I finished my first gram of ket this morning and have one more since I got a freebie from the vendor. I’m still figuring out if i like it. It’s quite different to my normal and principal use of stimulants which is usually just to make me feel more like me and to have sense of mental completeness. I see acid as kind of mental purification as well and see whatever comes back from the trip as a slightly more pure or refined version of my better self.
The ket doesn’t do any of that stuff. It just fucks me up in a really interesting and comfortable way. And apart from the first go where I IM’d myself into a serious K-hole, I’ve had the nicest effects on the downside of meth binges and acid trip where a 50-80 mg snort lifts me up to a new kind of chilled peak again. I haven’t really done it by itself since that first time IM. And that was wickedly intense and a bit nauseating.
Famous last words maybe, but I don’t find it all compulsive and don’t feel any temptation to test my limits with (unlike with meth and acid where I always want to be at a redline dose). All in all it seems useful and benign. Like I was sketched out at 4 AM this morning thanks to too much meth the night before and excitement about going tripping today but I didn’t want to take any seroquel or valium that might effect my trip. So I had a snort of about 70 mg ket and just lay comfortably in the semi darkness having all kinds of closed eye visuals while relaxing into the pillows for an hour and then gently resting.
You know it’s just hit me now, how Fear and Loathing really missed ketamine out.
It feels strange to me when it’s claimed Ketamine isn’t psychedelic. I’d say it’s profoundly hallucinogenic, I know it’s a dissociative.
I’ve heard reports of the destabilising, depersonalising effect of certain dissociatives, like PCP and 3-MEO.
I feel ketamine alone can be way way safer and more sustainable in a take or leave fashion and user friendly.
It can be abused because it simply can, only finance and potential bladder trouble down the line are real deterrents,
It’s much easier to use ketamine regularly and go about a healthy, balanced social life, keep head sprightly, and be satisfied and easy, than something like crack or other addictive hard drugs.
Brilliant with mushrooms and MDMA too, it’s again a unique combine effect.
Ketamine does lend itself to abuse. But it can easily be limited, controlled, and is quite quenching too.
And it played that role for you to achieve mental rest and comfort without the meds you didn’t want to take.
One feature we loved about ketamine though, with big lines and K holes, we would feel very much like 5 year old children, in the free, innocent, purely light and merry sense.
“Dolly steps” they used to call it. Like tiny little footsteps, very peculiar outwardly but unhelpable.
There is to me still something emotionally cleansing about ketamine.
