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Mental Health Coming Off Invega Sustenna (Paliperidone) v4

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At first I thought being on 3 years of Invega at 117mg was very bad, but I still have really smart brain function..and have become a bio-robot..
 
Dre87 said:
At first I thought being on 3 years of Invega at 117mg was very bad, but I still have really smart brain function..and have become a bio-robot..
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They fu*ked you up badly. I'm sorry. But you might recover. I know one guy who had 5 years of shots and recovered in year.
 
The weirdest thing about this shit is that everything I feel is in the body. I can’t feel anything in my head. Idk how to explain that but I’m sure a lot of you feel that way
 
Hopton09 said:
The weirdest thing about this shit is that everything I feel is in the body. I can’t feel anything in my head. Idk how to explain that but I’m sure a lot of you feel that way
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The first time I got injected with invega in 2015 I felt like my brain was being turned off, no thoughts nothing…and I felt like I was slowly dying.
 
I’m absolutely ready to die at any moment. I don’t want to live without a brain. This is literally a pointless existence. I try to hold out hope that it’ll go back but after 4 months it’s gotten nothing but worse. I can just feel that it’s permanent damage. Idk how to say it but I can literally feel that something is horribly wrong and that it cannot just go back to normal.
 
It’s not acceptable at all. This is fucking inhumane shit and the people that allow this shot to be given all deserve to rot in hell. Regardless of whether they know what it does. They should fucking know. There’s no excuse. There’s no excuse for someone going to a hospital and receiving 1 fucking shot and having their brain absolutely destroyed for the entire life just like that. It’s a literal fucking disgrace
 
Hopton09 said:
I’m absolutely ready to die at any moment. I don’t want to live without a brain. This is literally a pointless existence. I try to hold out hope that it’ll go back but after 4 months it’s gotten nothing but worse. I can just feel that it’s permanent damage. Idk how to say it but I can literally feel that something is horribly wrong and that it cannot just go back to normal.
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Go to your docter and take some lorazepam get some sleep. Most people take around 8 months to recover
 
I just messaged the OP of this thread, he was last seen online 25 minutes ago so let’s see if he’s recovered…
 
Personally I won’t be here to find out after 5 years. Not a chance I won’t kill myself by then
 
apsucks said:
Lotsa shots how much mg was it? ...did you recover?
You have the exact same story as me btw.
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100mg each time. I am recovering. My concentration is better and my mind is much more active. I'm thinking of writing a blog about my experiences. I've kept diaries and I think it would make a good story. Some of my delusions were pretty funny (and embarassing). I laugh a lot more these days. I laugh when I remember things. I laugh when I tell my friends - I've only recently told them some of the most embarassing things that I thought and did.
I was a very good writer before the shots, but I found that I couldn't write well when I was on the injection. My short term memory wasn't as good and I didn't have the imagination for it either. My writing is better now, but I wouldn't say I'm fully recovered yet. I'm still not as creative. Yesterday, I wrote 4000 words.
Although I had the concentration for reading when I was on the shots, I didn't have the motivation for it, but now I'm reading novels when I go for walks again (I read as I walk with my kindle in my hand). Also, when I was on the shots, I would sometimes just play snake on my phone all day (depressing days!!!), but I'm reading more and thinking about things more now. It's easier to clean my house and I listen to music every day. I'm also feeling much more motivated to get my life together and I've joined dating apps too. I wasn't at all motivated to do this when I was on the shots.
I've struggled a lot with insomnia over the past month, which I know is withdrawals, but I slept for 7 and a half hours last night, which was good. I still don't have the motivation for running, but I'm going to try to force myself tomorrow. I want to lose the 15 pounds that I gained on Invega (I actually gained 20, but the first 5 have already gone).
I think I will recover my imagination and motivation in full, but it may take a few more months.
I think your ability to feel dopamine and seretonin returns in full when the drug is out of your system, but I also think that the drug can damage your brain in other ways. However, I also know that the brain is self healing. I focus on the recovery stories. I suggest you do too.
I consider myself lucky to be off the injection now. I feel so sad for the people who are still on it and will be put on it again in the future, especially now they have the 6 monthly injections. It's nightmarish. I hope my writing will help to raise awareness of mental illness, psychosis, the realities of antipsychotics and alternatives to medication.
 
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I’ve heard that invega gets stored in fat cells, which would make sense why it takes so long for people to heal.

This would mean that exercise should speed things up.

Anybody on invega able to do exercise? Or does invega make it impossible to exercise?
 
I did recover, albeit with prolactin issues which I know affected me in all ways bad.
But I was able to get high on H, and k2, slightly on Hash, and meth would wake me up and give me energy.
 
That’s what’s horrible about this whole fucking thing. You can’t escape at all. You can’t get fucking high so there’s no escape or anywhere to go to get away from it. It absolutely is a fucking human disgrace that this can happen. It’s completely destroyed any joy I had in life and I am miserable every second of every single day. This is beyond fucked up. They fucking get away with this shit too. It’s honestly a shitty world. Nothing makes any sense. It’s all random bullshit and I just want the fuck out already. Of course suicide isn’t acceptable why the fuck would it be. You must suffer through this every day while you watch other actual real humans function. Fuck this bullshit
 
Hopton09, if you search through the thread, you'll find lots of recovery stories. It's not false hope if people really are recovering, it's fact. I genuinely feel a lot better than I did when I was on the shot and it's only been three and a half months. It may take up to a year to recover in full, however.

How long have you been on/off the shot?
 
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Hopton09, if you search through the thread, you'll find lots of recovery stories. It's not false hope if people really are recovering, it's fact. I genuinely feel a lot better than I did when I was on the shot and it's only been three and a half months. It may take up to a year to recover in full, however.

How long have you been on/off the shot?
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I also feel better than when I was on shot.
 
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