THECATINTHEHAT
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That's a hell of an achievement Mr.Hat. Hats off to ya, or summat.
How the fuck have you managed all that in a year? Please tell me you're now a raging alcoholic, otherwise you must be an alien...![]()
Nah I’m totally abstinent right now. Might not be that way forever but I feel it is what is best for me right now, substances have only been taking away from MY life (this is just me maybe they are adding to other peoples but that’s not something I should be worrying about) not adding to it and I want a better life than I have now.
How have I done it? A lot of pain? I hated the person I had become and I hated what my life had become, knew I needed to lose the substances to grow as a person, and was determined to do it. My life had become a tiny, boring, suicidal place where every day was nothing but self hatred. I don’t think I went further than about a mile from my house in six months it had become such a tiny and depressing existence. In short the drugs had stopped working and I wanted out and when that happens it makes the process a lot easier.
Not my first rodeo either, I knew that the majority of the work is to be done AFTER the detox process and I was eager to start doing it.