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it’s hard - she’s not an everyday drinker or anything like that. but when she DOES drink, even rarely, it 99% of the time gets out of control and she throws a fit. she’s done this ever since i was a kid that i can remember, and it triggers a lot of anxiety because i remember i was such a sensitive kid and it just would make me clam up, anxious, and worried out my mind when she would and that’s kinda always carried with me into young adulthood. i imagine she feels the same way when i used though, yanno?
My dad used to be a very heavy (daily) drinker. He's calmed down a lot now but I can tell he's drunk whenever he sends me messages basically saying "give up" or "let it go" when it comes to aspirations/dreams. It really triggers me, especially of late after we connected a bit more.
 
That's rough. We are our own person though, maybe that thought helps.

Personally my gf is going to be working late a couple nights this week and gone all day Saturday. I need to keep myself in check but I'm unsure how. I'm always looking for excitement. I am not sure I'll be able to resist drinking on a 4 mile walk and getting a dozen .5 wings and eat by the pond but, hopefully that's it. And hopefully I don't feel the need to get stupid drunk. Just enough to be able to deal with strangers gazes and mild life frustrations.
 
I managed to not drink this weekend. Still doing well overall I guess. Going to get harder getting closer to Christmas though for sure.
fuck yeah, big hugs. i’ve got a lot of booze in my house rn but i maintain with kratom and alcohol + kratom is never a fun combo so i just stay away from it in general! proud of you, this time of year gets rough for a lot of us
 
really boring & anhedonic day today. just been sitting in the living room beside the christmas tree listening to music. how are you guys doing today?
Hola amigo,
I’m hangin in there, on a little teeny tiny string 💜
Withdrawing from tramadol & hydromorphone … whew

Hope you’re doing well as I’m writing this
Big hug 🌺
 
good evening guys, hope all is well for you guys :)

just enjoying my evening, well, lunch rather just doomscrolling tiktok.
 
good evening lads & lasses! 💽 or morning, rather! it’s 1am here in south carolina. todays been a decent day i suppose. still haven’t gotten back to my daily walks, which i need to - they help my moods tremendously <3


anyways; hope all is well with all of you guys & girls here in the thread 💕 xoxox

jon
 
good evening guys xoxox i hope everyone is having a splendid evening :) im just enjoying some relaxing time in the living room and figured i’d pop in. i pulled out the laser toy to play with the kitties, and it’s hilarious. not just because they relentlessly try to catch this laser but considering we run a cat / kitten rescue, seeing 18 cats try to catch this tiny red dot is absolutely hilarious.


anyways, todays been a lovely day honestly. ran some christmas errands downtown, took a 10mg valium(oooops), and have just been content all day long. i got a LOT of presents wrapped and put under the tree, which got me immediately in the christmas spirit :)

anyways; doing well guys. i hope all of you are doing alright & enjoying your evening with your family or your pets or your friends or even just yourself.
much love,
jon
 
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