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Mental Health Mental Illness Support Thread V. How do you feel?

Crowsonator2008 said:
Bad...I dont think I'll ever get over my Social Anxiety and this going to kill me...
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Have you tried meds? Benzodiazepines SAVED MY LIFE from crippling anxiety and panic attacks. People can rag on barbiturates all they want but Phenobarbital is the best anxiety med I ever took. No side-effects like with benzo's, it's once-a-day and I never felt that compulsion to take more like with a benzo. CBD oil is pretty good if you don't want anything pharmaceutical, but not for severe anxiety.
If you want something light, Chlordiazapoxide (Librium) is a good one.
Even SSRI/SNRI's are pretty decent.
Chlorpromazine is non-addictive and 50mg is as effective as 10mg diazepam (that's been proven in studies; not just a personal opinion) but I'd advise against unnecessary. anti-psychotics.
If you're open to RC's, Pyrazolam is a benzo that is extremely functional.
 
schizopath said:
Gonna go to the hospital tomorrow. I cant deal with my mental problems (mania etc) anymore without any medication.
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@madness00 is right. Admitting you need help is a sign of strength, not weakness.
Let us know how it goes! I wish you the best. If I hadn't gotten on meds I would 100% be dead now. I had the literal opposite to you (Psychotic Depression) but they put me on Sertraline (Zoloft), Haldol and Lorazepam (Ativan) and it changed my life.
 
Lucy20 said:
He has appolgized profusely but i still haven't seen him, im at the hospital still and im still pretty disgusted how he acted. I will deal with him after but it will be hard because how could I trust him now? I don't think he can fix what he's done. I don't even think of him the same. Withdrawal and being drunk is no excuse and no apology can take away the extra pain he caused
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Gurl, kick his ass to the curb. You're way too good for that shit.
Hope all is well at the hospital! Why are you there (if you don't mind me asking).
 
I get you @Amos2019 and @madness00 I have comitted a handful of felonies and endless misdemeanors through substance abuse/mental illness. The police have even told me anyone else would have been to prison multiple times but because I'm so small and come across as very vulnerable I tend to get away with things (including aggravated assault - he hit my dad! He deserved it! - and Possesion of a Class B Drug (what you guys call Schedule 2) with Intent to Distribute - I DID NOT intend to distribute, but I had three ounces of amphetamine and they didn't believe it was all for me).
This officer even admitted to me "If you were this 6 foot 250lb bloke you would be doing 3-5 years" o_0. It probably helps that I'm white and from a "nice family/neighborhood" (fucked up, but true).
 
man my head is full of all kinda shit. SO fixin to undergo back surgery (i cried at the drs office a little just discussing this), gotta get "clean" = very little recreation (only way i can save $), gotta quit smoking cigs as the SO has to before the 10 of next month or no surgery(need to quit myself and it will help her), gotta work more and budget better to take care of shit I shoulda decades ago, ooohhhhhh the list goes on and fucking on. it all spins around in my head til i make progress on something and then the next objective. fucking concrete jungle is right. just wanna run off in the woods right now and never come back.................................
im getting older and it hurts to see a loved one go through aches/pains/aging/fucking dying eventually.... looooosssssss. ha
need more drugs to distance myself but from experience this only delays the inevitable. i hate that i have to rearrange and take on more responsibility but fuck the alternative. i do have guilt and if i didnt make SOs life as bearable as possible before she leaves (dies) i would turn super-nova and damn the consequences... i aint scared.
just a cry in the dark.
it aint gonna be easy and i hate that too.
nobody to talk to so there ya'll have it.
no need for responses, thanks.
putting this down helps focus a bit so there
 
Is the back surgery 'elective' or mandatory. Its just that any kind of back surgery is very complicated and can take years of healing from that surgery procedure. Anyone I have ever known, many people that have had back surgery end up walking with a cane, can't walk upstairs, and end up with physical limitations. Also, it seems with the back repair surgery they end up having more pain after the surgery than before the original pain. surgery is big money to the surgeon.

I am sorry if I am scaring the fuck out of you but i know it IS a hysterical terrifying situation to go through.

My cousin's sister was told by a doctor hurry hurrry you need surgery NOW or you will never walk again. My cousin cried and we begged her to wait and make sure she should do this and tried to make her decide against the surgery.

But she was told if she didn't have the surgery she wouldn't be able to get her disability benefits. So she did it NOW she walks with a cane and has terrrible terrible pain. We both didn't understand and didn't want her younger sister to suffer because my cousin tried to look out for all of her younger siblings because she is the oldest and her mom my aunt died. We tried to look out for her and she is really doing terrible.
We don't know every thing ? and i am sincerely so very sorry but why is her little sister still suffering from pain AFTER surgery that was supposed to help.
Prayers that everything works out for you.

But yes, what an aful thing to have to begin to have to start dealing with. I don't want to sound all negative and all but how are you going to stay strong. Its a tough one. It hurts alot specially for my cousin watching her baby sister go through such a horrible issue that happens with the back and vertebrae.
 
Hylight said:
Is the back surgery 'elective' or mandatory.
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This is the only option so doc says. No shots will work. No physical therapy will suffice. I do not totally get it, though....
She has severe spinal stenosis @ L4/L5 and she wants the surgery. The doc said if she woulda had the damage all at once instead of over time she would be paralyzed and not able to control bladder or bowels. She already needs a cane to move more than 30 feet.
I know a lot of people who have went through spinal surgery and it never seems to be a valid option as they end up worse than when they started mostly. MFs wanted to operate on my spine and I told em to fuck themselves. 27 years later still in pain every day but push through and make it to the next days/months/years/decades. Pain is a big part of my life and I have somehow gotten inured to it.
I asked the doc if it was too late in the game for her surgery (she will be 70 come january) and he says not at all... she will regain mobility and be mostly pain free... which is BS IMO.
Hey, Hylight... I appreciate the response and info greatly. Didn't know there was a response until just now so sorry I didn't reply.
Everything just seems so fucking petty to me ATM as this doom-cloud rolls overhead blocking any sunshine.
I just gotta buck-up and blast these damned targets to confetti.
Move ahead....
Much love to all ya'll.
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?????? oh gawd thanx.
this is so frightening for sure,
surgery is permanent. do not touch my spine EVER. i feel so awful for you and her !!
Surgery can't be reversed unless they have to do it twice. This is a very serious situation for you.
yes, pray and stay, strong. ♡♡♡
 
Hylight said:
?????? oh gawd thanx.
this is so frightening for sure,
surgery is permanent. do not touch my spine EVER. i feel so awful for you and her !!
Surgery can't be reversed unless they have to do it twice. This is a very serious situation for you.
yes, pray and stay, strong. ♡♡♡
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"This type of surgery almost always goes as planned"
It fucking didnt
"We told you there was a chance it wouldnt"

Doctors....
 
Does anyone know ! ? If xanax can be takenfoe a headache ?
I have had a borderline of a cluster headache for about a day and a half Now !
I only take .05 mg of a xanax at a time but am trying NOT to take them whenever possible.
The last time i took a .05 mg was early last evening.
My head is splitting and it hurts bad ! Then it will make me nauseas. I dont know if the xanax will make things worse. my head hurts so badI can't even smoke bud or dabs, it makes my head hurt worse. ☹ Am I having a stroke ????
 
^^ Okay, would it be harmful FOR a headache ?


edit: i will try some more food or redbull or tea and sugar then too.
oww oh the hurt !

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