Yeah I am in the Catskill mountain range in NY. I can see green mountains out my windows. I never knew how important that was to me until I lived in Houston TX for 4 years. Houston is so flat if you stand on a milk crate you can see the whole city. The sky is BIG in Texas. It is half of your landscape. But here I can barely see the blue sky poke through trees.
Interesting further.
I was wanting to comment onnyour post yest..day before? Amnesia and time dilation lol, day seems a week and vice versa oddly.
But not prop functional yet.
On your poppy seed "false" is in your eyes, THEN ofc, And how you used that confidence which you possibly felt a little guilty about back then to basically be confident and relaxed and assured enough in expressing your own personality all the same and regardless to meet your wife who you seem to be by all accounts again Another real pleasure to me because I have this really positive picture of you both being so excepting and loving and supporting of each other and really quite compatible it sounds all feels to this today, seemingly entirely compatible.
But Then I read your second paragraph there and he basically said what I would have done myself you simply used a tool but this was just not enough to even dampen or distort your true personality and heart, Just a crutch at the time which possibly in the long run did absolutely no harm because it's where you are and how you feel now in life which counts always and forever right?
So that is even more positive imagery because this happens to me whenever I learn something about somebody I already have an interest in knowing more of I instantly get these really vivid imaginary pictures of the scenery and surroundings et cetera.
But, separately
@JackARoe , mate on that suff we connected just birefly really, which I felt sure you would be right up on, in relation to how you put your angle of it and feeling disencentivised, mate, I know what you mean.
But I would so so love to be able to sit chill and talk bout this and some other differnt, same phenomena experiences I've also had, remarkable beyond belief, but the type of stuff, purely healthy, by simplle pure thought projection for only positive gains, never to control or harm another, and how this is right there for us.
It's not the same discouraging at all, more insliring and exiting bit so healthy.
I hooe to skim though this at a point just not up to it energy wise yet.
That 13 day backer is still going to need time, rest, inevitable time-healing, and the requited develooment process too.
Sometimes I feel that when we are feeling particularly out of sorts and outside our comfort zone this is actually the uncomfortable part of the mental development process which is usually a gift once we have excepted and worked through this.
(hell even a milligram of etiz lol)
