NOW I understand why this version of the thread is called "Sweet 16 mind control machine". It's one of the best drugs I've had to do metaprogramming of the mind. It totally transformed me in a very positive way, because I realized it's potential and weaknesses. It really is sweet. After a long binge since my birthday this year I've come to realize what a great compound this is, and I do not feel the need to take it more than I need to for personal development. I've been depressed for the major part of my life and MXE really helped me understand the evolution of such moods and the effect they have upon the psyche and consequentially the body.
Before this binge I was suicidal. That's why I began using MXE again. At first I was just taking it to escape my life. Then I started experimenting with high doses again and exploring the M-hole. Since these high doses it feels like I've awakened from a long slumber of misery filled dreams. Nowadays I feel good about almost anything, and I can see the positive in the negative a lot clearer. I also feel like a lot of repressed memories have resurfaced, allowing me to deal with them in a constructive way, instead of just trying to run away and leave it growing in density in my subconscious. Before these experiences, I really thought I had brain damage from long term psychoactive abuse, but I feel as if taking MXE as much as I did this year really helped me regain composure about this. Even after a few days of abstinence from it I still feel the benificial effects upon my capabilities. MXE has also helped me learn to play the guitar a whole lot better. Before this binge I struggled with musical theory because I was too lazy honestly speaking. During I just went at it and it felt like I needed it to play better. Now I still play as well as I did when I was dissociated.
I've also been having so many synchronicities when using that they really don't surprise me anymore. Sometimes I feel like I am destined to use this, but when sober I realize that it is my own personal choice. Maybe it just makes me more conscious of these coincidences and helps me recognize patterns in human, but also animal and other natural behaviour. As for it's effects on the body, there are not much I can speak of, besides when I'm stressed out and I use it I get a lot of muscle tension and cramps, sometimes heartburn and a slight feeling in my lower back, suggesting that it probably might have an effect on my kidneys. But I'm generally in a good mood with enough energy, so in my opinion it can't be as bad as some people think. It certainly is no ketamine when it comes to real physical pain, because when I use it I get the worst cramps in the area of my intestines. I really am grateful to the chemist who came up with this substance because else I would be using ketamine to the point were it would become very very detrimental I believe.
I hardly use anything else except for weed and psychedelics once a month. When using MXE I don't feel the need to drink as much as I used to. It even helps me cut down on spliffs. It promotes good behaviour in me and makes me fall in love with everything. I don't want to sound like an addict here, because I don't feel like one. Even if I had it right now, I don't think I would use it. I just feel like it has a serious therapeutic value which needs to be investigated more. I think a lot of people could be helped with this chemical if they just learn how to use it properly. Takes a lot of trial & error though, and not everybody is as accepting towards these chemicals. I hope someday people will be able to alter their consciousness however they please... Thanks for reading
