can help towards my monthly suboxone costs

^^^ I don't know about where you're at (Australia right? Or N.Z.?),sorry, but what I wanted to say was that here in the U.S., buprenorphine is EXTREMELY expensive!!! A 30 day supply of 8mg pills costs $187! Thank the gods for insurance(gov't run type for me at the moment), and other drug prescription plans. Otherwise, there's just no way...and it's back to black-market 'done, and whatever else i can get in the meantime, while coming up with cash for the Subs.

Peace, Christopher<3

draigan - unfortunately they dont just give u random tries of done, u hav to sign up for regular treatment on it *sigh*

thanks for the replies, paranoid and draigan anyway - means a lot to get a bit of advice wen needed! :)
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Hope your world is looking better(?) D.W.....
 
Hey all,
I just wanted to make a comment on something I read while doing some research on the SSRI's (newer antidepressants-Zoloft, Prozac, Paxil, etc etc) It comes from a book by one of the most highly recognized Phd's who's studying these drugs as we speak...wrote in the book, "Listening To Prozac" (and then I read "Talking back To Prozac", to get the other side of the coin) and anyway, he stated that for some people, an opiate and only an opiate would qwell? calm? cure? real diagnosed anxiety, in mamy people.
I found that interesting, and thought that I'd share it. I suffer from severe anxiety, and thought that like most anxieties, it was/is "fear based". Not so. Seems I was born with-it, inherited it from my own mother, thru genes.
There are some brilliant people on this site. I've seen them. Please don't put me or what I say down, or criticize what I'm trying to say...it is what it is, and I'm only meaning well.
(There's proof of some anxiety right there!! Ha!

Thanks, C
 
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