when will i feel normal?
Hey!! Good to see you on here, I read through about 10 pages back from 2018 and was rooting for you. kinda figured you wouldn’t be on here anymore.. but I agree- MAT may benefit you. Kratom definitely could too, but like jasper said- it’s trading one for the other. 5000x safer though, is fentanyl not a huge problem there like it is here in the US?I have not been on here for a few years but did not want to start another thread . I have tried and tried to stay clean but it just a rotation of wd and binges i have a few questions for some Americans i thinking of maintanace does subs stop the urge because i can get through the detox but not the paws that go on for months. Also my family having a trucking buisness in the states i have a class a license in California i got it at 18 could only drive in california until 21 my first licence could not get normal licence at 16 got drinking at 15 with crank when i moved to UK i got a hgv licence i love trucking i know in UK if you can prove you clean and the amount not effect driving ability there is a small chance you can carry on or so i heard what are the rules in california i cant find it online i wont stop trucking dont need to i have my own buisness in UK but i cant explain the love i have for trucks or lorry in UK
Never really come across it i get it from my pal who buys bricks so i get shit that is goodHey!! Good to see you on here, I read through about 10 pages back from 2018 and was rooting for you. kinda figured you wouldn’t be on here anymore.. but I agree- MAT may benefit you. Kratom definitely could too, but like jasper said- it’s trading one for the other. 5000x safer though, is fentanyl not a huge problem there like it is here in the US?
kinda simultaneously jealous and not jealous. heroin is over for me but whenever i hear about good shit that part of my brain fires, it would be disastrous for me to have a mate like that.Never really come across it i get it from my pal who buys bricks so i get shit that is good
The pregabs are under control 5 month taper and some diazepam made it a easy wd .kinda simultaneously jealous and not jealous. heroin is over for me but whenever i hear about good shit that part of my brain fires, it would be disastrous for me to have a mate like that.
how have you been? have you managed to get a handle on the pregabs (iirc?) or whatever it was that was fucking your kidneys? really don't wanna be forced down the dialysis/transplant route, especially as with a drug problem you aren't a great candidate in drs eyes. how's the wife and kids?
fuck mate.Add the crack and im spending 1200 quid a week
It can take time my friend me and my wife took us 3 years to have our first child then after that she popped out 3 more like a good catholic she isfuck mate.
seriously, get to that rehab. phone them and go ASAP, they'll almost certainly have room in the fancy bit.
i'm good. weirdly good. everything in my life is pretty great apart from having no luck so far conceiving.
And that makes you an expert how? Those are a dime a dozen, and most treatment programs still suck in the US.
If everything was true AND actually applied to me that I was told in drug treatment, I would have died a long time ago. I also wouldn’t be able to have gotten off methadone, learned how to meditate, stayed out of jail or ever accomplish anything like getting into grad school and getting straight As my first semester.
Once someone told me in rehab that the problem was I was “too smart for my own good.” Although I understand the good intention behind being told this, that wasn’t what the words they used communicated. What they communicated was I was fucked up and broken and had to submit to their way of small minded thinking, or else never recover.
When I shared that experience on BL, a much older and wiser member replied by basically saying, “fuck that, use the brain you are blessed with to help get your shit figured out.” In other words, your mind be your alley if only allow it to be.
That was way more helpful. Really epitomizes the difference between abstience based treatment in the US and what we do here on BL. As a general rule recovery industry ideology and dogma is not very useful.
It’s sad and ironic, but still seems to be incredibly true.
fuck mate i don't have 3 years, i'm fucking 36 and my medical history is not on my side.It can take time my friend me and my wife took us 3 years to have our first child then after that she popped out 3 more like a good catholic she is
It wont take you that long i was thinking adoption then i noticed thin blood vessels on jennys boobs i just knew she was pregnantfuck mate i don't have 3 years, i'm fucking 36 and my medical history is not on my side.
though still good to know that you can have a long run of bad luck, and it just be bad luck.
ha i'll tell the boyf to keep an eye on my tits then, sure he won't be too upset with that.It wont take you that long i was thinking adoption then i noticed thin blood vessels on jennys boobs i just knew she was pregnant
Trust me, having access to pure pharmaceutical grade morphine/dope for iv doesn't make a person happy. Neither does pure cheap coke. It's a fucking curse rather than a blessing. Ughhh, I actually envy your clean life, girl.kinda simultaneously jealous and not jealous. heroin is over for me but whenever i hear about good shit that part of my brain fires, it would be disastrous for me to have a mate like that.
how have you been? have you managed to get a handle on the pregabs (iirc?) or whatever it was that was fucking your kidneys? really don't wanna be forced down the dialysis/transplant route, especially as with a drug problem you aren't a great candidate in drs eyes. how's the wife and kids?
Find out when you most fertile sounds weird do not know the medical word for it. I thought all the crank and coke made me shoot blanksha i'll tell the boyf to keep an eye on my tits then, sure he won't be too upset with that.
i don't think adoption would work for me cos of my mental health history (there's shit on my medical records continuously since the age of 6 so i doubt i can claim i've healed) and drugs arrests. i dunno how desperate they are lol.