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Well boys, im done. Im so fucking frustrated its crazy!! My little spot wasnt giving this morning so i went for spot on other side. Remember that i used up my right side but its healed. From front it looked like brown mark but from side it looked like a vein. Took awhile but finally blood and lots of flow. I pushed and it was wonderful!!!! I had 20mg in there too. So great i couldnt wait for me next shot. I patiently waited till 3. Hit same vein but different spot, tons of flow again.....and nothing. I got so pissed i loaded up 16mg and poked for an hr and had 5 bloddy cottonballs. Both sides, legs, arm, wrist, everywhere. Im very well hydrated so thats not it. Hell i was just looking for blood period. I went back to my spot and its like a little cirle of scabs. I stuck right in middle and yes it was crunchy when i entered. Got blood and flashback and pushed and got a tiny buzz. Blood everywhere. How the hell can blood pour out of a site i was in but none goes in the syringe. Its dark venous bliod. Im at a loss. I know best way to find a vein is feel for that spongy bounce back under skin. Shit aint worth the trouble for 20second high even though the high is wonderful. Wasting pills and going thru syringes. I used 3 today cause they were locking up on me so i just transfered to new syringe. Sometime some blood makes solution pink but i can still see blood. Man, i woulsd say i get high 5% of time. Thats bullshit and i dont see it worth it with all the risks if iv'ing. I still want to cause im addicted to the whole proccess man and at this point in my life it the only thing i have. Im already 2.5 days short at end of pill cycle which will be hell. I still have my morphine but its not gonna be fun. Im envious of people who have huge veins and can pop one everytime. I really hate this cause ive become addicted to a 20 sec high. Never tried H but Dilaudid is super. Just gonna take 16 orally for awhile and heal up. Im up to alternatives. Fucking sucks. Well see hot it goes. Any ideas?