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Recovery The 2023 Recovery Thread

Jennn said:
@somnilicious i hope you feel better soon. Methadone was the worst wd's ive had, they seem to last forever. I found exercise and hot baths helped but time seems to be the major factor. I'm still not sleeping like i used to but i find i feel less dull off of it. It's hard to adjust when you spend over 10 years numbing yourself.
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i swear, hot baths are my #1 go-to when it comes to being sick. literally multiple baths a day, bubbles & all. my anxiety is usually sky high & about 10 minutes after being in the bath, i’ll want to go back to laying in my bed, and then about an hour later i want another bath so i’ll go back to another hot bath & wash/rinse/repeat. mental.
 
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I wish I had a bath tub. I only have a shower which is nice but you can't lay back. When I was in Medellin a couple of weeks ago it was sweet because they had an open air but covered bar on top of my hotel that overlooked the city with a hot tub. It was fucking awesome to be able to buy Lyrica over the counter, smoke a little pot, drink some beers and just melt into the hot tub while staring at all the twinkling lights rising up all the mountains surrounding you. Good times....
 
I think I'm making it over another hump in the recovery process. Feeling somewhat normal. Although, when I said that I sneezed three times in a row. Just slightly achy joints, boredom and less than ideal sleep. Last 2 days have been pretty chill and I'm starting to appreciate small things.

It's about time for me to start getting back to work. I got a new radiator set to arrive Tues that I have to install before all that jazz though.
 
somnilicious said:
I think I'm making it over another hump in the recovery process. Feeling somewhat normal. Although, when I said that I sneezed three times in a row. Just slightly achy joints, boredom and less than ideal sleep. Last 2 days have been pretty chill and I'm starting to appreciate small things.

It's about time for me to start getting back to work. I got a new radiator set to arrive Tues that I have to install before all that jazz though.
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oh hell yeah, mate. that’s good to hear. it’s always so relieving when the ‘wave’ breaks, isn’t it? it’s like you can let out a giant sigh of relief, and then sneeze 5 more times right? 🤣😅

good luck installing that radiator. i absolutely hate working on vehicles and i’m so goddamn bad at it… lmao.


but yeah mate.. glad to hear your endorphins & dopamine are healing & starting to fire up again for the cozy things in life. music, a campfire, a walk through nature, a ride into town, a good cup of coffee, etc.

much love man, keep us updated xo

joon
 
I'm frustrated with myself right now because over the course of the night I ended up drinking the equivalent of about 20 beers (five 25oz. 8% Natty Daddys). It's 1:45am and I'm already stressing because the liquor store doesn't open until 10am on Sunday. I'm on my 2nd day without Klonopin so my anxiety is peaking.

Last year I went months without a drink, but I've really gotten myself into a mess these past several months. I don't want to make excuses, but I trace it back to when I crashed my car, broke my collarbone and got COVID at the same time. I had to wait 3 weeks for my surgery and I was just stuck at home going bonkers.

That's all over now. They fixed my bone (heh heh, I said "bone"), my COVID is long gone and I don't have any major problems going on in my life. It's all just a physical dependence now.

Oh well, tomorrow's another day to try and do better. Please send some prayers/good vibes my way. Thanks!
 
I got several hours of decent sleep last night and feel a whole lot better than I did like 12 hours ago. I've had a couple of beers, but I'm doing okay. I have no obligations for the next week, so I'm just focusing on tapering off of the beer and taking it easy.
 
Well.... I've been saying almost 2mths for a while. According to my text message records today is exactly 2 calendar mths free of methadone. I was absolutely substance free yesterday because I ran out of THC vape, don't do nicotine, coffee and I decided not to drink because I wanted to see if I could sleep which the alcohol wasn't allowing me to do. It worked because I got 5hrs of sleep after not sleeping for 3 days. This morning I woke up with anxiety and it felt like my brain was a heavy wet sponge(couldn't think). I made it to noon before I fixed a drink. Had 3 but now comes another endless night. Fuck me...this marathon is exhausting.
 
Hello everyone. Brand new here. Finally inspired to create an account and start posting once I saw the recovery section here. I am currently trying my best to recover as a poly-drug user. My main drug of choice was always cocaine, but I haven't touched the stuff in months. Am currently working on weening off kratom, which I have been physically dependent on now for 3 years. I just huffed a bunch of whippits at home alone here and feel extremely guilty about it. I am a major hypochondriac, so after a binge on any substance I always feel extremely scared and anxious. I just want to be sober so I won't have any of these feelings anymore, and can go back to being anxious about some very unlikely medical illness that I definitely do NOT have, rather than the possible damage I am doing to my body from drugs! :alien:
 
AScannerBrightly said:
Hello everyone. Brand new here. Finally inspired to create an account and start posting once I saw the recovery section here. I am currently trying my best to recover as a poly-drug user. My main drug of choice was always cocaine, but I haven't touched the stuff in months. Am currently working on weening off kratom, which I have been physically dependent on now for 3 years. I just huffed a bunch of whippits at home alone here and feel extremely guilty about it. I am a major hypochondriac, so after a binge on any substance I always feel extremely scared and anxious. I just want to be sober so I won't have any of these feelings anymore, and can go back to being anxious about some very unlikely medical illness that I definitely do NOT have, rather than the possible damage I am doing to my body from drugs! :alien:
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Good luck! The hardest part about stopping kratom/Opiates is not having any energy or motivation to keep doing what you need to do to keep life flow going. That the restlessness, anhedonia, braindead feeling and insomnia.
 
I had a rough day because my family got on my case about drinking too much beer (four 25oz. 8% alcohol Natty Daddys), so now it's 4:45am and I'm sitting here agonizing over everything.

On the bright side, I talked to my online crush and she sent me a really sweet message that made me feel a lot better. :love:
 
I have been eating flintstone gummy vitamins. Several at a time. Weak.
I need water but am desperate for caffeine. Too weak for it to be an issue though.

Stay healthy. Enjoy the new season. All. :cool:
And always stay hydrated. 🌊
 
Snafu in the Void said:
Brain damaged, organ damaged, schizophrenic, lost my insurance, rehab retroactively denied and sent me $4500 bill, car breaking down, completely broke can barely afford food, supremely depressed, my home AA meeting stopped the church kicked them out without explanation, feeling suicidal, just hate everything and feel like laying down outside and never standing up again...

But I keep trying. Will get another 1 week chip tomorrow. Trying to job search atm.

I've been religiously reading the big book in the AA app.

Also saw a cool documentary on Bill W.
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Ever consider a sober living house for 6 months to a year? I'm at one now, it was my last best chance.
Grab yourself a few 24 hours, before you know it you're counting weeks and months. Keep up with AA and big book study! I'm proud of you!

Sober ish since 12/20/22 🥰
 
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I am 6 months sober from alcohol, and in these 6 months I've been diagnosed with Bipolar which I was covering up with drugs and alcohol. In my manic state I take all the drugs I can get. I old enough to know better but bad decisions and I are like 🤞
Tried meth for the first time, I'm too old for this nonsense.
So I'm 6 months sober, but am I really? Nope🤷‍♀️
 
Thatchick said:
I am 6 months sober from alcohol, and in these 6 months I've been diagnosed with Bipolar which I was covering up with drugs and alcohol. In my manic state I take all the drugs I can get. I old enough to know better but bad decisions and I are like 🤞
Tried meth for the first time, I'm too old for this nonsense.
So I'm 6 months sober, but am I really? Nope🤷‍♀️
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Wow six months is strong ! You sound like you are doing good !
Stay on that road. Keep going and be well. :) 🌻
 
Someone got me a four pack of little redbulls. It felt so good. It's 89 out and refreshing.
Fun day.

It's nice and cool and cloudy but still waiting for some rain. And smells pretty. 🌸
 
Still free of opioids/methadone. I even got 5hrs sleep 2 days in a row. I feel I need to cut out the alcohol soon. Alcohol is a strange one with me because I have withdrawn from alcohol before but that was 20yrs ago when I went through a bad breakup and went on a 3 month bender. Since then I've drank very sporadically and even had a 10yr gap where I didn't have one drink but I started drinking when I got on methadone this time and I've been using it as a crutch. I've seen too many ex-opiod addicts go down this road.

Stay Strong people
 
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Careful, I did that to get off subs and wound up in complete physical dependency on alcohol. This has been the hardest to kick, it's so in your face. It's not like they're airing commercials for cocaine ....
 
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