Xorkoth
Bluelight Crew
God damn that's insane. I can't imagine spending that much on cigarettes/nicotine. I don't think I ever would have let myself use it as much as I did if it cost that much, it's just not worth it. I'd rather spend hundreds of dollars a month on something that makes me feel good.
Nicotine is a creepy drug, I still maintain. I mean I guess my good friend says it makes him feel amazing, but personally I have never liked the nicotine buzz. Which makes it all the more puzzling that I have spent years using it every day, even hiding it from my partners. It creeps me out.
I have to say, in a totally unrelated subject, my girlfriend really seems like she's feeling better than she has in a long time. She's been uniformly chipper other than that one time she got really angry, ever since we had our really intense talk when I was on MXiPr. It feels different being around her. That conversation is all pretty dreamlike to me now but I I addressed all of the stuff I have been hesitant to say. We confronted the most recent trauma of my cat dying when she was watching her and I think I got through to her. I don't know, things feel different, in a good way. I hope it lasts.
I'm really glad that I happened to take MXiPr at that moment, and that it was magical that time. I don't think I would have been able to say a lot of that stuff otherwise, and it obviously needed to be said.
Nicotine is a creepy drug, I still maintain. I mean I guess my good friend says it makes him feel amazing, but personally I have never liked the nicotine buzz. Which makes it all the more puzzling that I have spent years using it every day, even hiding it from my partners. It creeps me out.
I have to say, in a totally unrelated subject, my girlfriend really seems like she's feeling better than she has in a long time. She's been uniformly chipper other than that one time she got really angry, ever since we had our really intense talk when I was on MXiPr. It feels different being around her. That conversation is all pretty dreamlike to me now but I I addressed all of the stuff I have been hesitant to say. We confronted the most recent trauma of my cat dying when she was watching her and I think I got through to her. I don't know, things feel different, in a good way. I hope it lasts.
