Steady Scootin
Bluelight Crew
I guess I shouldn't complain so much, but I really wanted to scoot around outside today, but nay... boner kill. Oh well, still have the fav substances at least 

Smokin bong, dabbing on a significant amount of 2cd. Love dabbing. Got an eighth of shatter recently, for the first time in ages and it is a nice haze. Still craved a bong rip when I got nauseated from the 2c-d a bit. It hasn't been the easiest night.
I still feel like shit over 2 weeks after I quit. Not sure why that is. The past several times, I have been good after 10 - 14 days I'd be at least be able to half-enjoy life by now but I still don't sense my spirit this time. That vitality, awareness it's still not there and I am stuck here waiting. Trying to be patient. Chronic relapsing is wearing me out, although last time I made it 2 months, I started feeling better a lot sooner and also didn't do anywhere near as much to help me start to feel normal again as I have this time. This time has been a gnarly withdrawal, for whatever reason, in some respects... really irritating ones too. It has been a very irritating withdrawal, and I feel like my life has been on hold for a month now considering the time I was high and I'm getting impatient... then I eventually find the euphoric stimulation of the oxycodone pill. I don't really mind being a burnout. I'll smoke my herb and shatter and see how things are in a week.
Haven't thought in a while about how bad I still feel. It has been more than 2 weeks and with definite withdrawal symptoms like restless legs which really doesn't bother me it's the fucking depression. Kills my creativity and energy and I still don't have it back this time. Feels like I fried myself. I don't know what I am going to do.
p.s. the bong rip didn't help the nausea situation. I can get nauseous on higher doses of 2c-d. I dabbed some shatter and that helped. I don't feel nauseous anymore. Now, I am noticing the restless feet. Unlayering an onion of irritation, lol. Really it's kind of like yoga in a way, but just chilling out trippin out. I typically get really stoned for yoga too though, and often take a more reasonable dose of 2c-d, like 20mg for that. My experiences with that have been real trippy.