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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v11

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anonymoususer777 said:
@demileigh how are you doing now? Can you feel weed? Do youhave a problem with your body heating up toomuch?
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Yeah I’m doing well. I haven’t tried weed since early stages of recovery and it amplified the anxiety I was experiencing so stopped… thinking about giving it another try soon tho so will post how I go with it when I do. Hard to tell if body is heating up too much or not cause I’m in the tropics so it’s really hot and humid here as it is
 
demileigh said:
Yeah I’m doing well. I haven’t tried weed since early stages of recovery and it amplified the anxiety I was experiencing so stopped… thinking about giving it another try soon tho so will post how I go with it when I do. Hard to tell if body is heating up too much or not cause I’m in the tropics so it’s really hot and humid here as it is
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are you able to enjoy movies and television again?
 
demileigh said:
Yeah absolutely. Might even say I enjoy it more now after not being able to enjoy it
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It's the same for me like i appreciate everything so much more now. But alot of that for me was more to do with the psych ward then the injections. I wont take freedom for granted ever again
 
twinpeaks123 said:
how long did it take for you to enjoy it and did you feel like your overall symptoms got worse before they got better?
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I think it was about 5 months off the injections when i started to be able to enjoy tv again. And yeah I guess it’s hard to say, in the beginning things were so horrid, even with small improvements it was hard to appreciate them when my anxiety was so bad and it felt like I was never going to get better. But I think all the things I did like acupuncture, daily walks, supplements, keeping hydrated, herbal teas and bush medicine, lots of self care even when it felt forced, eating healthy and what not all paid off
 
paranoid android said:
It's the same for me like i appreciate everything so much more now. But alot of that for me was more to do with the psych ward then the injections. I wont take freedom for granted ever again
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Haha gosh I had the worst anxiety about going back to the psych ward in early stages, I’ll be devo if I end up back there. I think when you go through certain things and make it out the other end it does give you a new found appreciation for things you may have taken for granted beforehand that’s for sure. When I first got out of the ward I was just glad to be able to walk outside and breathe fresh air whenever I wanted
 
demileigh said:
Haha gosh I had the worst anxiety about going back to the psych ward in early stages, I’ll be devo if I end up back there. I think when you go through certain things and make it out the other end it does give you a new found appreciation for things you may have taken for granted beforehand that’s for sure. When I first got out of the ward I was just glad to be able to walk outside and breathe fresh air whenever I wanted
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OMG fear of going psychotic again and having cotards syndrome was all i had for awile after getting out. When i first got out i didnt even have any benzos as i was to scared to ask my shrink for any. But i later found out my shrink was cool so my paranoia was unfounded. But one of the first things i did when i got out was call my coke dealer. I figured i had to deal with this somehow. I was pushing the blow to the max sometimes and doing way to big of a shot. When i seized up i was shooting a 1/3rd of a gram of coke ffs. Was lucky i didnt stroke out. I stopped doing blow 3 years ago though and i wouldnt take it now because im on testosterone now and mixing juice with coke is how your fav 80's and 90's wrestlers died

But after dealng with all that and recovering from the invega and abilify i feel better then i have in ages. I so appreciate being able to wake up in my own bed, grind some coffeee beans to make coffee and then smoke a few bongs with my coffee and not hear yelling and screaming. Whenever i start to feel down now i just think why are you depressed? Your not in the psych ward so its a good day. I honestly havent had depression since leaving the psych ward maybe it cured me lol
 
paranoid android said:
OMG fear of going psychotic again and having cotards syndrome was all i had for awile after getting out. When i first got out i didnt even have any benzos as i was to scared to ask my shrink for any. But i later found out my shrink was cool so my paranoia was unfounded. But one of the first things i did when i got out was call my coke dealer. I figured i had to deal with this somehow. I was pushing the blow to the max sometimes and doing way to big of a shot. When i seized up i was shooting a 1/3rd of a gram of coke ffs. Was lucky i didnt stroke out. I stopped doing blow 3 years ago though and i wouldnt take it now because im on testosterone now and mixing juice with coke is how your fav 80's and 90's wrestlers died

But after dealng with all that and recovering from the invega and abilify i feel better then i have in ages. I so appreciate being able to wake up in my own bed, grind some coffeee beans to make coffee and then smoke a few bongs with my coffee and not hear yelling and screaming. Whenever i start to feel down now i just think why are you depressed? Your not in the psych ward so its a good day. I honestly havent had depression since leaving the psych ward maybe it cured me lol
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Haha that’s wild, I’d probably do blow but where I’m from they cut it to the point that it’s hardly coke so it’s a hard pass for me. How’s the testosterone going for you?

Waking up in your own bed is really it after sleeping in the beds they have at psych wards, I missed my bed so much when I was there, I was even tempted to not come back from leave when I went home one afternoon cause I just wanted to sleep in my own bed but went back cause I didn’t want police looking for me lol. Every day you’re not in the psych ward is a good day 💯 pissed me off so bad how they didn’t have coffee in the psych ward, I’d be going down to the cafe as soon as they’d let me out to have a smoke and get a triple shot of coffee just so I could think properly
 
demileigh said:
Haha that’s wild, I’d probably do blow but where I’m from they cut it to the point that it’s hardly coke so it’s a hard pass for me. How’s the testosterone going for you?

Waking up in your own bed is really it after sleeping in the beds they have at psych wards, I missed my bed so much when I was there, I was even tempted to not come back from leave when I went home one afternoon cause I just wanted to sleep in my own bed but went back cause I didn’t want police looking for me lol. Every day you’re not in the psych ward is a good day 💯 pissed me off so bad how they didn’t have coffee in the psych ward, I’d be going down to the cafe as soon as they’d let me out to have a smoke and get a triple shot of coffee just so I could think properly
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Do you ever take caffeine through other methods than coffee?
 
demileigh said:
Haha that’s wild, I’d probably do blow but where I’m from they cut it to the point that it’s hardly coke so it’s a hard pass for me. How’s the testosterone going for you?

Waking up in your own bed is really it after sleeping in the beds they have at psych wards, I missed my bed so much when I was there, I was even tempted to not come back from leave when I went home one afternoon cause I just wanted to sleep in my own bed but went back cause I didn’t want police looking for me lol. Every day you’re not in the psych ward is a good day 💯 pissed me off so bad how they didn’t have coffee in the psych ward, I’d be going down to the cafe as soon as they’d let me out to have a smoke and get a triple shot of coffee just so I could think properly
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The test is going really good just had to give myself a injection of it actually. Im on 150mg's every week now. Im going to wait until i get blood work back and also wait 8 weeks for any hair losss to show up before i go up to 200mg's every week. I l probably go up to 250 but im going to get more blood work done before that happens. I managed to put n alot of muscle by working out to. I went from doing 25lbs dumbbell curls to doing 165lbs barbell curls now.

Coke is shit anyway lol. I really only did it i think because i didnt have my morphine and couldnt get it up lol. I was pissed off. When got my morphine back and eventually my sex drive i didnt really need it. I think i was just sublimating with coke. Freud would have a field day with that loln

And ya nothng beats waking up in your own bed knowing you dont have yo get a blood test done after waking up. They had sanka "coffe" at our psych ward but if you where allowed off the ward and had money you could buy coffee at the canteen. It was pricey and not as good as tim hortins and in any case i used ay excuse to leave the hospital lol. I so hated going back to the psych ward every night. I didnt go home as i live a hour away from the psych ward but i did go to my grandmas old huse whre my mom was and slept there for abit cause nooe slept in the psych ward. It was impossibl;e to sleep in there with the nurses checking on you wth flashlights every half hour, the noise and all the light on the ward. It was so hard to go back to that goddamn hospital bed after sleeping at the one at my grandmas.

I so appreciate the little thibgs more in ife. Juat simple shit like being able to have s coffee and a cig whever i want, a joibt or a drink whe never i want. Or cook my own food thats not shitty psych ward food. Thay was disgusting but i ate it anyway usually
 
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