guinnesseal
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Feb 6, 2008
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God, once i wa stripping on shrooms and had thsi relationship with a girl i could see in my ceiling. When i was sobering up i felt like i had actually broken up with someone and hence blubbed. Oxy and H have made me cry to, well the lack thereof has i mean.
oh man great story! & i first read it "i wa
only time i ever cried cuz of a drug was the day after taking ecstasy (seems like it happened twice - probably a part of the reason I'm happy with the 3 mdma experiences i've had but i don't need to repeat them).
Those were extremely confused times in my life & i'd been smoking way too much weed at the time, though, so I think that accounts for much of why I felt so bad. I was kinda retarded aside from the ecstasy, but it got me down, & made me kinda fragile. So whenever I'd do something kinda dumb and stonerish, instead of thinking 'oh yeah, that's why i decided not to smoke today' i'd be like 'oh shitfuckshitshit i'm never gonna be able to use my brain again cuz of all these stupid drugs i put into myself, this is the most tragic thing ever, how could i let my parents down like this, oh what great things i could have done if i'd only had the sense not to eat that pill! but all is lost now...' You know, paranoid bullshit combined with the realization that i'd been fucking up. Luckily I'm in a much better place now, but I'm really comfortable with my decision not to take ecstasy anymore. I got a lot out of it the first time i did it, but the 2nd two times I felt like I kinda wasted it, letting my ego take too much control then not really knowing what I wanted to do