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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

paranoid android said:
Ask for ipatropium nasal spray aka atrovent
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i don’t know if this one will work they decline it even last year when i asked for it and this doctor said it’s more for chest etc i don’t get it - i just feel so upset my precious nose is damaged again, the audacity they had to assault me
 
Those psychiatrist are cruel, they literally can push someone happy to suicide, they create biggest horror of our lives treating us as lab rat on a wish of demonic unloving family in this body case. I want justice in court and that old pricks dont want it cause = me speaking about the abuse ending in misdisgnosis
 
+1 @silenthill to doing keto, that has helped me a lot with recovery. Sleepiness and dreaming has come back for me. Motivation and drive has returned. I quit nicotine lol so no word on that. Anyone heard from @Trueart2 ? I know he was feeling recovered and thinking of leaving the forum, wondering how things are going for him with work and Invega symptoms.

I'm at 8 months now. Honestly, I'm feeling mostly recovered. I've started Vyvanse and that has been helping me with the anhedonia and focus issues I was having. I also have ADHD so my focus baseline isn't great, so it's hard to say how much of that was the Invega versus how much of that is the ADHD.

Unfortunately, I learned to shut up about my qualms, concerns, and Invega-related struggles to my psychiatrist. He treats it as a sign of psychosis, and I'm on a CTO so I can't risk that right now. It's a sad, broken system where you cannot speak up about the effects of the drugs you're being given without being accused of being sick or delusional. I will never trust psychiatrists again, frankly. This has shattered my faith in the medical system. I was forced onto a drug that left me in hell for months- they could have put me on Abilify, but they didn't. They didn't ask me any questions. They didn't give me any information. My heart goes out to everyone affected by this right now.
 
dopamineClippedAngel said:
+1 @silenthill to doing keto, that has helped me a lot with recovery. Sleepiness and dreaming has come back for me. Motivation and drive has returned. I quit nicotine lol so no word on that. Anyone heard from @Trueart2 ? I know he was feeling recovered and thinking of leaving the forum, wondering how things are going for him with work and Invega symptoms.

I'm at 8 months now. Honestly, I'm feeling mostly recovered. I've started Vyvanse and that has been helping me with the anhedonia and focus issues I was having. I also have ADHD so my focus baseline isn't great, so it's hard to say how much of that was the Invega versus how much of that is the ADHD.

Unfortunately, I learned to shut up about my qualms, concerns, and Invega-related struggles to my psychiatrist. He treats it as a sign of psychosis, and I'm on a CTO so I can't risk that right now. It's a sad, broken system where you cannot speak up about the effects of the drugs you're being given without being accused of being sick or delusional. I will never trust psychiatrists again, frankly. This has shattered my faith in the medical system. I was forced onto a drug that left me in hell for months- they could have put me on Abilify, but they didn't. They didn't ask me any questions. They didn't give me any information. My heart goes out to everyone affected by this right now.
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I don't understand what people on blueline are doing that everyone heals in 8 months here. In Facebook and reddit it's more common to people to heal in 16-18 months. Im 11.5 months and I'm just starting to heal and mostly bedridden still.
 
lostsoulowen said:
I don't understand what people on blueline are doing that everyone heals in 8 months here. In Facebook and reddit it's more common to people to heal in 16-18 months. Im 11.5 months and I'm just starting to heal and mostly bedridden still.
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I completely agree. I also read that people need more than a year (and sometimes up to three years) to fully recover. Everything is so individual, but those are the recovery timelines that most often appear
 
lostsoulowen said:
I don't understand what people on blueline are doing that everyone heals in 8 months here. In Facebook and reddit it's more common to people to heal in 16-18 months. Im 11.5 months and I'm just starting to heal and mostly bedridden still.
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InnerReturn said:
I completely agree. I also read that people need more than a year (and sometimes up to three years) to fully recover. Everything is so individual, but those are the recovery timelines that most often appear
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I wouldn't say I'm fully recovered, I'm not back to baseline, but I am able to function again. I don't think your timeline is unusual at all, based on recovery stories, and I don't expect to be fully at baseline until 1-2 years out. I still notice some differences with how my body registers substances, so I have a ways to go. Sorry to hear things are still so difficult, but I'm glad you're starting to heal. I was hoping to have a recovery like @demileigh and it seems I'm on track for that. It's worth noting I've also been on a WL journey which also is supposed to reduce amounts of Invega in the body. Things started significantly improving when I started supplements and the keto diet. Although, I admit, there's been lots of cheating for me on that diet... I did reduce my carbs overall.
 
dopamineClippedAngel said:
+1 @silenthill to doing keto, that has helped me a lot with recovery. Sleepiness and dreaming has come back for me. Motivation and drive has returned. I quit nicotine lol so no word on that. Anyone heard from @Trueart2 ? I know he was feeling recovered and thinking of leaving the forum, wondering how things are going for him with work and Invega symptoms.

I'm at 8 months now. Honestly, I'm feeling mostly recovered. I've started Vyvanse and that has been helping me with the anhedonia and focus issues I was having. I also have ADHD so my focus baseline isn't great, so it's hard to say how much of that was the Invega versus how much of that is the ADHD.

Unfortunately, I learned to shut up about my qualms, concerns, and Invega-related struggles to my psychiatrist. He treats it as a sign of psychosis, and I'm on a CTO so I can't risk that right now. It's a sad, broken system where you cannot speak up about the effects of the drugs you're being given without being accused of being sick or delusional. I will never trust psychiatrists again, frankly. This has shattered my faith in the medical system. I was forced onto a drug that left me in hell for months- they could have put me on Abilify, but they didn't. They didn't ask me any questions. They didn't give me any information. My heart goes out to everyone affected by this right now.
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How about coffee, can you feel that? It's still not hitting for me at all, unlike nicotine.

Same for orgasm, does that feel the same as before or not quite?
 
Invegatorment said:
How about coffee, can you feel that? It's still not hitting for me at all, unlike nicotine.

Same for orgasm, does that feel the same as before or not quite?
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Orgasm is getting there but not all the way there. Grateful for the progress I have had, had really bad and scary genital numbness initially that I thought would never go away.

Coffee I can somewhat feel, but it's still not like how it was pre-Invega. This is part of how I know I'm not back at baseline yet.
 
dopamineClippedAngel said:
+1 @silenthill to doing keto, that has helped me a lot with recovery. Sleepiness and dreaming has come back for me. Motivation and drive has returned. I quit nicotine lol so no word on that. Anyone heard from @Trueart2 ? I know he was feeling recovered and thinking of leaving the forum, wondering how things are going for him with work and Invega symptoms.

I'm at 8 months now. Honestly, I'm feeling mostly recovered. I've started Vyvanse and that has been helping me with the anhedonia and focus issues I was having. I also have ADHD so my focus baseline isn't great, so it's hard to say how much of that was the Invega versus how much of that is the ADHD.

Unfortunately, I learned to shut up about my qualms, concerns, and Invega-related struggles to my psychiatrist. He treats it as a sign of psychosis, and I'm on a CTO so I can't risk that right now. It's a sad, broken system where you cannot speak up about the effects of the drugs you're being given without being accused of being sick or delusional. I will never trust psychiatrists again, frankly. This has shattered my faith in the medical system. I was forced onto a drug that left me in hell for months- they could have put me on Abilify, but they didn't. They didn't ask me any questions. They didn't give me any information. My heart goes out to everyone affected by this right now.
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I had to lie and comply to get off my CTO. Fuck psychiatrists who think it's okay to forcefully inject people for long periods of time without a clear end to the treatment. You have no idea if your CTO will last 3 months or 3 years. Bastards
 
Invegatorture said:
I had to lie and comply to get off my CTO. Fuck psychiatrists who think it's okay to forcefully inject people for long periods of time without a clear end to the treatment. You have no idea if your CTO will last 3 months or 3 years. Bastards
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They are demonic, left brainer closed minded psychopaths that push people to suicide after such experiences
 
Invegatorture said:
I had to lie and comply to get off my CTO. Fuck psychiatrists who think it's okay to forcefully inject people for long periods of time without a clear end to the treatment. You have no idea if your CTO will last 3 months or 3 years. Bastards
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Seriously its unbelievable what kind of psychopaths get ability to permamently brain damage someone even if diagnosis is wrong, luciferic inversion of truth in them
 
Trully demonic beings, David Hawkins is one of the biggest spiritual teacher of mankind and he calibrated pride at the level of falsehood and said higher the level of conciousness higher the perception of truth and somehow psychiatrist that did this to me all of them had pride on their faces which calibrate as low conciousness, pride is quality of lucifer, demonic family members sending me to demonic psychiatrist on chemical lobotomy while i was not danger to myself and others, hell, madinamerica didnt lied when said % of suicides raises after forced hospitalisations, they trully take away someone dignity and call it treatment
 
I thought this song might resonate with some people on here, feeling alone, homeless in a way, nobody understanding, maybe hoping & even still praying for a healing,
the world continuing on as we suffer so severely in seeming obscurity, no peace or love or joy to be found, only the ashes of our lives, the debris of who we used to be.

At the point I wrote "Alone" I had just moved in my new home (2022) & my Lyme misery had a firm grip on me. My faith was shaken but I was still fully invested in The Lord.

P.S. Pardon the appearance. It was early morn, my (former) normal wake-up call around 3am.... Hence, I was barely up & quite a bit disheveled. Anyway, who cares, right?!



"Alone"

Verse 1
I lay in the darkness with pain I’ve long known,
pray in the darkness, no place to call home,
alone, I feel so all alone.

Verse 2
I never knew sorrows could seek & destroy,
steal my tomorrows, kill all of my joy,
alone, I feel so all alone.

Chorus
I feel so all alone, forsaken by my own.

Verse 3
I hope for a healing, yet it doesn’t come,
keep on appealing I’ll rise with The Son,
alone, I feel so all alone.

Verse 4
The world keeps on turning as I’m burning down,
heart ever yearning, remains never found,
alone, I feel so all alone.

Chorus
I feel so all alone, forsaken by my own.

Bridge
Before I ascended, I descended through hell,
wish the war ended when Lucifer fell,
don’t be offended you haven’t been well,
your fall is My story to tell.

Chorus 2
Forsaken by your own, your faith will take Us Home.

Verse 5
Father, forgive me, I trust I’m in place,
perfectly fitted for Your saving grace,
alone, I feel so all alone.

Verse 6
Your burden is lightest when I bear Your Song,
Jesus, unite Us, we’ve suffered so long,
alone, I feel so all alone
 
lostsoulowen said:
11.5 months the big brain fog lobotomized feeling in the forehead lifted, i think most of the posioned is out if my body, now it's waiting for the brain to heal from the damage's.
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Are you still on tablets Owen? If you are it will 100% be the tablets that’s stopping your recovery from going any further trust me I’ve been in the same boat, I’m 17 days off my last injection and didn’t want to take pills again so I’m hoping I heal in the next few months
 
YogirisingKundalini said:
Those psychiatrist are cruel, they literally can push someone happy to suicide, they create biggest horror of our lives treating us as lab rat on a wish of demonic unloving family in this body case. I want justice in court and that old pricks dont want it cause = me speaking about the abuse ending in misdisgnosis
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Yes I feel suicidal, spit in neck , akathsia serious dystopia effects

Blocked nose that’ll go on for about 100 days I feel suicidal

What me and my partner were talking about

separation from family etc
 
Invegatorture said:
I had to lie and comply to get off my CTO. Fuck psychiatrists who think it's okay to forcefully inject people for long periods of time without a clear end to the treatment. You have no idea if your CTO will last 3 months or 3 years. Bastards
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I was discharged about a week ago now. not sure if they put me on cto sure i would know if i was but i wasn’t in that category when released i would have known by now. same like last time.

I feel powerless knowing im fighting a chemical warfare in my body every second and minute of the day,
Currently got two shots of Paliperidone in my. body

Nobody at all to speak too about it

Dystopia in it’s worth forms
blocked nose
clogged throat when i don’t take side effect drug prycodline
Pacing
Feeling of suicidie
Before this I was a happy and jolly before now I feel gone …

How does one simply get on with 100+ days before any improvements
 
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