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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v11

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twinpeaks123 said:
how long did it take for you to recover?
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I really didn’t notice recovery until I started working and living life normally. I just didn’t think about the side effects while I was busy. I still feel like chit when I’m idle only thing that works is finding ways to pass time. Reading, gaming, walking, etc. I can’t say I’ve recovered because I’m on another medicine now, but I was fine for a year or so in between medications.
 
Baddream said:
I really didn’t notice recovery until I started working and living life normally. I just didn’t think about the side effects while I was busy. I still feel like chit when I’m idle only thing that works is finding ways to pass time. Reading, gaming, walking, etc. I can’t say I’ve recovered because I’m on another medicine now, but I was fine for a year or so in between medications.
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Yeah but this poison really make your life hard.
Yesterday i managed to go to cinema watch a movie and walk in the park.
Like it's so simple task but on invega everything is hard.
 
What they call mental illness is most of the time being stuck in an environment surrounded by unevolved Baboons. They intrude into your personal life, trap you in places where they can subject you to mental abuse, track your online activity, even hack your phone, poke their nose in where it doesnt belong because they want control over you. If you point it out , they declare you 'cuckoo' because even even mentioning the things they do are truly absurd and defy the laws of common sense. There is no common sense or logic to the absurd narcissist or bully behavior, yet if you report this behavior it is you who will get punished by the mental health system.
 
I did not rape anyone, i did not kill anyone, i didnot harass or bully anyone, i did not intrude into anyones personal business nor intentionally wronged them. There are people who do many of those things and the system lets them get away with it. Most people on this forum are innocent souls who never did such things but were only a victim of such behavior yet they are the ones preparing for suicide. Psych wards are full of victims of abuse being abused further.
 
anonymoususer777 said:
What they call mental illness is most of the time being stuck in an environment surrounded by unevolved Baboons. They intrude into your personal life, trap you in places where they can subject you to mental abuse, track your online activity, even hack your phone, poke their nose in where it doesnt belong because they want control over you. If you point it out , they declare you 'cuckoo' because even even mentioning the things they do are truly absurd and defy the laws of common sense. There is no common sense or logic to the absurd narcissist or bully behavior, yet if you report this behavior it is you who will get punished by the mental health system.
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This is exactly what keeps happening to me. I get paranoid abt being tracked surveilled until the point where they put me in the psych ward and declare me schizo. I’m now under the impression that it’s all paranoia but I can’t know fore sure.
 
anonymoususer777 said:
What they call mental illness is most of the time being stuck in an environment surrounded by unevolved Baboons. They intrude into your personal life, trap you in places where they can subject you to mental abuse, track your online activity, even hack your phone, poke their nose in where it doesnt belong because they want control over you. If you point it out , they declare you 'cuckoo' because even even mentioning the things they do are truly absurd and defy the laws of common sense. There is no common sense or logic to the absurd narcissist or bully behavior, yet if you report this behavior it is you who will get punished by the mental health system.
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How do you know that they are tracking and hacking? Do you have any proof? Maybe it’s just imagination? I’m asking because I feel the same way sometimes and I’m not sure if it’s psychosis or real.
 
Baddream said:
How do you know that they are tracking and hacking? Do you have any proof? Maybe it’s just imagination? I’m asking because I feel the same way sometimes and I’m not sure if it’s psychosis or real.
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It’s extremely unlikely you’re being watched by the government. While I can agree we do live in an open air prison now a days, he’s being fictitious with the idea that PSYCHIATRISTS are tracking your online activity and hacking into your accounts.

Once you get diagnosed it’s on your record and medically you’re treated like a criminal if you ever get into fits of mania, psychosis, etc. And you won’t be able to join the military, get some government jobs, be a police officer, etc.

Psychiatrists aren’t going out of their way to specifically track people who have mental illnesses and keep tabs on them aside from when they are seen. You are paranoid
 
Trueart2 said:
It’s extremely unlikely you’re being watched by the government. While I can agree we do live in an open air prison now a days, he’s being fictitious with the idea that PSYCHIATRISTS are tracking your online activity and hacking into your accounts.

Once you get diagnosed it’s on your record and medically you’re treated like a criminal if you ever get into fits of mania, psychosis, etc. And you won’t be able to join the military, get some government jobs, be a police officer, etc.

Psychiatrists aren’t going out of their way to specifically track people who have mental illnesses and keep tabs on them aside from when they are seen. You are paranoid
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Thank you for the reply. This is how my illness works. I am not paranoid atm, but I get psychotic from time to time and start thinking that the government is micromanaging my life with surveillance. I’m glad it’s just in my head lol. But now I’m stuck with medicine for the foreseeable future feels like I’m serving a sentence
 
Holy shit i just translate for you guys, from local newspapers about another death of invega i think? They don't say it inside the newspaper but all she's saying is like us

Edit she said she did get an injection.
The newspaper try to make it look like it's because of her mental issues truma.

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Her family and said treatment provider were able to truly help her, and the week of hospitalization only worsened her condition.

The hospitalization in a closed ward was a mistake. She came voluntarily because she lost control. After they put her in a closed ward, she lost it. I met with one of the doctors in the ward, I said, 'Listen, she's a Nova survivor, you have to treat her differently. You put her in a closed ward, with people in a much worse condition, and it gives her a label that she's crazy.'

In June of that year, Shiral arrived at the Lev Hasharon Psychiatric Hospital on her own accord. She was examined, a psychiatrist determined that she was in a psychotic state and ordered her to be hospitalized. A day later, she tried to escape by pressing a fire button. She also attacked staff members and in response was forcibly put into an isolation room, which caused her injuries in various parts of her body.

Towards the end of the conversation, at that meeting in Tel Aviv, Shiral said: "The state abandoned me. In the hospital, they beat me, pinned my head to the floor and gave me an injection in front of everyone. I did not resist. I was lying down with my hands behind my back.
 
Baddream said:
How do you know that they are tracking and hacking? Do you have any proof? Maybe it’s just imagination? I’m asking because I feel the same way sometimes and I’m not sure if it’s psychosis or real.
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Maybe not hacking, but all the tell tale signs are there. I am not paranoid and im afraid of describing the things they do because it is absurd and sounds crazy. Victims of narcissistic abuse often end up in psych wards, never ever mention the things they do or they will get you punished, the world isnt run on ethics or logic, it is run according to senseless rules created by these baboons. My life already ended with the invega injections when i was almost out of their reach, i have to die niw though i dont want to much like @rawbanana . But if you are stuck in such a situation, never ever make the mistake of mentioning this to anyone, instead try your best to get as far away from these people so they dont have access to you.
 
The most horrifying fact before dying is that they were never interested in your well being, they were only wanted addicted to the feeling of seeing you suffer. And they wanted to see you suffer for nothing you did but whatever was going on inside their brains. If one excuse didnt work, they created another one. The mental health worker said "lets shut this sucker down" before arranging for ending my life. Is sadism genetic?
 
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Can someone open a discord server so that we can all talk and stay in touch? I really wish @rawbanana didn’t have to die so early , he should have waited till 18 months
 
mona21 said:
Can someone open a discord server so that we can all talk and stay in touch? I really wish @rawbanana didn’t have to die so early , he should have waited till 18 months
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That would defeat the purpose of the forums and totally alienate anyone new from joining. You’re also barley active here.
 
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