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Bluelighter
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What do you expect? That I add you on PlayStation friend list and we play some fortnite until late night?
@rawbanana s suicide left me traumatized . It helped trigger my loss of composure at work today..i cannot believe it, this drug makes life absolute hell. I dont want to die and neither did @rawbanana but what choice are we left with when everything we love and cherish is taken away from us for no fault of our own. All the mental tools we developed to deal with stressful situations are also taken away by this drug.
Idk i had to see the doctor but 2 days ago there was a dude who went completely crazy so him had priority over me, i think I will see her tomorrow.
The fact is I can leave whenever I want but the only doctor who Belive me and want to help me for real so if i leave i lose this doctor, the paradox of having to stay into a mental health psych ward even if I don’t have any mental diagnosis is kinda fun.
I feel a constant pressure, I’m not sure what to do. This drug is absolutely terrifying. I hope I can heal even at least 50% as I’m getting worse. I’m a carer for my nan and I can’t even look after her properly. I love her so much and I’m broken. I’m a suicidal mess at the moment. But I have to hold on for her and now raw banana as he told me to wait at least 9 months. Rest in peace— I don’t know you, but we messaged a little for the past few months and your death has affected me. You were a gentle soul and just wanted to heal.
Life will never be the same for who @Pretty Green ? Did you reply to @lukeflowz by mistake?
I Do think you will feel better at 9 months but give it more time. I expect you to feel better in 9 to 12 months and fully recover by 2 years. Most people i spoke to who recovered were a suicidal mess during first 2 to 7 months of recovery. Where you are right now is a very difficult place and i completely understand. I am living that experience with you. Just remember that windows of recovery will come and go and not linear when they come. You have to stay busy and as active as possible this is very important, drink a lot of water and tea, keep moving forward in life as best as you can and relax with whatever tools or distractions you have. Eat a healthy diet, organic eggs have helped me a lot and tea has polyphenols. Some people say st johns wort in pure form, and steeped as tea has helped them.I feel a constant pressure, I’m not sure what to do. This drug is absolutely terrifying. I hope I can heal even at least 50% as I’m getting worse. I’m a carer for my nan and I can’t even look after her properly. I love her so much and I’m broken. I’m a suicidal mess at the moment. But I have to hold on for her and now raw banana as he told me to wait at least 9 months. Rest in peace— I don’t know you, but we messaged a little for the past few months and your death has affected me. You were a gentle soul and just wanted to heal.
Are you on invega sustenna too? If not, than i hope you will heal and recover from this loss. Not to undermine your pain but i went through loss of loved ones before invega and i thought it was the most painful thing until i was given invega sustenna. There is no hell worse than invega sustenna and i know why @rawbanana did it. If you are lucky enough to never have been put on invega or similar drug than you have all the tools available to you for healing i:e exercise, meditation, ,ability to feel caffeine, endorphins, serotonin, and other substances that can help you heal. Invega takes all those things away from you. So if you are lucky enough to never have been on such a drug than value the only life you have. Invega makes you value life even more.Without beautiful Vamsi. I’m distraught
Yea that really helped my recovery, it is possible to recoverStaying as busy and active as you can is important for recovery from invega.