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☮ Social ☮ PD Social Talk Thread: If 2020 Was the Dumpster, Can 2021 Be the Fire?

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Man I feel like I'm slowly losing it, yesterday night I drank a couple beers with some friends, instant hypomania after until the early morning, then intense anxiety hit me for hours it was crazy, I couldn't sleep because of the energy but it was horrible, then I had an appointment with my psychiatrist where I was a mess again, fluctuating between everything, could hardly speak. Getting home was even worse, I cried for an hour straight because of intense depressed feelings. Somewhat later it was over and there was nothing, just extreme emptiness, I just laid down doing nothing, 100% emotionless.
And now I feel pretty good, lol. Every day is a variation on this, but mostly less extreme. Apparently Lithium isn't an option, my psychiatrist prescribed me Zyprexa, but I'm gonna get real fat on that drug and not feel a thing, I already know it.
I'm really fucked, there's no good way out.
 
What about another mood stabilizer? Lamictal is supposed to be quite effective and also doesn't even prevent you from tripping or feeling emotions.

Just got back from my friend's house, we had a gathering and dinner, and hung out with his kid, who is about 3. He's so awesome, we had a dance party and wrestled and played. I'm "Uncle Xorkoth" (except I don't go by Xorkoth in real life, lol).

I was hitting my vape earlier and coughed real bad when I had a harsh hit, and ever since my throat is scratchy. And I feel the feeling behind my eyes that tends to tell me I'm about to get sick. Really hope I don't get sick, it would just fucking figure if the first time I play a show in post-pandemic style, I catch a cold or something, lol. I already had COVID and am vaccinated so it really couldn't be that, at least.
 
Xorkoth said:
What about another mood stabilizer? Lamictal is supposed to be quite effective and also doesn't even prevent you from tripping or feeling emotions.
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Ah yeah, I didn't ask. I was so out of it yesterday I totally forgot, really gotta start writing stuff down.

The reason for Lithium is that apparently there is quite a bit of evidence that if people that cycle rapidly come off Lithium cycle even harder, which would be a total nightmare. If it were an option I would go for it, from what I've read it has by far the most stabilizing effects. But okay, I take it week by week, I have no idea what my life is gonna be like in x amount of years so no reason to be too dramatic.
 
So I gave away over a pound of kratom today, and had an online consultation with a doctor that actually took my insurance, and got prescribed 1 month of 900mg gabapentin per day and 0.3mg of clonidine per day, to finally get off this shit for good. It's time. I have 3mg of suboxone left, I took 2mg yesterday, will take 2mg tomorrow, and 1mg 3 days after that. Will then use gabapentin in low doses as needed, and clonidine, to get past the residual withdrawal and any PAWS that manifests. And start working out again. The comfort meds I got prescribed are such a relief, they even called it in to the nearest pharmacy so I got to get them there, and my insurance covered the cost (except for copay which is normal). Most of these online consult places make you use their own pharmacy and don't take insurance.
 
Will in better times I'll be meeting our dear departed Captain sooner then we thought. Didn't think I was gonna be the next shrine thread. But not anything is our hands sometimes...
 
Cosmic Charlie said:
Will in better times I'll be meeting our dear departed Captain sooner then we thought. Didn't think I was gonna be the next shrine thread. But not anything is our hands sometimes...
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Hey man, stay strong. Having an arrhythmia is not a death sentence, with routine medical checks, small life styles changes, medication and a healthy diet you can actually live a normal life, I know a man in his seventies who has been living with an arrhythmia almost half his life.
 
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So cali just legalized the possession of all psychedelics including LSD
www.marijuanamoment.net

California Senate Approves Bill To Legalize Possession Of Psychedelics Like Psilocybin And LSD

A bill to legalize possession of psychedelics in California was approved by the California Senate on Tuesday. The legislation, sponsored by Sen. Scott Wiener (D), which previously cleared three committees, passed 21-16 on the floor. If enacted into law, the bill would remove criminal penalties...
www.marijuanamoment.net www.marijuanamoment.net
 
Sorry to hear that @Cosmic Charlie man I'm sure it's scary for sure. I don't really know anything about what an arrhythmia is but my sister's cat has one and he's a fearless beast, kinda like you I guess lol haha. Had a weird moment when I realised I was calling you a beast mano a mano but then I realised it's probably the drugs talking because that's a compliment right? I'm not one to give advice nope that's a total fucking lie I'm just about to haha but I'm sure maybe a lil healthy living would heal you right up, maybe lay off stims for a bit, I say that having stayed up all night again having maybe some a half gram of speed and actually some morphine I got on a whim, so that does suck I know, oh man I don't mean to make light of your situation I really hope it isn't anything serious. I actually have a leaky mitral valve which is apparently quite a common asymptomatic heart defect which I thought might explain why my friend can do cocaine all through the night and into the next day and at some point I'll suddenly start feeling bad in the heart... But anyway yeah man wishing you much love I hope it's not as serious as it sounded like you thought it was. And holy fucking Christ - @TripSitterNZ - post just popped up as I was typing and I woulda got derailed immediately if it wasn't for all this fucking speed I'm on. Fuck. Ok wait.

Damn I just tried to insert a GIF of a man taking a deep breath. I'll settle for a line break.

Oh yeah LSD and psychs legal in Cali, fuck yes.

I said a while back that sertraline basically blocks the effects of 3-HO-PCP but actually I don't think that's true. Definitely something is going on. It's so weird though like it's almost synergistic and heavily suppressive at the same time. Anyway fuck gotta get back to writing out maybe at least another 10 pages of this systems security document I said I'd get done by tomorrow.

Oh yeah and for the record I'm just tapering down from sertraline now, on 50mg every day or maybe every other, don't wanna risk that discontinuation withdrawal even though I got so little out of em I reckon maybe I could just just jump cold turkey. Had some interactions for sure but what a shit drug that is, no effects except bowel garglings now and then, something like NMDA rebound from ketamine sometimes, ok well I guess that's not nothing but it's a hard sell. Good to try new things in life though.
 
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Had some lsd yesterday, was surprised how little it helped with my fatigue, tho it was a low dose of a tab I hear is ancient. Nice clear headed day. Fuck yeah California.
 
Cool, you are even allowed to share it. Maybe we can do the free iboga retreat in cali :D they didn't decriminalize 2cb? :(
 
Cosmic Charlie said:
Will in better times I'll be meeting our dear departed Captain sooner then we thought. Didn't think I was gonna be the next shrine thread. But not anything is our hands sometimes...
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This doesn't mean you're going to die, you just need to chill a little bit and avoid stimulants. As others have said, you can live with an arrhythmia your whole life. ♥️
 
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Thanks man. Atm i am on my 3rd day sober trying to get back to some baseline and finish all this work i have. Atm i have written 3200 words nearly finished half of this report then i will get onto my other ones. In total i think ill probably have about 12k + words to write over the next two weeks.
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I know from youth, when my young head was also utterly wrecked from substances and I was such a major pot junkie, like my looking glass had to be through big edible doses and bucket bongs no matter what the situation, the head wrack of study pressure.


Haha I recall, my first Uni Year, Exam period May or June 2000. Wow, some of the weed on that student village!

The Welsh hash was already unbelievable but then 2 types of Skunk- REAL skunk.

First one, I lived with 7 housemates. 5 non cannabis using females.

I was in my bedroom, rolling my first huge pure blunt of this sensational Orange Bud.

Michelle rushed down from upstairs, in both excitement and wonder. She’d never smelt anything quite like that and she was convinced that I was smoking skunk indoors.

“Oh my god...” she said, smiling in amazement at my door. She was astounded how captivating the odor of this Orange Bud was around the entire upstairs from down.

I smoked this stuff, gram joints before each exam that year, as I told you about a bit.


Then even stronger skunk, like pure orange.

Between that- the most incredible Purple Haze I’ve seen. Pure ultra sticky, dark, smelly.

This stuff was A TRIIIP! I smoked one bucket bong one evening, en route, bussing, as an “extra-curricular activity” lol.

At a children’s evening youth club.

Oh man, that one hit of Purple Haze had me in another trance world all evening.

Consciousness altered. BUZZING!

Not seen weed like that often.

But @TripSitterNZ it’s a pain for you right now, like weight training, but see it how it also is- really stretching and sharpening your brain functioning in ways, language flow, flexibility.

Just good exercise for your brain anyway, regardless of all else. I hope you find some peace man the other side of your studies, and reflect with gladness.
 
I was tripping at a festival one time on 2C-E, and a girl, hot, topless, walks up to me with a platter of BBQ wieners and asks "You want a dawwwg?" It was such a weird moment as I don't like or eat meat at all .. almost said yes just because she was a hot topless girl, but no it's a bbq wiener that's like the last thing I want in my mouth especially while tripping, but yes, but no... it's funny how some of those tripping moments get blazed into your memory.
 
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I was tripping at a festival one time on 2C-E, and a girl, hot, topless, walks up to me with a platter of BBQ wieners and asks "You want a dawwwg?" It was such a weird moment as I don't like or eat meat at all .. almost said yes just because she was a hot topless girl, but no it's a bbq wiener that's like the last thing I want in my mouth especially while tripping, but yes, but no... it's funny how some of those tripping moments get blazed into your memory.
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I remember my gf starting the nude muddy dancing pile :O
 
by 2024 California will hear recommendations on a regulated system for the sale of psychedelics to people. lets bring in this new world wide movement. Cant wait till people can get these sacraments legally everywhere. Usher in a new dawn!
 
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