but overall Ambien is an insanely fascinating hallucinogen.
I hate to say it, but I have to agree.
Total lack of undesirable physical senses, yet visuals similar to a DXM experience, but with much more "clarity" - if that makes sense.
In fact the "depth perception" is cool too, as my normal keyboard looked like I was typing on an ancient "Lego" communications device which also "pulsates" and changes color on different keys.
Feel like a giant typing on a Grand Stand.
Also similar to the distortions in vision that Promethazine delivers, but more comfortable as there is no "stomach churning", dry mouth and other physical discomfort when using zolpidem on its own.
AND THE LAST THING ON THIS ..... IS.....
FUCK.... I forgot.
Anyways, I am glad I have limited supply of a hypnotic on hand for the near future that "does the job", but hope I get my regular supply of Zopiclone soon as one of the reasons I appreciate its effects is the anxiety relief zopiclone gives and at a low, consistent dose too.
Also, there is much more control over my actions with zopiclone versus zolpidem, IME.
The patches of time that is lost due to the amnesic effects of zolpidem has always been a worry.
So, for me, I will use the Zolpidem strictly to get through the next few nights as a sleeping tablet and hope these withdrawal symptoms from the Mianserin dissapear sooner rather than later. I think I have another 7 days to get through.
Truly awful feeling (I mean on top of the physical discomfort I have been endearing for the last 3 weeks I started crying uncontrollably for about 15 minutes last night when I didn't answer my cellphone in time. I called the person back after composing myself and sending out curses to my doctor "telepathically" and then deleting them an hour or two later.... kinda like I am doing in this thread with that Video.
Jesus, sorry for the long post, but I hope it
is withdrawal from Mianserin that is doing this. As I would hate to know what "ailment" is lurking if it isn't WD.
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So back to the topic of this thread.
Evening BL
40mg Codeine
a few joints of Gary Payton indoor and Thin Mintz greenhouse
and that's it.
When I am ready to go to sleep I will take 1 Ambien and close my eyes.
Have a great evening all, and thanks for the input from the few of you who saw me on the video. I am glad the right people got to see it and surprised I didn't delete it sooner.