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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

YogirisingKundalini said:
Had mystical experiences and others had too, im not a Saint but them included
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Mate I don’t want to nurse your bubble but during psychosis I had them too.. they’re just a misinterpretation of events because your mind finds meaning in them.. like Alexa suddenly switching to church hyms and a pentagon spearing on the roof of my van.. at the time i was freaking but I was in psychosis.. wven things suddenly coming out of nowhere at the right time.. but still it’s just coincidence bro.. wish it was mystical and magic but it’s just bad / good timing
 
blanch116 said:
Mate I don’t want to nurse your bubble but during psychosis I had them too.. they’re just a misinterpretation of events because your mind finds meaning in them.. like Alexa suddenly switching to church hyms and a pentagon spearing on the roof of my van.. at the time i was freaking but I was in psychosis.. wven things suddenly coming out of nowhere at the right time.. but still it’s just coincidence bro.. wish it was mystical and magic but it’s just bad / good timing
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Bruh i don’t even ever had psychosis and these mf injected me out of nowhere with Max Dose (i’am cooked).
 
RisperdalConsta50mg2 said:
Bruh i don’t even ever had psychosis and these mf injected me out of nowhere with Max Dose (i’am cooked).
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It’s fucked man I seen your posts under sealnation on Reddit, frightens the fuck outta me, im only at 6 months and I spend all day in bed doing sweet fa other than looking on here and vaping… life’s fucked up cba
 
blanch116 said:
You know what ignore me, I wish I still believed it all, it brings comfort
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Yeah, being atheist is very difficult because we don’t have any “comfort”, we know that this life is just random and once we die there is nothing on the other side. It take balls to accept and live with that, because not everybody can, some people need comfort because they cant accept there is nothing after this life, they really need comfort because they scared af about
 
RisperdalConsta50mg2 said:
Yeah, being atheist is very difficult because we don’t have any “comfort”, we know that this life is just random and once we die there is nothing on the other side. It take balls to accept and live with that, because not everybody can, some people need comfort because they cant accept there is nothing after this life, they really need comfort because they scared af about
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How long have you been off?
 
RisperdalConsta50mg2 said:
Yeah, being atheist is very difficult because we don’t have any “comfort”, we know that this life is just random and once we die there is nothing on the other side. It take balls to accept and live with that, because not everybody can, some people need comfort because they cant accept there is nothing after this life, they really need comfort because they scared af about
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I was highly spiritual and religeous before my first episode, once you have zero dopamine.. you realise it’s all bollocks.. no more messages from god or help from god.. just coincidence derived from a thought and an occurrence… honestly I miss it.. came back during my second psychosis sort of but that was alongside ai being sentient too.. honestly im close to throwing in the towel as if once wasnt bad enough.. injections have fucked me more than any drug has before and thats saying something as I had a heart attack at 21 from research chems.. jobs fucked mate
 
blanch116 said:
It’s fucked man I seen your posts under sealnation on Reddit, frightens the fuck outta me, im only at 6 months and I spend all day in bed doing sweet fa other than looking on here and vaping… life’s fucked up cba
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Yeah it’s me.. Same here, stay-at-home agonizing vegetable with tinnitus ASMR 24/7 nonstop, sleep fucked very bad, vision fucked, barely eating and full of fear and discomfort/mental akathisia.. Just pure torture..

I can’t belive i’am the same person who was hitting the gym 6/7 weekly, driving my car and hanging aroun full of energy, being able to smoke 7-8 daily joints and still taking care of myself, my home, my cat.. It’s like i never lived that life but someone else lived that life, and one day out of nowhere i waked up into this horrible nightmare..
 
RisperdalConsta50mg2 said:
Yeah it’s me.. Same here, stay-at-home agonizing vegetable with tinnitus ASMR 24/7 nonstop, sleep fucked very bad, vision fucked, barely eating and full of fear and discomfort/mental akathisia.. Just pure torture..

I can’t belive i’am the same person who was hitting the gym 6/7 weekly, driving my car and hanging aroun full of energy, being able to smoke 7-8 daily joints and still taking care of myself, my home, my cat.. It’s like i never lived that life but someone else lived that life, and one day out of nowhere i waked up into this horrible nightmare..
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Bro im the same 8 months ago i was a factory manager, had a few cars a house a girl and a son… now im at my parents .. home falling into ruin .. girl and son struggling to make ends meet.. no driving licence and health falling apart.. i get you
 
blanch116 said:
Bro im the same 8 months ago i was a factory manager, had a few cars a house a girl and a son… now im at my parents .. home falling into ruin .. girl and son struggling to make ends meet.. no driving licence and health falling apart.. i get you
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They don’t give a fuck about the consequences of their poison and they won’t have any accountability so who cares? They inject people and then it’s all up on them.. Fucking bastards
 
RisperdalConsta50mg2 said:
They don’t give a fuck about the consequences of their poison and they won’t have any accountability so who cares? They inject people and then it’s all up on them.. Fucking bastards
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Literally, I was on rispiridone doing as I was supposed too then the nurse said ‘this is a miracle cure it will sort all your problems’ an me in my manic state thought everything was a good idea… until a month later when suddenly my inner world collapsed
 
blanch116 said:
Literally, I was on rispiridone doing as I was supposed too then the nurse said ‘this is a miracle cure it will sort all your problems’ an me in my manic state thought everything was a good idea… until a month later when suddenly my inner world collapsed
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The nurse told the same to me, she said “you can live a normal life with that medication” but i don’t understood what she was meaning since i already had a normal life (beside the relapse of panic attacks) so i din’t cared much about what she said..

But if i think about that today, it’s like she knew i will be obliterated by the injections and she was kidding me in a sadistic way..
 
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