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☮ Social ☮ PD Social Talk Thread: If 2020 Was the Dumpster, Can 2021 Be the Fire?

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I am so happy for you Charlie. Life gets appreciated after one spend some time inside. Keep up the good vibes and enjoy the job. I got a job in the family flower store and worked my ass off for two years and regain trust from everyone. That was just after spending a year inside.

Is it just me or is BL crazy with post tonight? Seems like there’s a million posts.

I hope everybody is staying well.
 
Following my extensive binges on meth + cialis I have developed haemorrhoids as well as a generally inflamed urinary tract from wielding an iron-bar cock for 4 or 5 hours at a time.

My urologist says no permanent damage or infection and when sober I barely notice any of it. However, I noticed that when high on just LSD and nothing else the pain can be quite excruciating - i’ve had to apply a warm compress a few times in the middle of the come-up.

I’m wondering if this is simply the effect of vasoconstriction or some setotonergic effect or just the acid making me hypersensitive to things that are wrong with my body. It feel like my whole genito-urinary system tightens/shrinks to the point of pain.

After an hour of warm compress and some ibuprofen I kind of forget about it and enjoy my trip.

Anybody ever have something similar or ideas about what might be happening?
 
I woke up this morning and my wrist hurts SO much. It feels like a tendon in there. It's really excruciating, to an alarming degree. I'm hoping it settles down soon. No idea at all what could have happened, except perhaps that I was building something yesterday and did a lot of one-handed holding of a heavy nail gun. Or perhaps when I took etizolam to sleep, I ended up with my wrist bent weird in my sleep.

God it's bad. :\ I was going to to go to the gym today. Instead I can barely type...
 
I'm getting this hunch that staying off drugs for a while is a good idea.

I even have them at home so i know they're not going anywhere.

I'm not doing bad but my energy levels could be higher without habitual drug use. It's only cannabis and some alcohol, but it's enough to impact me over time.

Maybe i'll make a plan to stay off weed for 3 weeks again. My alcohol use will follow suit because alcohol on its own is not so tempting.

Psychedelics appear daunting. I think my mind is too busy with drugs and too fatigued with the prospect of inebriation and the humdrum nature of daily use to duly appreciate more powerful drugs.
 
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I just had a spontaneous therapy session with my girlfriend. Her mom is reaching out to her, clearly trying to see how she feels about her moving here. She is lonely and she and my girlfriend are the closest of anyone in that family, but there is a lot of unresolved pain from the fact that her mom basically left her to her dad when she had had enough of the abuse. We talked through it and I felt like something was guiding me to say just the right things. I coaxed a lot out of her. I see a vision of her moving here and them resolving things... my girl is afraid that she will be dismissed but I think it's just a defense mechanism reaction. She wants to have a closer relationship with her mother... she does have one, but it's kind of surface level, though pleasant. Her mom was a victim of her dad, too. I feel good about how I was able to be there for her. I heard a bunch of stories she's never told me before. What I hope is that her mom does come here and they get some therapy together, or maybe they can just talk it out themselves. I think it could be huge for her. She wants her mom so bad, I can see it. She's just scared.

I really feel like my 2C-N experiences have put this all in a new light for me, and I feel filled with the desire to help. It's such a good feeling because I have been on the edge of wanting to just end it. But I really want my scared girl to be able to move past the stuff that has frozen her in time. I have hope. This is good.
 
Oh man, that's really good to hear. That could be promising. It's nice to hear that there's movement, that these conversations have been happening and that you've been able to open up and let her know. It sounds like she heard you and is trying to make some positive moves. There'll be stumbles and backslides, but so long as there is movement there's a chance for healing.
 
Xorkoth said:
We shall see. It's been a good night. We also had a raccoon come up to the door and try to come in... he was touching noses with my cat and staring into my eyes. I didn't open the door, even though he was reaching for the doorknob. It was pretty crazy actually. And so cute.
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coons be crazy sometimes, tore the rubber off my car windows trying to get at an empty chip bag, when we went on a hike , montana de oro had giant raccoons! i had this shelf in guest house, and had a water foot massager in there and it was full of baby coons! they get in thru the doggie door, and looooooove cat food, glad yah had a good night
 
Cosmic Charlie said:
Was listening to that album by Woods today and remembering this 30mg 4-OH-MiPT trip that was just incredibly euphoric and visual. Had nausea on the come-up but once I was there and got absorbed into the music it was just astounding. During the peak I posted this same song and @Dondante said how much he loved it, I miss that dude any of your hear from him lately. Haven't seen him posting in awhile.
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Hey CC! I'm still kickin'!! Check in here rarely these days, but nice to see a mention :) Miss you all, CC and Xorkoth...still think about the glory days of PD forum on BL (2005-2007?). Damn, makes me feel old to think that was 15+ years ago! 😬

I stepped back from psychedelics for a bit to focus on other things, but I still think about them often. No kids yet for me, but maybe someday 🤷‍♂️ I've had a rare trip here and there, but have been thinking of dipping my toes in again recently...

Love and light ~
 
Dondante said:
Hey CC! I'm still kickin'!! Check in here rarely these days, but nice to see a mention :) Miss you all, CC and Xorkoth...still think about the glory days of PD forum on BL (2005-2007?). Damn, makes me feel old to think that was 15+ years ago! 😬

I stepped back from psychedelics for a bit to focus on other things, but I still think about them often. No kids yet for me, but maybe someday 🤷‍♂️ I've had a rare trip here and there, but have been thinking of dipping my toes in again recently...

Love and light ~
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Dondante!! Hey man, so glad to hear from you! :) I'm so glad you're doing well.

I was just talking about the glory days of PD elsewhere in here. I miss those times, they were (quite literally) a trip. Just the phrase "love and light" is evocative for me. I love that time proves how strong of a community we built back then. But you're not joking about feeling old. These days someone is kind of an old-timer if they got here before we switched to the Xenforo software for the forum back in, what, 2017, 2018? It's rare to find someone who's been here as long as Cream Gravy (2014 I think).

PD has been through several epochs since then. But that one was something special.

I never got out of it or Bluelight, except for a few years when my ex wife made me choose between her or BL (maybe you remember that, I can't remember when you stepped away), I trip periodically, sometimes more than other times. Lately not as much, except I did just get to try 2C-N twice in the last few weeks.
 
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