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☮ Social ☮ PD Social Distancing Talk Thread: Swirly Congregation That's 100% Pandemic-Proof

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Reminds me of this time I did some spring cleaning and found all this stuff I forgot I had like blister packs of Japanese benzos, books that I was actually going to go out and buy and:
Kaden_Nite said:
... also found the remainder of my mescaline from splendour, around 150mg, and a small tin containing 1.5g of dry panaeolus mushrooms I collected over the summer. Not really enough of either for anything too mind-bending
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I misjudged that last part. I was sitting at my mum's place, chatting away, when all the stuff on the coffee table started to levitate and dance round in circles. I laughed for like ten minutes straight.

There was something really 'Disney' about it all. I think I'd just watched this 1940s Mickey Mouse in wonderland cartoon which kind of set a tone for those hallucinations.

I get that. Whatever I'm looking at or thinking about when the psychedelics kick in, seems to set a theme for the trip.
 
Hey everyone,

hope you are okay - long time no see :) an update:

I've been super busy working on my mushroom business. Still building facilities but I'm learning a lot 😅
The actual growing tent in art academy is basically finished and ready for safety inspections. Home lab is also pimped out and running. But i still have to finish a big steamer barrel in a basement at home and bagging area.

Hosting my own Discord server and managing another extra one. Basically using mainly shroomery didn't cut it for me. So thats where i hang.

Started microdosing shrooms not that long ago and tripled that microdose yesterday cause i feel like i really need to get out of a rut, drinking too much and just passive depressed.
Feeling loads better today, bit restored. Need to get past that fear and anxiety and use psychedelics therapeutically a lot more often! :D

And yeah mescaline is the boss for teachings, wow!! And incredibly sensitive going about it. I hope to get more some day. Other than that ETH-LAD is my go-to mostly.

Sorry i kinda dropped off the radar. Drowned in my business and hobbies, growing weird cacti and doing plant tissue culture with them and collecting fungi species like i used to collect psychedelics lmao.

Guess it was also needed to focus less on drugs, you know? I find that really hard when there is a lot of focus, no offense ofc. But I miss you guys.

Have you seen Foreigner in here? He is very sick (again), breaks my heart. Hope he pulls through, sweetest guy.
 
You messed up your perfect palindrome postcount a day after palindrome day, coincidence?
 
Haha we write dates differently here - its in 17 days because we switch month and day xD .... so i better get posting to line up again, oops!

Will try to remember to hang out a little when i get to tripping again, chill on the tail end.

P.S. great job on the new (maybe not so new anymore) forum software!
 
Hey Soli! Nice to see you post. Sounds like you've got a lot of good stuff going on. I miss you here but absence from Bluelight because of a busy real life is the best reason there is. :)

Did you speak with Foreigner recently? Last I heard (not long ago) he was recovering from being near death and is improving.
 
Really struggling right now with depression but I'm trying to put my best foot forward and not give up the fight. Have been thinking about buying Heroin for the last couple days but I'm not gonna relapse. Had gotten some bad news from that Job and they said I dont have enough experience butchering meat and smoking it so they will have to let me go for somebody else. Wanna escape this so badly and if it wasn't for my closet friends "you know who you are" on here and their support I would have gotten high already.

Just left an Interview now for this Deli/Pizza place which went well and I have two more interviews lined up the next couple days so I should have some options to choose from what suits me better. Should have took the job at the last Deli instead of the BBQ place my girl made me choose. She said that it would look better for her family but see what ended up happening. I'd worked in Deli's my first 8 years in food service and it's what I know best. The guy today said to call him Friday and let him know what I wanna do. He knows I have a family and I said I'm a very hard worker and learn fast, seriously hope I can find something this week.

Traveling on Saturday and Sunday so hopefully on Monday I will be starting at a new place. I have to be positive and would really appreciate those types of Vibes and not like to hear any kind of negative things. I'm trying really hard to keep it togther right now and need all the help I can get from you PD fam. You guys are the best and I'm glad I wil L always have somewhere to come and vent about my life, it makes me feel alot better :)
 
One thing I really admire about you is how quickly you bounce back emotionally from disappointment. You'll be fine, hopefully your girl will see that it's more important that you do something that works for you, than you do something that looks good in her or her family's opinion. You gotta do you. :)
 
Xorkoth said:
One thing I really admire about you is how quickly you bounce back emotionally from disappointment. You'll be fine, hopefully your girl will see that it's more important that you do something that works for you, than you do something that looks good in her or her family's opinion. You gotta do you. :)
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Seriously. When I get hit with bad news it takes me days/weeks/months to bounce back. I've been a shut in since July now and rely upon my wife to support me. I'm just now thinking about looking for some work and I'm realizing that my resume is like... the shittiest resume ever. It has my BA in history and like, seven different 3-10 month long retail jobs. I can't use my experience with the military since I was discharged after an injury but right before I had finished training (talk about a waste of a year of my life...).

I'm honestly not sure what I'll do. If I get another retail job I'm bound to be fired because I always tell people they're stupid if they're stupid, and being that your average retail manager IS stupid I get fired often, because I don't put up with my intellectual inferiors bossing me around. Only service job I enjoyed was at a pizza place because my boss was similar to me mentally and would curse out customers and back me up 100%. I miss that guy...
 
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I always tell people they're stupid if they're stupid
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Sometimes, not doing that is the hardest job of all. I actually never minded working in the retail industry, like behind the scenes though. Being on the floor, dealing with customers actually takes a great deal of tolerance IMO.

Imean, 99 percent are fine - but the argumentative customers who swap price labels, or try to return broken items with no receipt that they purchased from a different store, six years earlier.. Respect to anyone who can keep their cool under those conditions because I couldn't :LOL:
 
Kaden_Nite said:
I actually never minded working in the retail industry, like behind the scenes though. Being on the floor, dealing with customers actually takes a great deal of tolerance IMO.
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Oh yeah, menial labor isn't so bad, my favorite retail job was at a lumber yard because most of what I did was moving products around or loading them into trucks with a forklift. But as soon as some angry mofo came at me I'd tell them off and walk away. Third time that happened I rage quit before they could fire me lol. If someone gets pissy with me when I'm not in the wrong I'm liable to act in the same manner they are. It's like I don't have a filter on my mouth.

You could call me impulsive, entitled, what have you, but the fact of the matter is what others see as entitlement or irritability, I see as my being a man and not taking shit. Funny enough, in the military, I had no trouble taking orders from my leaders. Throw me back into retail where leadership is about surviving the workplace for enough years till they promote some random sap, and yeah, I won't respect authority. I respect authority that has reasoning and thought behind it. I disrespect the authority of the unintelligent. Hence why I tell people off.

I sometimes think I actually quite like authority and am myself an authoritarian, I simply have to respect the authority's source. To me a leader has to prove the morality and reasoning behind their position, and if it's sound, I'm good. No retail manager is like that though, they're all dumb as a box of rocks.
 
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I've never had trouble taking shit from people if the end result is more positive for me. I'll talk vent behind their backs to my friends, but if it means a better life or work environment for me, it's easy to just ignore it. It's their problem, not mine. And likely they do it because they're miserable. If I react like they want me to, they win.
 
Xorkoth said:
I've never had trouble taking shit from people if the end result is more positive for me. I'll talk vent behind their backs to my friends, but if it means a better life or work environment for me, it's easy to just ignore it. It's their problem, not mine. And likely they do it because they're miserable. If I react like they want me to, they win.
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I guess my frontal lobe is damaged or something. I'm so blunt. Those who are my friends find it endearing, those who aren't find it rude. I'm simply incapable of handling angry feelings without some sort of physical or verbal outburst.

Like you saying you talk about people that piss you off when they're not around, to me that's a feminine trait. Say things to my face, be a man. Not commenting on you Xorky, I rather envy those that can simply internalize anger. I just can't. I'm like a young version of Red Forman from That 70s Show. The words 'dumbass' and 'something something something my foot up your ass' generally leap to my mind when interacting with the average stranger.
 
Haha, I don't mean to criticize, I just feel differently. I just don't like conflict, is a big part of it, which has caused me problems in my life on one hand, but it's one area in which I think my fear of conflict has actually helped me be more successful and less troubled.
 
Yes I try and be humble at all times especially at work when a Boss is criticizing me for some reason. And when people get nasty to me I just stay quite because feeding into it will only escalate the situation and make things worse. I've had some seriously nasty people come at me when I worked at Deli's in the hood years ago. People actually get more mad when you dont go back in forth with them. Just say "im sorry that you feel that way and I'll do whatever I can to help, it will be okay" killing people with kindness is the best option when it comes to customer service.
 
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