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Cutting v. 2

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nah dude thank god though, I had a first aid kit on hand so I just cleaned it with saline solution and sterilizers. I definitely haven't made some great choices today...
 
I have ugly scars on my arms from cutting, and a few not so bad on my thigh,
but I was never even a cutter.
When I was 14 this goth boy I thought was cute, he did it, so I made my arms look even worse than his arms to impress him. I used scissors because they're blunt and would make the biggest scars without going too deep.
Now I'm 22 and have big ugly scars lol, I should've thought it through beforehand.
All you actual cutters are gunna hate me now, yes? or no? I don't know, but I hope no.

I can't stand when people in real life ask me about my scars, why do people ask?
It's fucking rude!!
 
I love cutting myself, I love feeling the horrific pain when I burn or saw my thigh or my arm.
I deserve it all, and it's wonderful for me.
 
Libby said:
I have ugly scars on my arms from cutting, and a few not so bad on my thigh,
but I was never even a cutter.
When I was 14 this goth boy I thought was cute, he did it, so I made my arms look even worse than his arms to impress him. I used scissors because they're blunt and would make the biggest scars without going too deep.
Now I'm 22 and have big ugly scars lol, I should've thought it through beforehand.
All you actual cutters are gunna hate me now, yes? or no? I don't know, but I hope no.

I can't stand when people in real life ask me about my scars, why do people ask?
It's fucking rude!!
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I agree that it's pretty rude. Somehow people always seem to ask at the most inappropriate times too. Like, at parties, in front of big groups, just in public in general. I'm pretty sure it's mostly pure ignorance? Like, they don't ever think that you could be embarrassed about the scars. I'm guessing they figure they're from some sort of accident? I don't know. It seems weird that a normal person would be completely unaware of cutters/what it looks like. Regardless I feel your pain. <3

And no, I don't hate you. :)
 
All I need is a hug... something i've never really had in my whole life.
that'd help me so much, but I'm going to cut instead, it's awfull but it's an addiction worse then drugs.
 
gorgoroth - u do not deserve to cut urself!
ur a wonderful, giving person who deserves more than u think u do
do u realise wat an inspiration to others uve bn in the meth/amphetamines thread?
well.....u hav bn
im sorry to hear ur having a rough time with this now *hugs*
and libby - i met u yesterday, and i didnt notice any scars (unless they were hidden under ur colourful collection of armbands ;))
but i agree with u and amorroark - who goes around asking personal questions like that!? fuck idiots like that - tell them to mind their own fucking business
 
drug_wench said:
gorgoroth - u do not deserve to cut urself!
ur a wonderful, giving person who deserves more than u think u do
do u realise wat an inspiration to others uve bn in the meth/amphetamines thread?
well.....u hav bn
im sorry to hear ur having a rough time with this now *hugs*
and libby - i met u yesterday, and i didnt notice any scars (unless they were hidden under ur colourful collection of armbands ;))
but i agree with u and amorroark - who goes around asking personal questions like that!? fuck idiots like that - tell them to mind their own fucking business
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I totally agree. You don't deserve to cut yourself gorgoroth your a nice personb wheather you realize it or not. Your the only bluelighter ive met and even though i only met you once for a hour or so you seem like a cool person.

You helped me out alot (don't specify too much) when you didnt have to do jack shit. Most people would have said tough shit and fuck off but you helped me out when i was in bad shape. So please stop beating up on yourself man i consider you a friend. I would fuckin hate to have anything happen to you.

Stop the cutting it's a nasty habit. Ive only done it when ive been manic or whatever. I used a beer bottle once, broken glass a few times and razor blades. Thankfully i seem not to scar to easy. I was going to take a razor to my arm the other day while in withdrawals and severly depressed and just going crazy with my moods but i managed to stopped myself.

The cutting only takes your mind off the other pain you have wheather it's physical or mental or both but it only feels good for me for a few minutes. Then i have to clean the cuts and go around with long sleaves on until it heals.
 
yes they were hidden under the colourful armbands and bangles lol.
They might not be as bad as the people here, i read someone took a saw to themselves, maybe they are not that bad, but I don't like when people ask about them, especially since "trying to impress a boy" is such a stupid reason I dont usually want to admit lol.

Aww gorgoroth I will hug you!!
Don't be sad. I care. :)

Pillthrill - it's a good sign that you care a little more :)

AmorRoark - I'm glad you don't hate me :)
 
i used to when i was about 15-18, nothing life threatening, but i never told or showed anybody.
but even if i feel crap now i dont cut myself, i usually hit my head really hard on something or smack my head with my fist, or i break a glass. it works. cos wen im sad i get aggressive.
my ex-bf when i was 16-17 used to do it in front of me for attention and it was fucking annoying.
he had a great life he just didnt see it! his parents did anything to help his depression(ALL IN HIS HEAD!! he wanted to have it so ppl wud feel sorry 4 him)and he would yell at them and say "oh they hate me i want to move out"
and then blame me if he cut himself, "if you comforted me i wouldnt have done it" anyway he emotionally blackmailed me to within an inch of me cutting his arm FOR him! he always used to say "if u leave me ill commit suicide" and other bullshit..he never did it..he just wanted sympathy. for example he put a blog on his myspace sayin "i cut myself on the weekend i dont want attention i just want to write about it maybe itll help if u read this dw about me" uhhh why write it on ur myspace for all to see if u dont want attention? creeeeepy.
glad im rid of that psycho :|

and yeah if ppl see scars they ask.. i say i cut myself on a paint tin when i was younger, prob dont believe me but it could be true for all they no
but im not gona do it ever again it did not help me at all ..made me feel worse.
 
I think I'm just gonna go with "I'm emo" from now on.

What are those scars? "Oh, I'm Emo"
Yeah but, what are they from? Emo's dont wear that much pink do they?
"Some emo's like pink obviously since I'm wearing pink"
you're not emo, your hair isn't over your eyes, if you were emo we'd have to hit you.
Oh well I guess I'm not, you're right.

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drug_wench said:
gorgoroth - u do not deserve to cut urself!
ur a wonderful, giving person who deserves more than u think u do
do u realise wat an inspiration to others uve bn in the meth/amphetamines thread?
well.....u hav bn
im sorry to hear ur having a rough time with this now *hugs*
and libby - i met u yesterday, and i didnt notice any scars (unless they were hidden under ur colourful collection of armbands ;))
but i agree with u and amorroark - who goes around asking personal questions like that!? fuck idiots like that - tell them to mind their own fucking business
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I actually inspired someone!?
I wish that wasn't hard for me to believe.
If I did, that's enough motive for me to conitue to be clean!
My arms look like the old goats behind!
If I can help pplz here thats enough for me to get clean
And PA no fucking problem brother! your one of my best friends to me id give you the shirt off me back!
and thanks libby that means alot to me <3.
Keep hanging around DW, she's good for ya ;)
 
^^ Agreed stella.
gor I'm really glad I'm getting to know you because you're a really great person. And YES you are very inspiring! :)

claire22 said:
my ex-bf when i was 16-17 used to do it in front of me for attention.

glad im rid of that psycho :|
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Oh my god love, I'M glad you got rid of that psycho!! Eeeeep :(

And please don't hit your head :(
Try to ice cube trick next time you get aggressive, it's surprisingly effective.

And surprisingly enough, people hardly EVER ask me about my scars!
I have a whole heap of little thin ones on my left forearm that if anyone asks I can say they're cat scratches.
I have a big keloid one on my right forearm that I say is a burn from a frying pan (lame I know, it looks NOTHING like a burn, but I keep my story consistant and no-one questions me anyway)
I have another one on my right forearm that I keep covered with a bandaid when I'm in public/at work, because the stitch marks are clearly visible.
If people saw the ones on my legs...there is NO explaining those...it extremely fucking obvious how they occured. So I'm going to eventually get tattoos over them all.
 
i just failed my licence... which means im going back into a downward spiral, gettin my licence would mean that i could get myself places and not have to sit at home all day whilst everyone else was at work and so that i could get out and look for a job.. instead im fucking stuck here all afternoon and all up until i try again...i honestly feel like walking in front of a bus, it was such a big deal to me, and no one understands that, no one understands that if i got them today i was free, to go where i wanted when i wanted and now i have to rely on the world and wat a waste of $180 tht was just to fucking fail... i dont know how sane i can keep myself uintil everyone finishes work and can come and see me and help me be happy agian cause until i get my licence im going to be feeling very fucking shit thats for certain. :(:(:( i wish i didnt make such a big deal about it.. i dont even know what to write anyone i feel like such a fuck up :(
 
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